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Where is the feeling of depression located in your body, what parts of you house the feeling?
For me personally its my stomach and abdomen area, i find the more it gathers and doesnt get some expression or acknowledgement the worse it gets, in fact the more i talk about it, quite literally the weight i am carrying seems to lift. Mine feels like emptiness yet an all consuming emptiness, full of emptiness, yet it carries sorrow and rage.
I have been talking to a victim support counseller today about childhood traumas, and i literally feel lighter, i described incidents from my childhood, i can still only approach them in the third person, but i can tell the weight is lifted as soon as i relate my experience, its the isolation that keeps me heavy in my stomach, the lack of expression.
Relating to people who have similar problems to you can help, to see and try other peoples coping strategys, my next step is to find a support group.
Is there someway you could perhaps find a way to lift the weight of the problem through support groups to do with epilepsey and depression.
I found exercise helpful to a point as well, starting with something light like chi gung or a less dynamic form of yoga(sukha) and gradually building up to something more challenging, i tried it the other way around first and encountered repressed emotions i couldnt control, so gentle exercise to begin with would be my advice on retrospect. At first i was really resistant to the idea, i had been a cane head for a longtime, but after a month or 2 of my body moaning at me i began to love it, then id exercise everyday, couldnt get enough of it. I am going to start three new exercises this new year, which also means i socialise more and break my isolation. Its good to get new influences in my life.
Another area i have found important is a well balanced diet, it really does improve my mood when i eat the right foods, its worth looking at nutritional info and designing a diet for yourself which is both practical and has some elements of pleasure.
How about all of the above and a devotional working to freya until the spring equinox, gathering as much of her love to yourself as possible and including her in the above elements, harvesting her love into your body and food and movement. (i think i have the right lady but correct me if i am wrong) |
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