This ‘eternal struggle’ thing is what does the damage.
Actually, it's the only thing that keeps me sane, knowing that I'm fighting. I have the opinion that the longer I fight, the closer I get to finding the right way to cut down, or stop. It's when I give in that I'm at my worst, and I get tormented by my demons. I just need to get to the stage where I'm able to put up with the pain of withdrawal, and be mindful of the mistakes of the past that have led to me smoking loads again. |