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Feverfew
18:33 / 27.04.07
Jack, I can only really echo Boboss, and certainly DD ('I hope you hold up alright, with everything'). It's a horrible, horrible thing to happen. I'm also no good at vocalising this sort of sympathy, but I hope it comes across that the sympathy exists, even if I'm not loquacious enough.

Imaginary Mice, that article makes my blood boil. I have to put up with all manner of half-boiled BNP rhetoric from people I call friends, who are perfectly well-rounded apart from what appears to be a huge fucking blindspot when it comes to The Immigration Question, and think 'The Asylum song' is the height of sociopolitical commentary and funny to boot. All I can say is breathe deeply and hope that people have more sense than to vote for N**k G*****n.
 
 
This Sunday
18:51 / 27.04.07
Imaginary mice, there's nothing really to be done but meet folks like this head on, I think. One of the benefits of being Native in the States, is that I can never experience these sort of Get Off Our Land types without a twinge of absurdity. Of course that and our filthy miscegenations and nonchristian ways are probably why we lost the war(s).

And I'm given hope by finding out I'm not the only person who's misread "the BNP should be denied the proverbial oxygen of publicity" as "should be denied oxygen or publicity."

If they have to keep giving in, relenting on points (Holocaust may've happened, homosexuals might be alright to be homosexual) even with clauses to keep it nice and spiteful (the genocide end wasn't intentional, and men shouldn't touch other men in public like that, respectively), it's a sign that the thing eventually has to either wind down or shave off its numbers by getting really intense again, yes?

I think the sensible or on-the-right-track folks actually come out pretty well in the responses. Better than much of what we get, similarly, in the States, anyway.
 
 
This Sunday
18:55 / 27.04.07
I take that back, having assumed the small section of responses I read would average out through the rest. That's really fucked up, if it is any kind of representation.

But they usually aren't.
 
 
Papess
19:09 / 27.04.07
That is so very sad, Jack. Sending you some huggles and gentle thoughts.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
19:11 / 27.04.07
I'm truly sorry to hear that, Jack.
 
 
STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK
09:13 / 01.05.07
I feel ugly, stupid and unwanted. I know that I'm currently coming down off several day's worth of massive quantities of drugs and that most of this will pass (well, the shivering/sweating part anyway), but it really doesn't feel good being me right now.
 
 
Mon Oncle Ignatius
09:22 / 01.05.07
You are none of those things you listed, apart from coming down off drugs. Really. I know it's a shit time right now, but don't let the bastards grind you down.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
09:34 / 01.05.07
Stoatie, you are fucking brilliant. Take it easy, get plenty of rest, and huggle doggles till you come right again.
 
 
Mon Oncle Ignatius
09:49 / 01.05.07
Jack, that's horrific, and you have my heartfelt sympathies.
 
 
Mistoffelees
10:04 / 01.05.07
Yes, Stoatie, just try to keep in mind that this will pass, and things will brighten up again. Then you´re already past the peak of that bleak mood.
 
 
STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK
12:19 / 01.05.07
Sorry, I didn't read back through the thread- Jack, that's awful. My heart goes out to you and the rest of the family.

And thanks, everyone.
 
 
Triplets
12:52 / 01.05.07
A ratel sketch while you chin-up



GO HONEY BADGERS!
 
 
Kali, Queen of Kitteh
14:38 / 01.05.07
I hate that formal wear make me feel hideously frumpy. It's depressing.
 
 
*
15:18 / 01.05.07
Jack, I'm really sorry. It's terrible to lose a parent, whether a blood relation or a parent-figure, and no one should ever have to lose two at once, as devastatingly often as it happens.

I'll be thinking about you and wishing you the best. I hope you get the comfort and support and time you need.
 
 
*
15:19 / 01.05.07
Stoats, you're a fine man. Here's hoping it all looks better on the other side.
 
 
imaginary mice
16:04 / 01.05.07
Don't be silly, Stoatie. You're my #1 barbecrush.
 
 
This Sunday
16:49 / 01.05.07
Stoats, you're actually one of the defining pillars of Barbelith-through-the-ages for me. And if you're like you come off here in the real flesh and dust world, you're probably a pretty damn good guy.

And, Kali, we've got a forum right here - about midway down the colored bars - that might help you with that formals concern. Surely there's some decidedly un-frumpy kit you're suited to that'll do the trick and keep you from feeling unpleasant. BarbeSave is a lovely thing.
 
 
This Sunday
07:42 / 02.05.07
I finally got near enough to visit my dog, whose been staying with relatives, and whom I've had since she was a puppy, around sixteen years ago. And before I got a chance to go out and see her, massive organ failure and now she's dead.

Literally the finest dog I have ever encountered, thrice as good as any human being, and smart, loving, and lazy as you could ever ask for.

Is it odd that I'm not upset by her passing so much as I am that I feel I should've made the extra effort to see the dog one more time? It's like I betrayed or abandoned her.
 
 
Olulabelle
09:27 / 02.05.07
I'm really, really sad for you.

And for everyone else here. Jack Fear especially.
 
 
Spaniel
10:57 / 02.05.07
DD, my old dog's very ill at the moment so I share your sad.
 
 
All Acting Regiment
14:28 / 02.05.07
HELLO (insert name)

I AM NOT *THAT* WEIRD, SURELY?

PLZ TEXT BACK

KTHNX
 
 
*
15:20 / 02.05.07
DD, I'm really sorry to hear it. I also don't think it's odd that you feel bad for not getting to see her—it's a very common part of the grieving process. I can't imagine losing someone I love and not feeling like I should have done something more for them—no matter how much I've done.
 
 
STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK
15:52 / 02.05.07
DD- nothing odd about it at all. But sooner or later you will come to realise that you can't blame yourself. If that's the way your brain is processing grief, then let it.
 
 
STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK
00:24 / 03.05.07
Everything actually sucks at the moment. Except my dog and my friends, who rock. Actually, some of my friends fucking suck too. The ones who suck aren't on this board though, so it's okay to say so.

I'm a bit pissed and not really at my best right now. I should probably not have come into this thread. Sorry.
 
 
*
00:39 / 03.05.07
Stoatie... You came into this thread feeling miserable, and wanting support for it—something you are perfectly entitled to want, by the way, and it is a good and healthy thing, in my opinion, to ask for support when you want it—and the first thing you posted was to be supportive to someone else. Now, if it were not so, that would be no bad thing, of course. But the fact that it panned out like this is kinda extra special shiny, I think.
 
 
STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK
00:55 / 03.05.07
I wish that were true- I'd be the nicest, most selfless stoat in the world!... look at the time stamps, id. Thank you for thinking the best of me, though.

I posted that helpful and nice stuff hours ago when I wasn't feeling so miserable and self-centred. I still mean it all, of course, but I would have posted the miserable stuff (which I posted hours later, actually) whether or not it had occurred to me to read what other people's problems were first.

Thanks for your misreading, though, and thanks for your interpretation of it.
 
 
*
00:58 / 03.05.07
Oh, me and timestamps have history. But you're still the nicest, most selfless stoat I've ever met. The last one bit me on the ankle for no reason a-tall.
 
 
nixwilliams
06:54 / 03.05.07
I'm miserable, but I brought it on myself. Also, it's raining and cold and coming up to winter. I hate winter. Reading about the horrible things that have happened to other people recently (my sympathies to you all) makes me pissed off at myself for being miserable, which doesn't really help the situation. Sigh.
 
 
Ex
07:04 / 03.05.07
You can't rank miserable. (Well, you can, bad example. But it's not like you're using up all the - whatever miserable gets - by being miserable also, to the detriment of real, valid sad people. Hope you feel better, and Winter ducks out gracefully.)
 
 
charrellz
20:17 / 03.05.07
Tuesday night, I stayed up until 7am doing classwork and studying. Due to power outages, I slept through my 8:30am alarm, as well as my 11am test for a class I'm only doing so-so in at the moment. This class has three tests and an optional fourth test that will replace a previous test grade. Trouble is, you can only take the fourth if you took all three previous exams.

Today, I went to speak to the professor, and he will not help me in any way with this problem. At all. I begged and pleaded with him, and explained how desperate my situation is and how drastically this one test in this one course will effect my entire academic career (see below). His response, "If this test is so critical, then why did you choose to miss this exam?" emphasis fucking his, and it's pissing me off. This guy has been nothing but rude and unfair to me this entire semester, but never over the line enough for me to lodge an actual complaint against his arrogant ass. Anytime I make a comment or ask a question in class (which is frequently because we have small classes at this college, so participation is encouraged) he would either dismiss what I said without a thought or just talk over me about another subject before I even finish my sentence.

So, now that I have a brick wall of a professor between me and this exam, I am fucked. An F on this exam means an F for this course, right when I'm trying to get my shit back on track. An F in a course has a HUGE potential of dropping my GPA low enough that I lose my scholarships. Without my scholarships, I can NOT attend this school, meaning I will not be able to return next semester for my senior year. Even if I manage to do well enough in my other courses this semester to save my GPA and keep my scholarships, there is a very slim chance I will be able to retake this course (which is required for graduation) along with every else I need to finish my major in time to graduate in th standard four years. I can't afford a fifth year of college, especially since some of my loans are drastically reduced if and only if I graduate in four years.

Beyond all of this, beyond the fact there is a decent chance that I will not get to complete my college education, I am mostly aggravated with his assertion that I chose to miss that test. I am so pissed off by this and there isn't a damn thing I can do about any of it, which is just pissing me off more. This might belong more in Urgh! Fuck!, but being pissed off is making me miserable, so it goes here.
 
 
Pooky Is Just My Pornstar Name
20:33 / 03.05.07
Charrellz,

Have you considered contacting the power company and having some sort of letter written in which they can confirm the power outage in your area? If you can get some sort official document prooving that, you may have grounds for recourse. Alternatively, have you tried speaking to the Registrar's office or someone else to plead your case? How about your prof's dept. head?
 
 
charrellz
21:46 / 03.05.07
Power company plan won't work, because it was one of those things where only some of the outlets in the room blinked out during a storm (I'm assuming this is what happened because my computer was unaffected). Additionally, I live on campus and physical plant is pretty incompetent with that sort of thing.

I'm going to speak with my advisor tomorrow, but there isn't a whole lot anyone can do, because technically the professor in question is doing everything by the book, just in a really dickish manner, which means I don't have much to stand on and am completely dependent on this professor suddenly taking pity on me before the semester ends next week.
 
 
Papess
21:58 / 03.05.07
Oh dear, charrellz. I can imagine how frustrated you must be. You have been working hard. Here's hoping that your professor has a change of heart.
 
 
ibis the being
22:32 / 03.05.07
I am miserable... about 2 mo, I see, after the last time I posted in here. I'm always & continually broke, I never get to see my night-shift working SO, we have been getting along like crap, and now I'm leaving town to go far far away for 2 months. And I even have to leave my dog behind. Why do SO's not understand that "it will fly by" is NOT a happy-making answer? MISS ME. I MISS YOU. And we're getting married in 5 months and this scares me... it scares me to be married to a voice on the telephone, a mysterious ghost that eats half the food while I am out, a smell of soap in a still-warm but empty washroom.
 
 
Spaniel
08:43 / 04.05.07
I'm sure he misses you, Ibis.
 
  

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