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Less searchable M0rd4nt

18:42 / 04.12.07

Well yeah. But I let these things bug me way too much. There was no touching, and all I had to do was walk down the other end of the carriage.

18:49 / 04.12.07

No touching? That is silly logic. If someone shouts verbal abuse, is there any touchings?

Someone directed actions at you that where meant to make you feel uncomfortable. It was an attempt to make you feel violated. What's not to dislike?

You aren't being sensitive, you are just noticing that someone was being a shit. And the fact they specifically chose to be shitty to you is a pretty unpleasant thing.

18:52 / 04.12.07

Ung, TtS I fucking hate that feeling.
it always seems so much worse to think about saying 'hey, WTF?' than to just try and ignore it. Plus I tend to think of all the reasons why it might be oppressive to hassle someone for it. there's this weird brainloop of wanting to alter my behavior or copping skills to suddenly miraculously not be upset by it rather than feeling entitled to simply ask the other person if they are intentionally being an asshat. Sexist power dynamics a-hoy.

Are they mentally unwell is usually my internal worry when it ought to be why am I unable to confront it easily. I try and have a mental placeholder to politely ask WTF. though it hasn't happened ot me for quite sometime, thankfully.

King is there a community resource you could notify of the behavior? Maybe the PD? Sorry you had to be the only sane human on the scene but I'm glad you were at least there long enough for the people to be reminded they were acting in a fucked up manner.

16:00 / 06.12.07

I was in a car accident today. Just a minor thing, nobody was injured. I had to reschedule my dentist appointment, and the other parties were doubtlessly inconvenienced as well. I am somewhat proud that I handled the situation correctly, without panicking or anything. Still, now that it's all over (for now) I just feel like curling up into a ball and crying.

Hallo, Paper Spaceboy

16:07 / 06.12.07

Good for you, Liger, on keeping calm. That's exactly the thing I'd probably spontaneously panic about in the middle of dealing with. If you need to curl into a ball, let yourself go -- you've gone the responsible stuff and now you can give yourself some time to actually process the event. Even if no one was hurt you were still in a dangerous situation that amped up your body chemistry and now's a good time to let your system return to normal. Which means rest.

I'm not miserable, per se, just cranky -- the stye on my eyelid is taking forever to dissipate, and now I have a cold sore on my lip. I'd like to think I normally handle stress a lot better than this, but it all seems to be hitting me in vanity-undermining ways for no apparent reason.

17:27 / 06.12.07

The fucking muppet that I am seems to have fallen for a dodgy website and payed out £180 to someone who will never give it back or give products for it.

I feel miserable and embarassed.

I'm glad you're okay tho, Liger.

My Mom Thinks I'm Cool

17:33 / 06.12.07

XK - maybe. probably not. I live in a big public housing project and they went into a big apartment complex. considering the winter bundled-ness, my description of the guy would probably narrow it down to about 6000 suspects.

guess I could have followed them in to see where they went, though that would have been pretty weird. maybe next time I'll be a little more bold - there was a time when I would have been one of the people doing nothing.

20:32 / 06.12.07

I feel empty and un-whole. I hate being alone and as horrible as the relationship was I still miss him. I'm inclined to drink myself into a stupor but I've been doing that a little too much of late. I think I might just go to sleep.

STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK

01:39 / 11.12.07

I found out yesterday that a friend committed suicide over the weekend. I haven't really got my head round it yet, it's too fucking big and weird, but when I do finally figure out how I'm supposed to feel I'm guessing it won't be "happy".

Essential Dazzler

02:21 / 11.12.07

That sucks horribly, Stoatie. Can't begin to imagine how that feels.

Good Luck.

02:40 / 11.12.07

ugh... that's horrible news. my condolences...

03:47 / 11.12.07

ugh. Sorry to hear that Stoats. My deepest sympathies on the loss of your friend.

Less searchable M0rd4nt

04:27 / 11.12.07

Stoatie, how horrible! My condolences to you.

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04:59 / 11.12.07

Stoatie. I'm really sorry. That is awful.

07:10 / 11.12.07

Sympathy and condolences, Stoatie - truly horrible.

08:05 / 11.12.07

That´s so sad. I wish you all the best of luck in this impossible situation.

08:43 / 11.12.07

Sorry to hear of your loss, Stoatie.

Tabitha Tickletooth

08:47 / 11.12.07

Stoatie, this is awful. Sending you many comfort thoughts to try and to help you through.

Closed for Business Time

08:57 / 11.12.07

That's awful Stoatie. All the best to yourself. My condolences.

09:11 / 11.12.07

Shit.

STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK

12:41 / 11.12.07

It's kind of weird- she wasn't a close friend, but a few months back she called me to say she was feeling suicidal. I called another friend who knew her a lot better to ask for advice, and she'd been given the number of her crisis team in case of just such an eventuality, so we called them, and hoped we weren't overreacting. They showed up and obviously didn't think we were, because they had her sectioned. I mean, I'd do exactly the same thing again if I had to, and I'm sure it was the right thing to do, but I don't think she ever really forgave us for that, which is kind of a hard thing to know.

13:30 / 11.12.07

There's nothing else you should have done man, and she obviously wasn't in the frame of mind to understand why you had to do what you did.

That's a horrible state of affairs though, and you have my sympathies. Take it easy and just let it come as it does.

All Acting Regiment

13:40 / 11.12.07

That's fucking horrible. Hope it's no worse than it needs to be.

13:49 / 11.12.07

My thoughts are with you dude.

13:52 / 11.12.07

Oh my God, Stoatie, that's awful news. Some things are just beyond our control, no matter how much we want to help. Don't be hard on yourself about this.

14:10 / 11.12.07

My condolences, Stoatie.

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15:03 / 11.12.07

but I don't think she ever really forgave us for that, which is kind of a hard thing to know.

Are you sure about that, Stoats? If I called a friend to say I was feeling suicidal, it would be because I didn't trust myself to make the right decisions and needed some help. Some part of me would be wanting to save my life, even at the risk of spending some time hospitalized. So I don't think I could blame my friend for it, at least not without feeling at least a little grateful at the same time.

STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK

15:07 / 11.12.07

She kind of cut off contact- I spoke to her a couple of times, but the last time she spoke to the girl who'd actually called the crisis team she was really fucking angry with her. (That was only a couple of days later, mind).

18:36 / 11.12.07

Better to have done something than nothing, I think.
I had a friend who I sort of drifted away from a few months prior to his suicide, and I sometimes puzzle over our last conversation wondering if I should have said something differently or been more reassuring.

19:46 / 11.12.07

Right. If she called and told you she was feeling suicidal and you blew it off, and then this happened - well, I'd think that would be far worse. Generally if someone talks about suicidal feelings it's a cry for help, so helping was exactly what you needed to do.

So sorry to hear about this, Stoats.

19:58 / 11.12.07

Yeah, what they all said. You did exactly what you should have done and, basically, the only thing that you *could* have done in a situation like that.

19:59 / 11.12.07

Yes. I - fuck - I wouldn't even have a glimmering how to handle the first situation let alone the latter. Horrible stuff, Stoatie. Best to you.

19:59 / 11.12.07

That's awful news Stoatie. I'm sorry for your pain.

Sekhmet is full of strong truth though. Don't knock yourself for doing the right thing when you had the chance. You might find out that intervention allowed some other people to have some meaningful experiences with your friend they wouldn't have shared otherwise. I'm sure those folks are grateful for every additional second they had with her.

ONLY NICE THINGS

21:35 / 11.12.07

Ah, God. I'm sorry, Stoatie.

21:39 / 11.12.07

For what it's worth, I'm also sorry and thinking of you.

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