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PS: What's "TFC"?
Oh and here's a message I recieved froma friend about her experiences... slightly dated & certainly long, but I thought it worth sharing...
- "... about the discovery of a mutant form of salvia. i?m sure you are well aware of salvia, as i recall seeing it?s roots in that house hold. prior to last week, i had never experience this magic. now that i have, i am eager to try your source and share mine. however, the medicine i have is reportedly far more intense then the leaves of salvia. the normal leaves of salvia are treated with a standardized extract of the salvia leaves, making it?s potency ten times stronger. throughout this process it remains natural, as it is not chemically treated with anything other than it?s naturally existing chemicals. although, i have never experienced salvia in it?s very natural way, i would (based on numerous stories of the natural experience) state that the experience of the extracted source is far more intense.
as of yet, i have not reported on my experiments into this realm, simply because the complexity of this dimension took time to translate. although i still have not completely understood it?s language, i feel i can give a simplified statement of it?s effect....
(ha!!! ha!!! sorry for the length) so i sat quietly, nervously, lovingly watching it?s effects on my soul companion tsering. he had smoked a rather large dose, 1 gram. quietly he sat, and his head dropped gently for about one minute, then he glanced at the bedcover, to a sculpture i had intuitively lit up with candles, a quick glance at me and then his head dropped again down and he remained in this state for 8 minutes. suddenly, he awoke and laughed saying ? so i see, now i understand?. from that point he went into a very brief and slightly unattractive description of his experience, asking ?are you sure you want to take this, it?s really strong?? although, i wasn?t sure, i was determined.
so... after his total recovery, maybe 20 minutes, i sat pipe loaded(with half his dose, 1/2 gram, the size of an eraser on a pencil), nervously. after praying for the gift of seeing exactly what needed to be seen, i lit the pipe and inhaled. no taste, with an ease to retain the smoke. almost immediately after exhaling, the effects came on. however i must state, it is nothing like the effects of any other drug experienced before. T
he intensity with which it comes on is far stronger than anything i have ever experienced. I felt as though something was being pulled back quickly by an unknown force of gravity. i say ?something? because there is absolutely no sense of self. simultaneously, ?something? witnessed this spiralling of a dimension within a dimension of myself, but then there was no self. a complete vanishing of all identity, only a force or rather emptiness. within this emptiness ?something? was awe struck by a sculpture of buddha, an actual sculpture in tserings room. seeing it?s face(faces), then the space surrounding it, then the small slivering of the dimension between an object and the space that creates an object.
this is where the spiralling of a dimension occurred. while experiencing this force of gravity behind this ?something?, there was the experience of a folding forward into something in front of ?something? . again there was absolutely no sense of body or identity. within this space ?something? appeared, then disappeared. all of this occurred in a matter of 1-2 minutes. ?something? remained in a deep trance state for approximately 5 minutes. so here is where it gets tricky.....abruptly ?something?arose from the bed, and tsering asked ?where are you going?? this question brought ?something? to an awareness, meaning that suddenly ?something? became aware or better stated aware of the ?normal? operations of self-consciousness.
completely confused by the question, suddenly this ?something? was conscious of what we ?normally? refer to as identity/body/time/space. but this made no sense in this state of ?somethingness?, so ?something? slipped away and i began pacing around frantically. in between ?something? and the body/mind/organism which is normally related to. in this state the constucts of time and space made no sense to this body/mind organism . unsure of what to do to help me...tsering whispered(intuitively) into my ear ?om, ma, ni, pen, ma, om? .
suddenly it was as if again ?something? shifted into being. the body no longer in control, slipped ungraciously into lotus, and ?something? began chanting the mantra. according to tsering, at first in a very unnatural manner, then the rhythm came and ?something? was chanting quickly, like the tibetans. then again the self-consciousness slipped in, the body/mind/organism arose to move to the bed. where it sat quite consciously, uncomfortably for moments then slipped away into the ?something?. remained there for some time(2 minutes maybe), then the identity/body returned to ask tsering ?what happened?? in these moments things became cleare as tsering told me of all the occurrences which ?something? could not relate to, but this body/mind/organism could.
I began to see all the faces of the self, or of myself as i slipped permanently back into ?reality?. the transformation was rough and ugly. not because of the salvia, but because of the sudden realization of the self. suddenly seeing the masks of so called identity, and their careful calculations to make certain that everything appears as others (rather then ?something?) would like them to appear. this body/ mind organism suddenly became aware of the simple truth that i am constantly putting on numerous faces to appear to people as i think they would like me to appear.
Simply stated i saw the depths of my true nature and it wasn?t pretty. but then again i prayed to see exactly what needed to be seen. and it was this body/mind/organism that requested to see what was needed, for the purpose of growth. i just hadn?t expected to see this. at first i responded to this insight with my normal functioning mind, ?guilt?. the ?SOMETHING? shifted instantaneously and i grew. the strangest part of the whole trip was the simple emptiness of it all. there was no recollection of the experience, until after tsering related to me what he had witnessed. at first, watching me watch the buddha and the various faces i made. joy, sorrow, bliss, fear, awe. then out, then up, then the question ?where are you going??,then down, then the mantra, the bed, then out, then ?BOOM?. had he not told me anything, perhaps i would have awoken with absolutely no rememberance at all, except the sticky descende.
It was only through sharing his witnessing that the pieces fell into place. based on my experience, i wouldn?t recommend this salvia to just anyone. only a select few!!!!! until now i have not shared my experience with anyone other then tsering obviously. but we both agreed that this substance is not one to rave about. not because it is unpleasant, on the contrary, it is so....sacred that it deserves the respect of silence. however, i would be honored to share a journey together with you and a few carefully selected people.
one other thing to mention is that there is a sort of pschizophrenic nature to this experience. ofcourse, perhaps not everyone experiences it in this way, but there is no mistaken loss of identity that is inevitable. maybe someone like terrence mckeena would not share this experience, but few people have achieved the depths of deep space, like he has.
Tsering, has done a great depth of experimentation in the realms of psychotropic substances including dmt and hyawasca for days. he stated that this was a ?complete shock?. intense in the same way that dmt is intense, but subtly different. not only is there a total erasing of the identity, there is also a loss of identity recollection. for some this may be unbearable, so i would caution those who i share this substance with, for in some way i am responsible. i must go, but look forward to seeing you soon.
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