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I'm going to end up bringing a lot of baggage into this post, and I'll attempt to keep from speaking from my anus as much as possible. Having thus prepared y'all...
In a sense, I could be said to fit into the "catflap" category. Used to post in Temple almost exclusively. Now mostly hang in the Convo and stick my head in occasionally in the other, more serious fora including Temple. I've talked my share of crap in my little-over-3-years on the board and have, in the past oooh maybe year or so, been re-evaluating myself and my contributions to Barbelith as a whole. This introspection didn't originate inside of me. I didn't one day ask myself, unprompted, "What kind of poster are you and what do you want to be?" That came, in large part, from encountering people like you, GL. Haus, Mordant Carnival, Flyboy, Quantam, trouser, Illmatic, id entity, Ganesh, and a whole host of others who, either directly or indirectly, challenged me to challenge myself. I don't think anyone here has ever said to me, "You're shit", but I think I have been asked in one way or another to raise my game at certain points. Which I accept, and try to follow through on.
During the time I've been here, I've also been all over the map in my feelings about the posting styles of certain members. "Haus is meeeeen." "Gypsy Lantern probably hates me." "What a temper that Mordant C. has!" "Awww. Sypha's not so bad." These were the early years, when I didn't have a firm grasp on what this place was about. I also couldn't recognize that IDEAS were attacked first and foremost and that, if a poster got shirty and called "meeny meeny" on someone, it was more due to having a stranglehold on whatever idea or belief they were espousing and being unable to hold it lightly and turn it a little to consider another facet. I see some of the same feelings I had in some of the newer members that come through and I cringe at where it leads a few of them. Thing is, I moved past all the ill will I felt, tried to understand the position of those I felt were out of line and...whaddaya know..not a one of 'em is anywhere near as bad as I thought! There is a great tradition on this board for challenging weak ideas, asking for clarification when it's needed, and everyone pushing everyone else to THINK. This is valuable to me, as I feel I've become...I won't say a better person...but someone who is more able to hold a belief lightly enough to allow for challenge while holding tightly enough that it doesn't fall out of my hand.
What I'm trying to say is that I feel confrontation is good and necessary for the preservation of the culture of this board. If this is a problem for some, that really is too bad as I think they're going to miss out on an opportunity they won't get in too many other places online. I stumbled bass-ackwards thru the flap into this place. I mucked around and spent some time being, at best, a net neutral (my own assessment). I think I'm moving into a more net-positive role lately, and I attribute that to the intellectual rigour that surrounds me every time I log in. I used to feel stupid and let that hold me back. I'm still pretty thick, don't get me wrong, but I'd rather post something thick-headed and get called on it. It's one of the best ways to learn.
'K. Shutting up now. |
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