So, i'm going to copy Quandrangle's comments prior to his return.
I really love this place, but find that i haven't read it for more than a few minutes in the past month. It may be the summer lull, or the dreaded End Times, but i just don't find the connection sticks at the mo.
I feel pretty sad doing this - this is the only forum i have taken part in and i feel pretty much at home here - but i think it's time for me to decide to give barbelith a break-with-possible-foreverness.
I joined during my degree and had high hopes for the discussions of philosophy, spirituality and all the other cool stuff i read here but, for whatever reason, i've not made the contribution i wish i had. I find myself at many points trying to form a post on Deleuze or my zen practice but get a combination of feeling worried at making a fool of myself (more a reflection on my own mind than the actions of others here) with the lingering feeling that there aren't really many people left to hold conversations with.
I suppose i still feel the concerns i voiced when drunk pretty soon after joining (here) and a mixture of personal reticence and the feeling of a stagnance here have meant i never fully engaged with barbelith.
The times i have been engaged have been great, and i have a great adoration of this place, along with the people who post here. I hope that my current clouds will blow over - i am reattending university in september and will have more free time, as well as having more reading that i will want to discuss (bring back the headshop!). I am interested in the plans for a new forum and may well join when it gets back up.
In summary - Ganesh left and the connectors were closed. I got a job. Etc.
Hopefully, this post will prove to be embarassingly short-lived but if not, farewell all. Many love. |
