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Okay, I'll come crawling back like the dog I am.
I do admit my livejournal whine post was more than a bit reactionay, and I already knew perfectly well that I was going to garner this exact sort of heat from posting on Barbelith. What I didn't know, is how I would react to it. Although what I put out there, wasnt anything I worked particularly hard on, and was much more of a caffiene fueled musing, it still bothered me to be misunderstood to such an extreme degree.
I would have responded to an easier tone, rather than opening up to fifteen posts this morning filled with name calling and coal raking. Its as if I made the ultimate social disgrace that deserved such a reception. The reason that you dont see me around on the Temple all that much is because most of the time, all of what I see is harsh and unconstructive. I ignored the mood of it because I wanted to offer an alternative, convinced that not everyone enjoys flaming. I still dont understand why its taken so seriously, its just the internet.
None of the ground I covered was fresh, and that was intentional. I wanted to get old school and get excited, and feel the way I did when I first heard this forum existed. Its a much different place now, and you dont see those old posters you wish you did because of it, not because of my supposed airey fairy wankery.
As far as myself being a fool pretending to be jack frost in my bedroom, thats not at all the right context for what I'm talking about.
Its hard to 'come out' and talk about the things that I've experienced just because of whats going on here. I dont want people to think Im trying to say, 'I have powers, check this out, Im awesome, and if you dont, you suck.' Thats why the whole construct of superheroism works, and I feel that those who have not had any experience with DreamWalking Encounters can find something accessable within this. I already feel like the things I want to share with people will be the same things that put me away, but I just have too much evidence to the contrary that goes beyond my own skull. This is why I made that remark against the Occidentalists, Western minded people, because the things I'm communicating are in no way revolutionary or exceptional in the context of the ancient East. Its just the context and the language I'm using thats new, and even then, thats only new within the last couple years, starting with The Invisibles, the whole reason this board exists.
... I just refreshed the page and Klint has done a much better job articulating my 'back story' than I can at the moment, so take it from there.
Something is up, or something is up with me, and Im just looking for friends who understand, thats the bottom line. Thats it.
OK, fair enough, I'll stop being a dick for a moment. I can see why Chaoflux's post isn't understood out of the context of his LJ, as people here haven't read much of the "back story" and his post is anything but concise. I don't know if he'll be back, but I still think this is interesting so I'll take a stab at an "executive summary."
This work is meant to take place as "day dreaming" but as, uh, "sleep dreaming."
This all started because he's been having a lot of what you could call Invisibles-esque dreams, and frequently he runs across people he knows who report back having similar experience (I've shared some "dreamspace" with him myself, but I haven't actually had any of the "battle" dreams [and I don't want to]). There are many people in these dreams (his, mine, and other's) who hav yet to be identified. Are they real people having similar dreams?
So what he's proposing here, if I understand it correctly, is a project in which people record their dreams and we all try to figure what's going on in "the story" and how many people are actually a part of it. From there, we can eventually start to change the narrative of the story, and and make a work of art out of it. This seems to be the point of most magical/shamanist/whatever practice. Plunge the depths of consciousness, come back with something concrete. Is that so crazy? As for delusions of grandure, well maybe, but it never hurts to dream big.
So is it a waste of time to try to map this particular dreamspace/human experience and try to make a comic out of it? Maybe. But it sounds like fun to me. |
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