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Gaaahh... nervous nervous nervous nervous. A friend I haven't seen in like, two years is coming to visit on Friday, staying till possibly Saturday or Sunday. This is a friend from my brief stint in New Orleans.
I'm glad he's coming up, I really am, but (and this is going to sound really stupid) he's a lot cooler than me. I mean a lot cooler.
He knows me from when I was at what I consider to be my absolute worst- I was afraid all the time, and fear completely controlled my life, I had a complete dick of a boyfriend who was back in New England, I was a wreck. Right now, I'm at what I consider to be pretty close to the best I've ever been. I'm engaged and happy, and I'm actually thrilled large- I like myself, kind of a lot. But gods, I'm boring. I'm fantastic at entertaining myself and my sweetie, but can I really entertain my much cooler than me friend? Will he still like me now that I'm not a total mess?
Pleh, awake and nervous. Eep. |
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