One sentence angst

23:20 / 27.07.02

A teenage suicide tragedy.

RULES

1) 1 Sentence at a time.

23:23 / 27.07.02

John stared out of the train window, feeling the thump-thump-thump of the wheels on the tracks beneath him, moving in slow unison with his heavy-heavy heart, and the back-and-forth-motion of the closed switchblade against his pale, acne-scarred face.

23:39 / 27.07.02

Every day was like Sunday, he reflected, every day was silent and grey.

03:24 / 28.07.02

But it WAS sunday, he realised, and a single tear trickled out from the corner of his decent eye - the one WITHOUT the eye-patch.

03:36 / 28.07.02

The patch itself served to remind him that he was a hostage to blindness - and the wheels underneath him.

03:38 / 28.07.02

Oh, but how HE secretly longed to be underneath the wheels of the train once and for all...cutting...mincing...

03:48 / 28.07.02

In the meantime, however, he'd booked himself in at the YWCA - would they, he wondered, have a vacancy for a back-scrubber?

Tezcatlipoca

06:37 / 28.07.02

Or would they - like so many others in his miserable existence - reject him?

STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK

11:20 / 28.07.02

Rejection, he mused bitterly, was one thing - but rejection from Swansea All-Boys Grammar School was cruel...

bio k9

11:29 / 28.07.02

Not as cruel as the punishment he truly deserved, but cruel none the less.

11:46 / 28.07.02

And were one to ask how much less he could feel, the answer would indeed be none.

14:42 / 28.07.02

Outside, the rain fell hard on the humdrum town; this town had dragged him down...

Tezcatlipoca

15:17 / 28.07.02

...down into the depths where the fragments of self hatred went spinning through the voids of his personal inner-hell.

15:34 / 28.07.02

"cheer up handsome, it's not the end of the world" a pretty young girl said to him as he left the YWCA, but unfortunately, as the girl had been forced to turn her head away from the road to speak to him, she was oblivious to the large truck that was now merely inches away from her and moving at the rate of sixty miles an hour - John froze, horrified and yet strangely hypnotised, as he was splattered by a spray of blood and brains.

15:34 / 28.07.02

He was SOOOO jealous.

16:41 / 28.07.02

But, he was forced to conclude, if a ten-tonne truck had to crash into them, then to die by his side - well, the pleasure, the privilege was hers.

cusm

12:47 / 31.07.02

John smiled at the fantasy, momentarily distracted from his own hopeless situation.

Mr Tricks

21:58 / 31.07.02

He asked the passenger beside him for the time, again, 2:07 this time, his hired assassin was now 37 minutes late and with the train pulling into it's next stop John wondered if he would ever get himself successfully killed.

Sax

08:54 / 01.08.02

Still, the devil will find work for idle hands to do. And now, at least, he knew how Joan of Arc felt.

cusm

16:17 / 01.08.02

Only the voices in his head and hallucinatory visitors never took turns between God and the Devil, he only heard the Dark One whisper his worthlessness and failure from behind his ear, or from standing quite suddenly in the asile right next to him on the train!

Old brown-eye is back

20:40 / 01.08.02

Jesus wept.

Sax

05:59 / 02.08.02

And the voice whispered: "Honeypie, you're not safe here."

deja_vroom

14:43 / 02.08.02

And he replied: "Shut up, voice! If you're so smart, how come you don't get a date, either? You're stuck inside the mind of a terminal loser! How pathetic are you??"

11:29 / 04.08.02

"At least I know what constitutes 'one sentence'," replied the voice, somewhat obliquely.

14:42 / 04.08.02

Surely, John thought, after making a fortune from persuading kids like him to divorce their parents, lawyers would clean up if they could figure out a way to make people divorce their own personalities.

Tryphena Absent

22:01 / 04.08.02

Oh, if only he could go to law school, that wonderful out of reach utopia.

12:34 / 06.08.02

He remembered last Mhyrrsday when he'd gone to a girls secondary school and pretended it was a law school, it had been unsatisfactory; he hadn't even learned how to start a case and now he was on the sex-offenders register.

deja_vroom

14:40 / 06.08.02

"I'm not done with you yet, voice!", he shouted, slightly setting off the weirdo alarm of the people standing in the line to watch Britney Spear's "Crossroads".

Axel Lambert

16:33 / 06.08.02

And the voice answered,calmly: "Just keep your eyes on the talking cats over there".

Tryphena Absent

22:21 / 06.08.02

"I want to lick your sweaty hands" the siamese whispered in a tantalising tone.

11:14 / 07.08.02

He always knew trouble was coming when the cats propositioned him in the voice of his mother, but at least the birds hadn't started ye-

11:44 / 07.08.02

Cod-surreal 'wackiness', he sighed (dissolving voice, cats and birds), was the last, desperate refuge of wannabe comic-book writers and Radio One DJs - and the music they constantly played said nothing to him about his life.

cusm

16:56 / 07.08.02

Which, he hoped, would be ending soon.