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The miserable thread

 
  

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Saint Keggers
00:06 / 22.08.07
I still miss her something terrible.
 
 
Cailín
23:46 / 22.08.07
We had to put the cat down this morning. His kidneys stopped working yesterday and he looked and acted okay, but he was deteriorating on the inside. They let us bring him home last night, with the understanding that we would bring him back to be euthanised as soon as he got worse, so we fed him all the things he liked and scratched his ears and pet him and told him he was the best cat ever. This morning he was sick again, so we took him back. Hell. Even the vet cried.
Poor little bastard was only three years old. Everything about this is wrong, and I need someone or something to be angry with. And all I've got is, we put warning labels on anything toxic to humans, why don't we do the same for our pets?
 
 
nixwilliams
23:50 / 22.08.07
oh, cailin, the whole thing is horrible. sympathies.
 
 
This Sunday
23:57 / 22.08.07
That's horrible in ways that make the word 'horrible' sound stupid. I feel so bad for you and the poor cat.

Please, take some comfort in the fact that I was planning on going to find some lilies, and for my catty's sake am now not going to do that. I had no idea.
 
 
ibis the being
21:28 / 23.08.07
Oh gosh, how awful... I'm so sorry to hear he didn't make it Cailín!
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
21:52 / 23.08.07
Oh, how horrible. I'm so sorry.
 
 
Mirror
22:50 / 23.08.07
Google didn't hire me, damn it.

The first two interviews went great, but then I flew across the country for the final set and my nerves got the better of me and I fumbled around like a bloody idiot.

It's amazing how much the course of one's life can hinge upon the events of a few hours. I knew immediately that I hadn't acquitted myself very well, and now it seems to me in retrospect that I had somehow sabotaged myself by not really believing I was good enough for it. That really hurts worse than anything - not that I was turned down, but that I couldn't believe enough in my own abilities to go in there with confidence and do what needed to be done.

I used to say that I'd never really failed at anything that I tried. What I didn't say though, the truth I never uttered, is that I never really succeeded at much either, just kind of muddled along doing enough to get by without putting too much effort into anything.

I wouldn't say I'm quite miserable. But I do feel very strange.
 
 
Princess
23:05 / 23.08.07
Facestab. Facestab. Facestab.
 
 
Tsuga
00:04 / 24.08.07
one thing that makes me miserable is it's 2007 and people still do things like this.
 
 
grant
01:57 / 24.08.07
just kind of muddled along doing enough to get by without putting too much effort into anything.

The more I read history, the more I think this is the story of most heroes.

If that's any consolation.
 
 
grant
02:05 / 24.08.07
Luck.
 
 
Dead Megatron
20:42 / 25.08.07
Gaaahhh! I got two tickets to the freaking opera tonight, and my date just literally called in sick. I hate, hate, hate flu virus. Were I God, I'd wipe them all out of existence.
 
 
Triplets
13:49 / 29.08.07
Well, basically, something I said about my mum about a year and a half ago has just come back to haunt me. Judging by the way people have reacted it looks like one brother has disowned me and one really isn't happy with me. My mum, by contrast, is gutted but she's the one who's actually talked to me about why I said what I said.

This pales to what will happen when my dad gets home. From past blow-ups (with other people) there's a good chance I might get kicked out of the house. There's a chance I might even get beaten up.

So I suppose this is a potential "Goodbye, Barbelith". If you don't hear from me for a while that's why. Keep well, Barbelith.
 
 
Mysterious Transfer Student
13:59 / 29.08.07
My god. Please keep yourself safe Triplets, I hope we hear from you again before too long.
 
 
Sibelian 2.0
14:00 / 29.08.07
Be safe, Satan. Perhaps it is time simply to leave, anyway? I withstood a great deal of that kind of crap when I was younger from my old man and frankly I regret not just leaving as soon as I was old enough.

Look after yourself, my dear.
 
 
Princess
14:38 / 29.08.07
Leave now.
If you believe there is a risk of violence just go to a friends house.
Theres no reasonable reason to put yourself through that.
 
 
Triplets
14:47 / 29.08.07
I've just pre-empted my dad finding out and have just phoned him. He's known about it for a while and he's disapointed but we're going to chat about it when I get home. I was leaving for the evening anyway to go see someone about a bar job so that would've kept me out of harm's way. Sorry for scaring anyone. Thanks to you all.
 
 
Tryphena Absent
14:55 / 29.08.07
I think the obvious question is: what did you say about your mother?
 
 
Mistoffelees
14:59 / 29.08.07
Good luck with your family and your job, Triplets!
 
 
Ticker
15:22 / 29.08.07
oh and I'm sorry for your loss Cailín. It's an awful thing to lose a loved one to something like this.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
16:17 / 29.08.07
Trips, I hope you can resolve everything. If you reckon there's any risk of violence, though, get out of the situation. Go to a friend's, whateverm but don't take any chances.
 
 
Gendudehashadenough
17:41 / 29.08.07
I think the obvious question is: what did you say about your mother?
What a resounding question.... Good luck with the smoothing over and new employment Triplets/SP.
 
 
This Sunday
17:46 / 29.08.07
Good luck getting through, Triplets.
 
 
Alex's Grandma
19:55 / 29.08.07
The thing to remember, Satan, is that it's all good material for the autohagiography.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
15:15 / 30.08.07
I've just got in and found my flat broken into. Nothing's missing but I feel scared.
 
 
Hallo, Paper Spaceboy
15:17 / 30.08.07
Oh fuck! Can you call someone over to hang out til you feel a little comfortable in the space?
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
15:27 / 30.08.07
No.
 
 
Alex's Grandma
15:29 / 30.08.07
And phone the police - it may seem pointless if nothing's been taken, but they'll want to know anyway, and it might make you feel a bit better.

Sorry to hear that though. It's a horrible feeling.
 
 
grant
15:29 / 30.08.07
Would you like to stay online, or do you have someone you can stay on the phone with?
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
15:33 / 30.08.07
I can't face dealing with the police. I'll be up and down from the computer, I guess.
 
 
ONLY NICE THINGS
15:39 / 30.08.07
God. Sorry, Mordant - that's horrible. Can you secure the door, or at least block it in a way that would make opening it noisy and time-consuming? That may be reassuring. Is Lurid out of town, or will he be back?

Commiserations.

Oh, and I'm glad things aren't as bad as you expected, Triplets. Sorry about the job, Mirror. Hugs to all.
 
 
grant
15:40 / 30.08.07
Have you told the landlord yet?

Have other apartments been broken into around yours?
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
15:44 / 30.08.07
It's not the door (thankfully; we just spent 500 fucking euro on a new lock after tht housefire), it's a little shutter overlooking the stairwell. There was a bolt on it but it was a really crappy one and they just booted it off. The main door to my building has been fucked for weeks so anyone can walk in.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
15:44 / 30.08.07
And may I add a big FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!
 
 
Triplets
15:47 / 30.08.07
I'll second that FUCK!

That's incredibly scary and shitty, MC. Take care and, yes, booby trap any areas with noisy things if it makes you feel more safe. Take care.

Big hug!
 
  

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