Good luck finding something like that on the internet!
Already managed to more or less do so. The 'pleading politely to Thoth' route can do wonder to slip just the thing you need in your google search.
Do you care for any non-digitized recommendation maybe, please?
But the magick in this book will only work if you buy it. If you download it as a PDF or even get a photocopy, it'll blow up in your face spectaculary.
Bah, that's what they all say.
One day the terrible weight of my knowledge-thief's karma will just roll me over, and I'll need dozens of reincarnation as a copist monk to make up for it.
Meanwhile, I'm just running fast, and am managing to not be home when it knocks on my door. Sometimes I'm even going as far as giving money in exchange for books, now that the finances are better.
It has the added advantage of temporarily appeasing the nightmares sent by the hundreds of obviously carefully crafted payback-servitors hanging around my bed.
But Enochian Angels, man, that's hardcore. Shouldn't be allowed if you ask me.
Possibly you should learn by doing, not by reading?
That's something I do, too, mind you. But I need the symbolism to be spoon-feed to me. It just isn't obvious at all, never was, I'm sometimes wondering if I'm not symbol-blind or something. Or maybe I'm just not able to figure where the door is.
Just discovered a few weeks ago what exactly are the wand, sword, cup and disks. Because I saw it spelled out explicitly. Did put that to incredibly good use since, this is really an extraordinary assortment of psychological weapon. What a streak of sheer genius, to link a psychological quality to a represented object, which you are then able to modify and use with your imagination. First rate hack. But why, oh why isn't there more of simple, down to earth, 'Bandler style' explanation of this?
If it wasn't for this web page, I'll still be hunting around Crowley for ages, vaguely understanding nothing and being no better off. Now, this all starts to make sense. Somewhat.
In my currently limited understanding, what Thelema seems to be about is giving you an awesome assortment of psychological tools to help you transform yourself.
So, what is the reason to hide this in the present days? Should be free for all!
I didn't find those tools less effective because they were clearly explained to me, quite the contrary, it is just now that I'm able to at last use them.
Is it designed so, in effect that all the mad siddhis that go with the practice don't fall in the wrong hands? Because to me, that was the (relatively) easy part. As one John Constantine's incarnation rightfully put it, "Any cunt can do it".
And it is quite dangerous to have those siddhis without the psychological stability that Alchemy or Thelema or Hermeticism or whatever provides. Damn near blew me in the face. I'm not even willing to consider that this might be a voluntarily set up self-destruct trap, that would be way wicked. Really, what is the point?
If you want to understand this stuff in some meaningful way and integrate it into your life, you will need to read a lot, make a lot of your own personal correspondences, and engage them in ritual, meditation, pathworkings etc. There are no useful shortuts that don't lead to yet more questions.
Looks like I'm still missing the whole point of it after all. I'm taking your word for it. And I love my Thoth deck, but still, it's opaque. I am slowly building a meaning into each card. But it's quite personal, and all the symbols on the card didn't help much. Crowley's explanations were, for once, helpful. It may be so because I had the hand with the Yi already. First few chapters of Magick in theory and Practice were really helpful also, but after that...
What I've read, and I'm sure that's kind of the root of the problem, is that much of what are the essentials basics were given orally. Working them out from some text that are elaboration upon them is a lot of work and no fun.
Sure, when you finally get it, everything must suddenly fall into place. But if it wasn't for Benjamin Rowe, the LBRP would still be some kind of dead lumber weight to me.
Thanks to all for your answers! |