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15:14 / 08.01.07

Or am i reading it wrong? Did the back of the sandwich packet look like a cunt?

In which case, Wow.

ONLY NICE THINGS

15:15 / 08.01.07

Well, if the back of a sandwich packet looked like that, _I'd_ probably be a bit distracted by it.

Ex

15:43 / 08.01.07

If you turn a packet of Walker's crisps upside down, the logo looks like a naked man with a cricket bat. 'Strue.

15:51 / 08.01.07

Honestly she was horsey and gawmless.

I feel I have been deservedly chastised. (Including by the people I went to that goddamn coffee shop with.)
Can I stop feeling guilty yet?

Shame on me.

And I used make coffee for a livng too. Yes it was intended as humour. Yes it pretty much happened that way. I have complained and stormed out of so many coffee shops it's getting hard to find one I can go in now.
Yes I have issues. No I don't know why it's just coffee... and a couple of other things that gets riled up like that.

I was thinking about a "stupid stuff I did in rage" thread.

Kali, Queen of Kitteh

15:53 / 08.01.07

Note to self: make eirdandfracar's cappucino promptly and do not look at the backs of sandwich bags.

Got it.

ONLY NICE THINGS

16:04 / 08.01.07

Honestly she was horsey and gawmless.

And yet somehow, everyone here likes her better than you. I think there might be a lesson there, dude.

Ex

16:36 / 08.01.07

Can I stop feeling guilty yet?

Why, did you do some kind of spectacularly sincere and effective penance during that line break?

STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK

16:39 / 08.01.07

Wow. Here was me reading through this thread thinking "that post was OBVIOUSLY taking the piss, why doesn't anybody else get it"... and then...

Boy, do I feel stupid right now.

16:39 / 08.01.07

I feel I have been deservedly chastised. (Including by the people I went to that goddamn coffee shop with.)
Can I stop feeling guilty yet?

Erm. Why exactly did you bring it up? Personally I'd say NO YOU CAN'T STOP FEELING GUILTY YET because it was a fuckwitted thing to do. You can stop feeling guilty when the horsey girl forgives you.
And it's gormless by the way.

16:48 / 08.01.07

You've been reading the backs of too many sandwich packets.

16:50 / 08.01.07

Is this, er, catharthis?

(You know when you see something that looks interesting but has a big sign by it saying "Do not touch the cute animal", but you just can't...yeah, that.)

16:55 / 08.01.07

Oh, and yep. I have developed a mental lisp.

17:02 / 08.01.07

Cathar this! *BOK!*

17:02 / 08.01.07

Good thing you're not horthey and gawmleth. You'd have a cappucino machine wedged in your face.

17:05 / 08.01.07

Good thing you're not horthey and gawmleth

You say. I deserve everything I get.

There. I feel better.

19:19 / 08.01.07

um. right.

Well I'm guessing the context behind how the above happened isn't going to help.

Thought I might at least get a laugh out of it, but as usual have done nothing more than further alienate myself or express something a tone or style completely removed from how I thought it would come accross.

I already said myself it was a horrid thing to do. At least I can admit that I did it and look back on it in good humour.

Why are you bullying me about it?

MattShepherd: I WEDDED KALI!

19:26 / 08.01.07

Apologies to Terry Jacks. Or maybe not.

Goodbye to you, old Rural Savage.
We've known each other since we were big as cabbage.
Together we engaged in some palav',
Learned of good arguments to have,
Examined racism and Scottish chavs.

Goodbye Iggy, it's hard to quit,
when the ficsuits saw you throw a fit,
Now that the spring is in the air.
Pretty Haus posting everywhere.
When you see him I'll be there.

We had joy, we had bliss, we had seasons in the 'lith.
But the posts that we threaded
were just drivel to be deaded.

dung dung dung DUNG

Goodbye, Ganesh, please pray for me,
I was the black sheep of the Head Shoppe.
You tried to teach me right from wrong.
Too fast typing without the think,
and then I began to sink.

Goodbye, Barbelith, it's hard to go
when all the posts are flying to and fro,
Now that the spring is in the air.
Ill-formed opinions everywhere.
When you see them I'll be there.

We had joy, we had bliss, we had seasons in the 'lith.
But the things that we typed
were just ideas that we swiped.

dung dung dung DUNNNG

(continue forever)

MattShepherd: I WEDDED KALI!

19:26 / 08.01.07

I spent far too long working on that.

ONLY NICE THINGS

19:34 / 08.01.07

Why are you bullying me about it?

Well, that's an interesting choice of words, eid. For example, we might think that people on the Internet telling you that you behaved like a wanker is rather less like bullying - especially if you did in fact behave like a wanker - than, say, screaming at a poorly-paid service worker for not satisfying your desires quickly enough. I think people are _taking issue with your behaviour_ because they don't want to encourage you or others to do it in future.

So, I think I'd like to answer your question with a question, if I may? You say you are ashamed. Could you tell me why you were ashamed? Is it because you feel, on reflection, that your behaviour was disgusting? So disgusting, in fact, that you have resolved never to go into a coffee shop again, since you can't stop yourself from becoming aggressive with people who by the nature of their employment cannot really hit back?

19:42 / 08.01.07

Well done, Matt! Can you hear the distant thunder? That´s the walls of valhalla vibrating with the voices of venerable vikings singing your lyrics very vivace!

Good song choice, too. I always have Sir Elton´s candle tune haunting my mind, when a goodbye thread appears.

19:43 / 08.01.07

More to the point: What kind of poncy posh fuckstick orders a fucking cappuccino anyway? Black, no sugar, you unspeakable cunt.

19:51 / 08.01.07

Um.. . right. Well.
Well I'm guessing the context behind how the above happened isn't going to help. But just in case:

I'd just been given the wrong antidepressants by mistake.

Was propelled into a nightmare world of 2d paranioa and inappropriate emotional responses.

...of poncy posh fuckstick orders a fucking cappuccino anyway? Black, no sugar, you unspeakable cunt...

Yeah I'm pretty used to hearing that kind of stuff.

19:59 / 08.01.07

Never judge a sandwich by its packet.

20:00 / 08.01.07

How much do you have to regret something or say it was a mistake before people stop sticking the knife in and listen?

20:09 / 08.01.07

In fact I'd go as far as saying that comments in the same vein as the following:

You'd have a cappucino machine wedged in your face.

Officially absolves you of the moral highground. Do you know what it's like to do something like that? Or to have said something like what I said?

Good for you if you don't because it's damn hard, if it is in fact possible to pick up the peices afterwards.

ONLY NICE THINGS

20:49 / 08.01.07

I'd just been given the wrong antidepressants by mistake.

Good. There, you see? You just explained something. Although I have to say I'm curious as to whether this has happened every time you have been barred from a coffee shop. I hate to say it, but have you considered possibly cutting down on your caffeine intake?

Twiglets, also.

20:49 / 08.01.07

Eird, you said something pretty vile about a person that didn't deserve your ire (unless ze was secretly urinating in your coffee, but I doubt that) and Barbelith tends to stick it to people who say nasty, poorly thought out things. I thought it was a parody of Rural Savage's posting style at first, but apparently not. I can understand how your adverse reaction to the wrong medication might have brought about an unprovoked verbal attack on the barista, but posting a message featuring some fairly abusive stuff wasn't possibly a spur of the moment thing, like your outburst in the café. In other words..while the outburst was rude, offensive and hateful, it might have been unavoidable, whereas the retelling took time and effort and was unnecessary. Plus, the tone of the post seems a little like you relished the event.

Anyway, I'm sure people will stop digging the knife in, now that you have apologised about it. Or the dogpile could grow even larger, I suppose. You never know around here.

20:50 / 08.01.07

All crossposty with Haus. He said what I was trying to say, but with less words.

ONLY NICE THINGS

20:59 / 08.01.07

Good for you if you don't because it's damn hard, if it is in fact possible to pick up the peices afterwards.

Are you saying, there, that you are in a sense the victim here, because you had to deal with the consequences of you having a screaming fit? I don't think that's a very healthy way to look at the world. You might well be the victim of a faulty prescription, and so was she. I hope you mean that you had to go to the trouble of say, having a note delivered to the cafe the next day through the agency of a friend in which you apologised profusely, explained that you had not been in a rational state of mind and that you would in a more rational state of mind not have behaved like that, because you would have known that she did not deserve it, and that to avoid causing her discomfort you would not be returning to her establishment? Something like that? That would indeed have been an attempt to pick up the pieces, and a very creditable one.

21:10 / 08.01.07

no of course I didn't relish it. and didn't think too much about it when I posted it, I think it comes accross like that because, well, on the whole, I've done a lot of bad stuff and it's fairly normal to me - I don't mean it's good, what I mean is I process things like that in way which leaves me fairly good humoured about them, because I have to be.

Relish is not the word. Not at all. But in hindsight I can see how people might think that.

Less searchable M0rd4nt

21:12 / 08.01.07

Well... yeah. Of course it's fucking horrible to come to yourself and realise you've said or done something completely out of order while you were not in your right mind, even if your mental state was not your fault. It's very painful and distressing.

Thing is, once you come back to yourself, you do have a duty to acknowledge the impact you might have had on the other person and make amends where possible. (I'm not great at that last part myself, but I'm working on it.) How do you know that the "gormless" barrista wasn't behaving in a slow, spaced-out manner due to some influence on her brain chemistry which was beyond her control--maybe she was on psych meds herself, or suffering from some disorder, or just plain knackered from overwork?

I think a good thing for you to do at this point would be to step back from this thread, sleep on it, and try to get some distance before you come back. Nobody wants to demonise you but right now you're not making a very good case for yourself.

Less searchable M0rd4nt

21:13 / 08.01.07

PS: Rethink your use of the term "cunt." Here, at least, if nowhere else.

21:15 / 08.01.07

No I'm not saying I'm a victim, I said it was a mean thing to have done already. It was a mistake to have posted it. I said that at the time.

Christ.

21:26 / 08.01.07

I'm not trying to make a case for myself. I already said the context behind it happening was not really an excuse, at least I didn't think so, but just thats the way it was.

And pretty much that I am a complete bastard for doing that and regretted it. And realised I shouldn't have posted about it.

I can't really disagree with what anybody said about it when it's true.

And the last think I think I want to do is leave this alone for a day and then come back and read reams of abuse about how horrid I am.

ONLY NICE THINGS

21:33 / 08.01.07

Well then, stick around, bunky, and don't miss a minute!

Only joking. Everyone play nice with the penitent. Eid, to make up for this, might I suggest being nice to food service staff in the future? And, if you find yourself getting shouty in coffee shops, staying out of coffee shops? It sounds like you would like yourself and other people would like you better for it.

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