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Hmmm...I'm not sure, really. Dreams, absolutely...incredible post drinking dreams, though not after the Solstice or since...
I am pretty much fully immersed in a headspace of spirit at the moment. I am ritualising much of what I do, in deference to the various Powers - that is, taking great care over how much of what I used to blunder through without mindfulness is conducted (see the 'Toast' post above). My Lady is in my thoughts much of late, as She has given me, by my reckoning, a devotion to Her...I am singing and playing it a great deal, adding layers of harmony and texture preparing to record it sometime soon...
It is a real fusion of Bata drumming and traditional Toque (Afro-Cuban drumming and chanting for the Orixa) and the sweet melodic beauty of SD hinos...I love it, and it came from Her, no question, a sweet/sad 6/8 devotion in G minor...She is sweet, but also sad...Her beauty and merry conduct contains and hides these things if you look into her Mysteries...I seem to be surrounded by and encountering her Mysteries rather powerfully at the moment...People I meet, places I end up, fun I'm having, synchronicities and chance encounters with this and that...The whole hino just splurged all at once, apart from a last verse I received last night...all in Portugese, which DM has helped proof-read (many thanks :-))
This is an absolute core shift in me as regards creativity. I have never, it is now very obvious to me, created anything...not even an 'I', a self, though it was pretty convincing for quite a while, hah! And the absence of it is not a million miles away from it's delusional presence. Everything changes and nothing changes. Draw water, carry sticks.
Either I'm channeling Spirit, or I ain't...and if I ain't, I'll just stop and do something else, it is completely unmistakeable.
Although this is not so much of a shift really, I just used to call it 'Vibe'...although, I was deluding myself under the impression that I could somehow force or push it into action. Still, bringing a recognition of the process to the process seems to be magnifying the process a lot!
Actually, there was this thing for a while last year...I'd get the distinct, quite creepy, impression sometimes that a large insect was hovering around above and behind me...occasionally seeing it out of the corner of my eye, clinging to ceilings etc....a sort of shadowy stick insect, rather large (like, as large as a person)...Not for a while though. |
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