I think it comes down to "vampire" being a misnomer. There's just too much stuff using the word "vampire" (yeah, I'm a LARPer, yes I DO play Vampire...no I don't think I am one, that would be exceptionally silly), which results in a lot of the more serious aspects that Daynah has brought up being lost in the noise.
I'd like to kiss you. The instant we can move past that, the instant we can delve into the more deeper issues you and Gypsy brought up. 
Do you feel that psychic vampirism is a spiritual condition you are born with/acquire later on (as in: is it innate?) or is it something that people begin to unconsciously or consciously practice later on? Is there a natural energy deficiency that instinctual training allows for a person to find a way around?
Please remember that all of my answers I do mean to represent the community... minus all of the people who are actually a different kind of vampire. Yes, in general, the psychic vampire community believes that it is something we are born with. Often times, we believe that it's something we're born with but doesn't develop or show up till later. Like... you're born male but things don't really start happening till puberty.
And vampires who do not get structured training can still get more energy... it's just extremely inefficient, and unethical. Anyone in energy working, not just a vampire, as you know, could sit in a corner and drain someone's energy. A vampire who has not been trained knows instinctively that when they whine or attract attention or do whatever it is they do, they feel a bit better afterwards.
I think my main question is why? Why do you operate in this way? What do you get out of it? What does it do for you? How does it make you happy? How does it make your life better? ...You seem to suggest above that this is an affliction of sorts:
You're right. Vampires tend to treat it like an affliction. We don't want to operate in this way. And what I described about trying to push away any thoughts about vampirism and see if I still get the symptoms? That's a common "test" for ourselves for some metaphysical hypocondria or, like M*rdant pushed his view of me up, "phase of buying into stuff that later proved desperately flawed."
Keeping within our belief system, we do make efforts to check for those situations. More effort is made at the beginning and slowly as you stay in the community, you check less frequently. Then eventually you sigh and accept it. Being a vampire does not make our life better or happier. But knowing about it and being able to accept it and having it "diagnosed" does.
M*rdant, darling, this is not a phase for me. Many vampires use me as proof for their theory that vampirism is genetic (though I don't buy that horse-dung) because my grandfather was a vampire. He never called it that growing up. My parents weren't, no one else in my family was. In energy working, we believe that we can feel such things on other people, and he felt it on me and taught me energy working without calling it that. I was in a metaphysical school in the middle of church.
Like I said before, you're born a vampire, but it tends to cause problems later on. The instant it started causing problems, I knew about it because I was already "in tune" with my energy self and what not. I knew I was constantly at some kind of lower energy level and that it was affecting me physically and that I needed to fix it.
If you want to look at it from a really energy point of view, most vampires have a chakra that is not working for some reason. Or it's not there. Or it's collapsed upon itself.
The vampire model seems to posit that the only valid method of recharging ourselves is to leach off other little batteries that we might come across in nightclubs and bars
I'm sorry you feel that way. I'm sorry I brought up that example. I felt it was the easiest to understand, but it's not the most common. The most common tends to be... walking down the road. Many people get energy from other things... like trees and and the elements and the plants. Me?
I don't believe that that's... right. That's just me. Somethings, in fact, I don't think the energy is the type you can take from. Like air. I... don't think you can get energy from air (sort of like I don't think tarot has energy). The energy that is in a table, I believe, is completely unimportant. And... all the effort that it would take for me to get that tiny bit of energy out would negate the purpose.
Humans are easy to get energy out of. I had a boyfriend I loved very much and for the longest time, he was the only person I fed off of and he knew it. He was just an abundance of energy, always overflowing. There are lots of people like this.
And, for the record, I do do Tai Chi, but not Chi Kung or Middle Pillar. I also have never heard of Liber Resh, pardon my ignorance. I also meditate every morning. There are certain energies that vampires can never be deficit of, like metta, loving-kindness energy. And I chant through the metta sutta and do a meditation on that every morning specifically because I know that and specifically because I want to send loving kindness to every one on this board.
Whether or not you think I'm tragically young, am possessed by a fad, and have no intelligence of my own but simply that of the gothic borg.
Ah, and last note... the opinion that energy work is gross makes perfect sense. "Draining" someone of energy is commonly paralleled to having sex. Which is quite gross. You're taking someone's most vital body... stuffs and integrating it with your own and who knows where that person's stuff is. Crazy people, in fact, may make you feel funny. Happy people are like a drug that get you addicted to them. People with any sort of disease (thinking about Reiki?) simply are disgusting, no matter what form of disease. The hospital or an old folks home is an awful place for an energy sensitive person to go to. |
