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XK - you say you have numbers? Ok, show me your numbers.
Let's start with Ham Radio operators, and miniature war games. I'm *quite* well aware that there are a lot of females playing MMOs, for example, but seriously, I think that you are putting your own observations of life aside to discuss your models of the world: these fields are, by and large, almost devoid of women because, by and large, chicks simply do not dig it.
Yes: chicks.
Now, don't confuse this with somebody who was never exposed to "feminism" or gender equivalence thinking. I'm a Post-Feminist, if you like. In my experience the retarded approach which has been taking to dealing with the issues of gender in our culture, particularly in the academic world, are not only completely unhelpful, but their stupidity and lack of observational reality simply beggars the imagination?
You know why women are a lot harder, on average, to get into bed than men? Start counting calories for reproduction. Take a really hard look at evolutionary biology.
I'm an animal. So are you. No amount of whining about fairness changes the fact that rape is the *core* of a good deal of female behavior not only in the human world, but right across the mammal and other animal kingdom. If you don't think that darwinian factors largely maul, kill and eat cultural considerations, why is it that **REGARDLESS** of "cultural" factors, roughly 10% of children were fathered by somebody other than the person who is called their father?
The reason it's the same across the entire human race is because it's too damn important to be left to the forebrain: 10% of kids are "garden variety" because it's something that apparently works in evolutionary terms. Same with homosexuality - whatever the payoff there is, it's clearly important enough to be replicated in all kinds of mammalian species. Maybe it's like sickle cell anemia, maybe it's something vastly more profound, but queer is everywhere.
Let me push this harder: men earn 1/3rd more than women. This is useful because women are *biologically* *attracted* to men with money, in the same way that men are *biologically* *attracted* to women with strong physical symmetry and a 1/3 waist/hip ratio. These things are hardwired and culture and personality are forces which act upon this substrate, not replace it.
As for whether magic is a hobby for you or a serious profession, I can't speak to your experience, but you don't *sound* like somebody who's seen the same kind of territory I'm discussing, and - from many years of experience - if you haven't started having brushes with anhilation, you're probably in the foot hills.
And, equally importantly, there's nothing at the top of the mountain. You go there because you must, and for no other reason.
I'm sorry if this sounds harsh or unfeeling, but I think it's very very important to really put some things in perspective here. Magic is fun right up until you realize that there is no law to watch your back, and that you're involved in schemes that go back six, eight, ten thousand years straight. If you haven't met the beings I'm talking about when I say "don't give a shit about your humanity" and so forth be very, very glad. Try to keep it that way.
On this Nath stuff? Go back and read about Gorakshnath and Maccsyendranath on the Island of Women. Now in the version I know of that story, Gorakshnath realizes that Maccsyendranath has become confused and deluded by the material world, so he kill and skins both of Maccsynedranath's sons and hangs the skins up for Maccsyendranath to see to wake him out of the dream he's fallen into.
And those are the good guys.
The bad guys are like Stalin or Mao... tens of millions killed in cages by starvation, mostly. Read what the Tibetans say Padmasambhava did to the mountain spirits - boiling their flesh off their bones in lakes of boiling blood, until they would submit to the "dharma" or, at least, his personal version of the Law. Really, read.
Magic of any power is fucked up dangerous shit that destroys your life. You can tell that by reading the biographical accounts of the Golden Dawn as they die in gutters, or the OTO as they go insane, blow themselves to smithereens, or also die in gutters. Why in god's name don't people think this through.
Now, you might point to exceptions - magicians you know who, over all, seem to have The Good Life. They do exist. I suggest you examine them in exquisite detail and try and figure out what makes them different.
I'll tell you that, in my experience, usually it's because they've sold out to things man was not meant to know and are in the same position as that little light on the end of the Anglerfish's stalk.
You might wonder if I walk the talk. The answer is yes: I've put my shit on the line for years, I've got a material life which includes demonstrated and manifest global change in both the environmental and humanitarian domain and I'm kicking quite a lot of ass right now in my own way.
But it is *ferociously* hard and I think that a lot of the reason that we've seen such a decline in the quality of western magical tradition awareness (and, yes, I include chaos, thelema and so on in that bag) is because people have largely forgotten what the role of the magician is.
We are first up against the wall, first over the trenches, and first into the future. And it's like being the teeth on a gigantic species-level circular saw hacking through the toxic realities of the future to try and maintain a world worth living in. Personal transcendence is largely bait.
This stuff does not kick in while you are still working largely with microcosmic energies. The worst thing you can do at those levels is blow up your family's lives. But outside of that, one you plug into the mains, the fun begins and if you have any brains you wish you had simply never started to explore the territory.
I'm not even sure why I'm posting this. I guess it needed to be said. Keep your magic within the microcosmic personal-life domain, or expect, eventually, to hit a level of power and capability where you become useful and the enormous group karmas of trying to maintain life on earth in a suitable, happy form simply storm into your world and take over your life.
It's like having a lot of money: you are suddenly responsible for every person you did not feed. Or being very smart, and piddling it away on some obscure passion that helps nobody while people die in the streets for lack of historical understanding or inspiration. You step up to plate and somebody hands you a bat and you're in and you never get out again.
If you haven't seen this, you could say it does not exist, it is not there. You'd be dreaming. |
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