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Seth
10:55 / 25.04.06
Jeez, this place feels a little strung out right now. I don’t think it’s just me. There’s been a lot of topics in the Policy recently that (while certainly important) are all a bit meta. I get exhausted and fidgety with too much debate about other debates, as though my input has been firmly aimed back at my output and the resulting mental feedback makes it very hard to focus.

So I thought it would be a good time to check in and see how everyone’s doing. What are you up to? Anything interesting that’s new with you? What’s the current shape of your life like, summarised in a paragraph or two?

I’ve been busy trying to balance music and work, needing most of my spare time for resting. This weekend Hunting Lodge are in the studio recording our song for the ZZ Top tribute album that our singers putting together (with contributions from Part Chimp and Scout Niblet, should be awesome). We’re then taking a break while he moves to Berlin for a couple of months, in which I’m going to try to organise some meet-ups with the rest of the band to just jam and approach the band afresh, find new ways of playing, etc. Then we’ll reconvene in a couple of months and play the Ashton Court Festival and do a couple of dates with Parts and Labor.

Besides this I’m doing some off-the-wall classical music at the Brighton Fringe Festival 16th May (it’s at St. Michael’s Church if you’re free). It’s with my mate Ignacio, who writes these bonkers graphic scores and odd notations, as well as composers Michael Finnissy and John Habram and a whole bunch of really close friends from Southampton. I’ve never done anything quite like it before, and I won’t have much of a chance to rehearse it, but Iggy’s convinced he wants me on vocals at some point and some of his pieces are a chance for me to investigate some of my Christian history from a fresh angle.

Elsewhere life is pootling along nicely. Been writing more than I have in ages (been keeping a blog for the first time, really enjoying it), work is its usual mix of the mind-numbingly banal and jaw-droppingly insane. I’m thinking that I may need to address the manner in which my life is only really swinging between the poles of work and music with not a huge amount in between. There’s not been much magic practised and a few things that I’ve been thinking about have been back burnered or shunted out of the way altogether to make room.

That’s me in a nutshell. How are you, Barbelith?
 
 
Spaniel
11:17 / 25.04.06
I'm enjoying parenthood, but things haven't been easy of late. My partner and I have had to deal with our baby getting sick, which, whilst it wasn't anything major turned out to be as stressful as hell and very tiring. Not only that, but it knocked the bones of the routine we'd been painstaking developing for six. So now he's back to waking up at random intervals throughout the night.
Oh, and whilst it's lovely that he's a garrulous little bosun, it's a shame that his vocal cords have also turned out to be very good for shouting.

In other news, I'm in limbo waiting to get going on a new and far more satisfying career path. Things are falling into place but very slowly and it's driving me slightly mad. I keep telling myself that it will come, but I'm a bit short on patience at the mo' - it's getting used up elsewhere.
 
 
Haus of Mystery
11:23 / 25.04.06
I'm pretty good, thanks for asking. I'm also torn between the polarities of work and play - on one hand my illustration stuff is going brilliantly (recent exhibition, ace response at the Small Press event in London, currently helming a horror anthology, working on new stuff..), on the other work is beginning to grind (not enough pay, big changes ahoy, the fact that I pretty much run a bar - okay it might be a venue, but I'm surrounded by booze. It's not conducive to productivity). I severely need to change. It's been 3 years, and despite the fact i love my workmates, it's beginning to sour.
If only I could make that quantum leap into earning enough from drawing. I'm aware it might kill the spirit of unbridled creativity, but I simply can't bare doing jobs that I don't really care about.
That aside I have a lovely place to live, Brighton still rocks, and i have a wonderful girlfriend. I love my bike, and I love music and comics more and more every day. So it's not all bad.
 
 
elene
11:34 / 25.04.06
Hi Seth,

you're doing very nicely I see. Good for you. I agree that it's all gone a bit meta here lately. That's no harm as far as I'm concerned though because I've rarely had time to write much lately anyway.

I'm wrestling with, it now seems, very vindictive employers who not only want me to leave but seem determined to force me to spend the rest of my life working as a charwoman to boot. I'm upset about this, and what's upsetting me most is that it seems to be because I'm a tranny. I've resisted thinking that for ages, it's a frightening thought. I don't want it to be like that. But I've worked for these people for 12 years, during which time the company grew from nothing to, well, not that small anymore. I've done lots for them. And the only thing that's changed in recent years is me - and only for the better, mind you. It is fun fighting this out, but very exhausting in the long run.

But it's finally springtime in Germany, so what am I moaning about?
 
 
electric monk
11:54 / 25.04.06
Mostly work and a little bit of play here. Lil' monk's first birthday is coming up next week. Both sets of grandparents are coming into town for the party and Wifey and I have about 10,000 things to do before they get here. It's to be a superhero birthday party, and we've ordered a Justice League cake and bought matching decorations. Got a baby pool for all the nippers to play in during the party too! Shopping for his gifts, tho, was the best. He's getting a big chunky police car that makes sounds when you bump the bumper, some new clothes, a jack-in-the-box, and a little four-wheeled walky-bike from us.



Work is good, if I can ignore the casual racism, homophobia, and xenophobia. It's only one or two members of the office staff, but they know they can push my buttons if they keep at it. Luckily, I haul a mess of CDs to work every day, so that makes it easier on me. Nicest bit? After only a month, the senior designer told me that he'd like to start getting me involved in some design work, and that ideally I could be a jack-of-all-trades around the office. I was hoping that would happen, but I didn't expect it so soon.

I've realized that it will be a loooong time before I have free time dropped into my lap. Everything needs to be scheduled these days. Even relaxation. I'm hoping to fence off an hour of time on Sunday evenings to conduct a banishing ritual and meditation in the next couple of weeks. WILL!
 
 
Evil Scientist
12:22 / 25.04.06
What a lovely idea for a thread.

I'm finally settling into my position as lab supervisor. My team (with one glaring exception) is one of the best on site. Since deciding to do the cliched thing and make losing weight a New Year's Resolution I've managed to drop 1lb and go to the gym much more regularly.

I've stagnated on my writing. So I need to give myself a psy-kick up the arse to get moving on that.

I still like black coffee at cardiac arrest strength.

Musically I'm listening to a frenetic mix of QOTSA, Audioslave, Goldfrapp, and UNKLE. So that's all good.

Good Stuff: My brother getting engaged. My sister about to have her first kiddie. I'm learning Chinese Mandarin and am surprised at how easily I seem to be picking it up.

Bad stuff: One of my friends who's battling mental illness seems to not be getting any better and is dropping in and out of hospital.

New stuff: Tinkering around with the I Ching. Evil Science vrs Chinese Book of Changes. Who will win this battle for supremacy?

Did you know? Evil Scientist was once involved in a record-breaking attempt to create the longest conger-line on ice (unfortunately his name was stricken from the records and lost from history forever). He once heard Bruce Forsyth say "Fuck.". His favourite Doctor is Patrick Troughton. He's never broken any of his bones.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
12:30 / 25.04.06
Not bad, not bad. Went up Montserrat on Sat. to look for fairies/aliens/orchids with a couple of likeminded nutjobs; one out of 3 ain't bad. And things. Also stuff. Oh! I may have found a way into that book on woogly stuff I was trying to write. It was hidden behind the shelves all along, I just pull this candlestick and *voip!*
 
 
Jub
12:36 / 25.04.06
I'm grumpy.

I've been grumpy so long that I don't know how to not be grumpy. I don't enthuse about anything and everyday seems one more step closer to death. I went away recently with my closest friends who were all very nice about it but thought I might be depressed about something. I can't think of anything in particular. I'm getting increasingly fit, I have a great SO, I have an all right job, I live in a nice little flat and see my friends regularly.

I can't find the motivation to do anything though and feel increasingly hemmed in, like life is passing me by, and I complain and grump rather than sorting it. At work I procrastinate and shirk. Not really sure what to do about it. Any advice received with thanks.
 
 
ibis the being
12:40 / 25.04.06
Thanks for the dose of groundedness, Seth (and all replying).

Things are going pretty well for me. My business is coming up on its 2nd birthday this summer and I have been really busy for the last few months, which is amazing. Mostly I've been subbing, so part of me thinks "well, that means MY business isn't doing especially well," but I think that's being overly hard on myself - work is work. My goal of getting out of debt this year is looking less likely because, although I'm making good money, my boyfriend's decided to go back to school to make a career change and I'm going to help him out financially - but I'm happy to sacrifice a little knowing he's going to be much happier in the new career. My dog is sick right now. I know that doesn't compare to a sick baby, but believe it or not we were up half the night doing potty breaks! He's going to the vet this afternoon.

Most of all I'm thrilled that it's finally spring. I love it. Everything is better when the weather is warmer & sun is longer.
 
 
STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK
12:46 / 25.04.06
I'm doing pretty good- keeping the booze to a vuaguely acceptable level (ie only drinking on alternate weeks). Sheena The Dog is pushing me to the limits of my patience (strictly speaking it's more my lack of garden than anything else- if shee needs the loo, I actually have to take her for a walk rather than just opening a door), but is worth every bit of effort, and is starting to calm down a little now...

My sister starts her chemotherapy today, so I'm a little worried about that, but there's not really a great deal I can do...

And I just got some kick-ass new speakers for my PC, so gaming has just got even better.
 
 
Mistoffelees
14:00 / 25.04.06
I don´t have a lot of reasons to complain (the best praise of a Berliner will always be "You can´t complain.") right now:

Today spring really set in (20°C), and so did my hayfever. The worst about it is the extremely irritating nose itch. And I´m very bored, because I´m not doing anything these days.

But as I wrote in another thread, if I got problems like that, I´m doing quite well.
 
 
sibyline, beating Qalyn to a Q
14:04 / 25.04.06
i love this thread, seth. thanks for starting it.

i've been on a fairly productive streak, working on a group of linked stories. just finished drafting another one yesterday, the third out of a planned ten.

preparing to go to grad school in august at Cornell in upstate New York while trying to balance my personal relationships here in New York City (four hours away). everything is a bit ambiguous and unstable on that end, but hopefully things will work themselves out soon enough.

a friend has been making me jewelry and i spent last night doing fittings. i'm really excited about being his guinea pig for this new project:

hands-face

he's making jewelry that explores relationships between the fingers and the palm of the hand, so it's totally custom-made to fit the specific person. really cool.
 
 
matthew.
14:23 / 25.04.06
Good idea for a thread.

Well, I just graduated from university with a B.A. (English and History), and I'm starting to get my application ready for grad school (deadline is June 2) and I'm terribly nervous at the thought of a whole new school. I was hoping to take a year off from school (it would be my first ever year off), but the ma n' da don't seem to agree and since I live rent-free, I obey their rules....

I just bought a car. Yay. Thanks. Which means I can't do any heavy-duty traveling and which means I'm not going to be able to save any heavy-duty money until it's paid off.

I just went for a polygraph yesterday. I'm going to start a thread about it and compare experiences but in a nutshell, it was the most uncomfortable three and a half hours of my life. I was so stressed out that I sweat right through my T-shirt. I went to work after, changed, and seven hours later the original shirt was still wet. I was fucking scared. Luckily, I passed completely, because I had nothing to do with the reported incident.

This summer I plan to read a lot and try to get out a little bit more. I tend to be a shut-in during summer holidays....

One final thing. While Barbelith may have gotten all meta recently, I lost interest with astonishing speed. Usually I read lots of Policy and lots of "important" threads, but after five pages of asking to ban SS, I got tired. So hopefully the next couple months (of summer) are relatively quiet of nutjobs, so that we can just enjoy Barbelith and not feel ashamed.
 
 
Our Lady Has Left the Building
14:54 / 25.04.06
That is some lovely jewellry.

I'm okay. I think some of the stress of previous weeks has been due to new working patterns which, now settled, are not so much of a problem.

If the weather holds up then tomorrow I'll be off to Lords with my Dad to watch some cricket and hopefully at the weekend I'll remember to go to the Tate to check out the gothic exhibition before it closes down.
 
 
paranoidwriter waves hello
15:14 / 25.04.06
Yeah, nice thread, Seth.

I've been rather inert for a while now, trying to break out of a mildly depressed limbo. I've made notes on about four new short-stories and even more notes on a novel I've been toying with for at least a year, but money worries and the usual "You're shit, stop dreaming and get a real job!" concerns keep getting in the way. Similarly, I've half-written three new tunes and added a few extra cassettes to the two bulging shoe-boxes by my bed, but although I realise it's time to raise my game and (*shudder*) maybe even record a demo, my creaky old 4xtrack is down to one channel and I can't really afford to even buy new strings for my guitar - very frustrating.

Other than that, the bailiffs are getting twitchy, and all my extensive job-hunting has yielded is the realisation that I'm becoming more unemployable by the day. My chances of getting on 'Deal or No Deal' are even worse.

Suffice to say, anybody know where I can get a good price for my soul?... Or maybe just a kidney?
 
 
Shrug
15:27 / 25.04.06
All is suprisingly good, the usual life hiccups occur, of course, but nothing has sent me hurtling into despair or anything. College is trundling along nicely with good marks on all of my papers and an emergent social life with my peers. Although, I wonder if they'll let me sit my exams as I don't attend lectures too frequently. If they don't it would be a pity because I don't have the cash to fund a repeated year but it's pretty much out of my hands right now. Still, so desperately glad to get out of my previous job and life that I feel lucky waking up each day.
Also, I'm in a relationship in which we both appear to care deeply for one another despite recurring arguments. Which, is, I suppose, the best thing about my life at the moment. Early days yet, however.

Also: Yes, a wonderful thread idea, thanks.
Sorry for all the bad, great to hear about all the good.
 
 
alas
15:46 / 25.04.06
Practically every tree is in bloom around me--crab apples, lilacs, redbuds, cherries, pears-- I'm dealing with needing, apparently, to hire professional help for the mouse infestation in our new business. 16 in one closet! Yikes! Plus carpenter bees boring in and nesting in the rafters.

At home, it was little moths last year, in all the cereal boxes, etc. We got rid of just about everything, and they seemed to be gone during the winter, but then I thought I saw one yesterday. I hope that I'm just imagining it. Those moths are really icky when they come floating to the surface of your cereal milk. Ew.

Life really does go on, then, quite literally. In all the nooks and crannies there seems to be sticky messy prolific procreation going on. Planting a few things I want to grow, pulling out weeds. Not writing enough real stuff. Trying to eat a little less but much better, more consciously. No mechanical eating! Is my current mantra.

I think it's going to rain again.
 
 
illmatic
16:00 / 25.04.06
I'm alright mate. Good thread. Good luck with the music stuff. Good luck at the Fringe - I'll try and make it down if it's on the weekend. BTW whenever I read one of your posts, I feel like I should put music on. Not 'cos of happiness, but I'm reminded of your passion for it. On goes - *erm* - Richard Searling's 100% Casino - "she's waaaannnted in three states, and the crimmmmeee is - heartbreak!" Did some (bad) Northern Soul dancing on Sat. Good fun.

First day back at job today. Secured a permanant post, so am finally moving off temporary contracts, thank fuck. Very tired, but I quite enjoyed the day even though I'll be working most of this evening. Still not where I want to be, but I don't know where that is yet. Would like to be a lot more secure and focused in my work but this will come, I hope.

I've been training twice a week this year so that's all good. I have improved but am more conscious of far I have to go! Despite the nice comments made about me in the "who would you want to be" thread, I am still rubbish, really. Hate to shatter illusions folks (but if you've ever had the urge to try martial arts, just fucking do it! It's great! And you'd be able to kick my ass in 6 months). I fancy trying another martial art but don't have the time right now, perhaps the summer. Think I might just hit the works gym and try and build on my current fitness.

This flat is really hemming us in - it's too small but for reasons to complex to explain we have to stay here for now.

The meditation work continues and is proving really useful at the moment in dealing with some problems and stresses arising out of the job. Still keeping my hand in, if not furiously waving it about.

... so, all that and planning a holiday (to Barcelona, hopefully) this summer. Not much else, but that's enough.
 
 
■
16:12 / 25.04.06
Reasonable, trying to sort my general attitude to life out and get healthier. Currently obsessed with the promise offered by David Allen's Geeting Things Done (coupled with the relentlessly upbeat Merlin Mann's 43 folders), because there's no other way I'll ever get this bloody dissertation done. How nice would it be to have an MA and an MSc. Very nice, so I have to get my arse in gear.
Work is OK, finally settling in properly and just about to finally get my pay rise sorted (a year overdue and less than they promised last year, but hey).
Exploding with the desire to tell everyone all about the new Who, but on my best behaviour. I have a full fridge which includes lemon curd (only just tried it for the first time recently and by GOD is it good).
Overusing brackets in ever (single) post. trying to get back to reading rathr than fannying about on the internet... oh... hang on. That one isn't going so well.
 
 
illmatic
16:17 / 25.04.06
I have a full fridge which includes lemon curd

In an uncanny burst of synchronicity, I am on my fourth slice of toast and homemade lemon curd.
 
 
Benny the Ball
16:20 / 25.04.06
I'm good. Only fifteen days until I'm out in LA, only 25 until the wedding!

I'm on the last week of a job, shifting to night shoots, and feeling it. It would be a great job if the cameraman wasn't such an idiot - just general pettiness and petulance, which is odd because he can be really helpful, but he gets great pleasure in upsetting people.

I'm listening to a lot of Goldfrapp, and (right now) Stevie Wonder, thinking about making something to eat and maybe having a glass of wine ready for the Arsenal match in about an hour and a half.
 
 
Tezcatlipoca
16:36 / 25.04.06
Other than my usual level of distaste for human beings as a species, I'm doing pretty well. The writing is coming along, and my agent is making what I think are positive noises about a reworking of the book that's with him, although, where he is concerned, those noises could conceivably just be drunken snores.

My piano is, in a bizarre way, going well precisely because it's not. I've only just really come to terms with how little of this instrument I know, and how much there is to learn, which is probably a good foundation to build on.

Other than that, Real Life continues with all the terrible inexorability it always has. Greatly looking forward to a series of music recitals coming up, and am feeling pretty good about an imminent change to my job.
 
 
Jack Denfeld
16:44 / 25.04.06
Hey Seth. Been playing poker, haven't made a big score in awhile, and I've been sticking to tournaments lately as opposed to cash games. Made enough today to get a skateboard by this weekend anyway, besides that I've been waiting tables to support my poker habit.
 
 
Quantum
17:01 / 25.04.06
Seth, I'll come to St Michael's (with groupies and drugs for your after-party if you like...) PM me if you need a place to stay.
Sibylline- that jewelry is really lovely, and so well modelled too. Can we see more examples?
 
 
Spyder Todd 2008
17:02 / 25.04.06
It's been a long and yet simultaniously fast paced couple of weeks. Right now I'm at work, and its boring as hell. Plus there's a woman walking around in a bright orange suitjacket that is making my eyes bleed. It's scary.
Tonight I have to give some bad news to a friend, which I hate to do but she needs to know. Sigh. Today is not looking fun.

Luckily, tomorrow I get new comics and I'm having dinner with a very dear friend who I haven't seen in ages. So hurray for tomorrow!
 
 
Kali, Queen of Kitteh
17:12 / 25.04.06
Let's see, I am looking for employment at a fast and furious rate (I just wasn't meant to have so much free time). The drinking is becoming scary; all your friends want to buy you drinks to console you for the loss of your job, which is all fine, but good Lord, can I have one day where someone doesn't want to drink? (Yes, I can say no, but honestly, the days here are beautiful for sitting on a patio with a pint.) My short story is coming along nicely; my dating life not so much; and today I'm just really tired.

Hope everyone's day is okay.
 
 
Mourne Kransky
17:16 / 25.04.06
It's grand, Seth. Trees out back and out front are both in leaf at long fucking last and the roof terrace is a riot of blooming colour. Spring!

Work's going well and we just had a splendid and hectic weekend with Ganesh's excellent baby sister and her lovely man.

I flooded the downstairs neighbour's flat at New Year and they said the damage would cost me a grand and a half. The bill came to less than a hundred quid in the end! Don't ask me to explain how that came to pass. I can't, except to say my original opinion that we were being conned must have been correct.. Good result though! Can perhaps afford a summer holiday now.
 
 
Mono
17:23 / 25.04.06
Super Idea!

I am recovering from a crazy virus and am at work right now--my head is so stuffed up that everyone sounds like the adults on those old Charlie Brown cartoons, which actually makes customer service a lot more bearable.

I just got the OK for taking a 3 month sabbattical from work so that I can go back to the states to visit the family and then go to Eatern Europe with Mork--YAY!

The band is trying to sort out some recording before we take 2 or 3 months off so that I can travel and M can work in sunny Scotland for the summer.

alas--i have seen a few of those little buggers flying around this week, too. Just when you think they're gone, they eat your favorit sweater...

It's springtime I want to go birdwatching with Kit-Kat and Illmatic.
 
 
Spaniel
17:58 / 25.04.06
Benny, things are looking interesting round your way. Keep us updated.

Oh, and, Seth, I'd love to come, but you know...
 
 
sibyline, beating Qalyn to a Q
17:58 / 25.04.06
i can't claim credit for the jewelry, just the hands. quantum, here are a couple of other pictures. i'll pm you the link to his web site. these are just prototypes; he's still fine tuning and we'll do a shoot with the finished pieces when they're ready:

hands-out

hand-closeup
 
 
Goodness Gracious Meme
17:58 / 25.04.06
Lovely thread idea. Seth is so sensible and grounding. (also, wld love to come to yr concert, so will make a note of that.)

Sorry, this is long.

Wondering if people who are going to respond to this thread are going to be the happier ones, as it's easier to talk happy, and feels more like you're giving to the community.

Anyway,enough with the endless analysis. Which is bit of a theme with me atm. Stop using analysis-as-distancing*, start allowing self to feel what's happening/not back away from fear/fear of loss of control.

I have been...not so good. Some tough stuff has been happening. This came after a very busy and productive and exciting (also very stressful) period and has really ground me to a halt/sent me back into some of my classic depression behaviours.

I'm trying to do basic maintenance, look after myself, and let the other stuff come back slowly.

I hate this stage, where I want to be better but have to let myself heal at whatever pace is best. It's going to be a long process, which is maddening for an impatient bugger like me .

Also, am remembering that I'm bloody tough, and value that, even while I try and make some room for vulnerability/release.

But in the last couple of weeks, am having a glimmer of a bit of a slow upturn, so am going to keep working at it, and hope that the slowness of the upturn means that it's more sustainable than the sudden jags of enthusiam that have punctuated my slump.

Life is going on, and that's still pretty much a good thing.

Hurrah for the weather is finally turning. I spent my first afternoon lounging on the beach this weekend, which means that hopefully summer and sea-swimming weather aren't too far behind.

Have some exciting writing and other work projects ongoing and some other bits and pieces coming up, so am hoping to slowly get more productive again.

Also, bicon, Pride and a catsitting holiday in Manchester mean the summer is looking full of fun.

And have, while being a stay-home-hermit, written a couple of bloody good funding applications, though I say so myself.

So, it's all about slow steady careful progress over here.



*which is not the same as 'stop analysing' which I always get annoyed about, as analysis is a really vivid part of my way of being in the world, and a blanket ban on it doesn't do me any good. What I'm trying to do is be critical of how and when I use analysis, and knock it on the head if it's seeming unhelpful. Which is a big thing for me.
 
 
*
18:02 / 25.04.06
The Bay Area is vacillating between a gorgeous, absolutely clear, positively springtime day and a week of miserable, cold April rains, and I'm beginning to realize how lucky I am that I didn't go to school in Seattle.

I'm glad to hear about your music, Seth; it sounds exciting. I'm really curious about the off-the-wall classical.

My house is ambling along. We recently had our second round of votes-of-confidence for our elected managers, but this time someone snagged one or two out of the envelope, which makes me immensely sad. My co-president figured out a way to fairly determine who needs to redo their VOCs without destroying their anonymity, which was a good trick; still, it's taking us longer to compile them. And there's conflict resolution stuff that absolutely makes my Spleen and Liver ache, but I'm hoping we'll get it worked out in a fairly timely fashion. There's a court hearing on Friday I have to go to as a witness for someone.

My school is ambling along; it's going to be an absolute HELL of a quarter. I have to put together a community needs assessment, a new museum to fit the community's assessed needs, and a grant proposal to fund the new museum by June 12th. It's exciting, in the way that doing exciting things which should take three to five exciting years in about three exciting months is exciting. And we're still getting applications for our core faculty position, which means I'm still evaluating them, people are still waiting to hear back, and we're still waiting to conduct interviews.

I'm putting together a benefit for a friend of mine who had a heart attack recently. He's doing well physically, but not so much financially, so I'm trying to figure out what would be the best way to help him out.

My personal relationships are confusing in a pretty happy way at the moment. I'm continuing one relationship in a little more laid-back fashion now, having negotiated with my partner in that relationship a pace which is more comfortable for him. He's spending a lot of time with his primary partner, who will be moving further away in the fall, and a lot of time taking care of his own needs, which he's good at neglecting, so even though I see him less I count it a positive thing. There's also someone new in my life, and in that relationship I'm the one feeling like brakes need to be applied. He's younger than me by more years than I'm comfortable with—albeit he's A— legal, thanks for asking, B— more experienced than I am, and C— more likely to hurt me than I am to hurt him, according to informed sources. All that said, I still can't help but be a little worried.

I'm stepping down as president for the summer, but hoping to run again for fall, Gods know why.

Busy, busy, busy, as Bokonon would say.
 
 
Quantum
18:07 / 25.04.06
Oh, and I'm fine thank you. I emptied the window display at the magic shop today and now get to fill it full of Tarot cards and religious statuary and crystals, satisfying work! I've been making CD compilations to send out to people around the world, did some fire twirling on Saturday night under the old pier which we got some ace long exposure photos of (I'll put them in the pics thread), am about to hassle everyone I know to join a regular email protest ring (this week I'm supporting changing the law to allow yurts and low-impact straw bale houses in woodland), Brighton does indeed still rock and there's a lot going on in the next few weeks (am going to Macready's exhibition and Nuneaton Savage's gig etc). Good coincidences are around, Spring is sprung, my tiny corner of the world is good!

I spent most of the time avoided the board fracas and stimulating interesting threads elsewhere, but I know what you mean. Too much analysis, not enough to analyse. I much prefer Barbelith in it's gregarious optimistic phase.
 
 
Quantum
18:31 / 25.04.06
Oooh, jewelry, shiny- I love the one that extends to the side of the palm, I have a bracelet a little similar expertly bent from an old silver fork. Thanks sibylline, please pass on some compliments!
 
 
Phex: Dorset Doom
18:41 / 25.04.06
Teh Good: I'm coming to the end of my internment at Reed college, which means parties and the infamous Renn Fayre (originally a rennisance fair, now what can politely be described as a 'drug-fuelled orgy'). Btw, if any younger American Barbelites are considering a college then definitely check out Reed: without even knowing you I can say with 100% certainty that you'll fit right in (former Reedies include Gary Snyder, Steve Jobs and Dr. Demento). Also, I've been writing more, finally hitting the 100 page mark in my 1000-page mega-novel. I've been updating my blog at Terror Fabulous. I'm on top of my work, my financial situation is stable, the sun is shining.
Teh Bad: Been sleeping less and drinking more. Also I've stopped going to the gym and, over spring break, got into a bit of a fight (for good reasons, I might add) and ended up losing a few friends in the process.
Y'take the rough with the smooth and mix it all together and the world don't march to the beat of just one drum, yadda dadda... these happy days are yours and mine... Go speed racer go...
 
  

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