One of the primary goals of this topic was to get other people to relate their own excursions into their dark side, as was clearly mentioned in the initial post (I shared my own story to get the ball rolling). Sadly, not many people stuck to the topic and instead chose to focus on my quirks, as usual, which should be expected as people on here tend to focus more on my personality and less on the actual content of what I'm posting. It's frustrating, but again, not surprising. If one of the powers-that-be had posted something similiar everyone else would have been "oohing" and "aahing" and bending over backwards, but because I'm a scapegoat in general around here such commentary is shunned. Ah well. At least I have the luxury of being totally honest, seeing as I have very little respect to lose around here. For my honesty, I am castigated. Such is life.
The serial killer thing IS old hat, and the initial post wasn't about serial killers at all. Where did you get that? (and for the record, Ian Brady wasn't abused as a child, he had a perfectly normal upbringing).
I don't know where all this bullshit is coming from that I don't "interact" with other people. Hell, working with the public is my JOB. If I had no communication skills, I wouldn't be working where I am now, for I need to be able to communicate with people on a regular basis. If you want to specify and say that I don't have much "friendly" interaction with other people, that would be a little more on the nose. But this isn't because I'm afraid of talking to other people, it is mainly because I find most people dull and only certain people catch my attention as being worthwhile. I'm not one of those types who needs a huge group of friends to be happy: For me, I can find satisfaction in just a simple conversation with one person. But it seems that society labels you a freakshow if you're not terribly social or don't have a lot of sex. But just because society says something doesn't mean it's true.
I find it horribly appalling and cynical that other people don't see this as "dark stuff". God, what ever happened to morals? No matter what way you look at it, this is just horrible, horrible stuff, and I find it very scary and offensive, and I'm shocked other people just see it as banal, everyday stuff. How jaded have we become as a society? I'd have to be a real sicko not to find it that way. Are you implying that I don't hate Nazis, or serial killers, or things of that sort? Those types of people nauseate me, and of course I fear them. All my other fears are utterly banal. Diseases, mostly. What do you want me to do... give myself AIDS? What would that solve?
Toksik, if you can't be civil I see no reason at all why I should even bother to listen to what you have to say.
Bottom line, I'm unpopular because I don't fit OTHER people's standards, even if most of those standards hold little interest to me. Because I won't conform to those people's expectations of how I should be, I am villified. It's sad that people are so opposed to individuality and difference of viewpoints. Do I castigate you because your viewpoint of life isn't similar to mine? People are different, no one thinks alike, there is no litmus test for "normal". A lot of people around here are so intimidated by the status quo that they avoid posting certain topics or points of view on here because they know they'll be taunted. They've told me so in private. But I'm ouspoken, and if I see something I don't agree with, I speak my mind. But I certainly don't try to intimidate others to conform to my belief systems. Many others feel this way, but they won't say anything because they don't want to rock the boat. But if I see injustices before me, how can I remain mute?
Trying to steer this back on topic... Ria, would you like to go into a little more detail about these violent fantasies? If not on here, you can PM me, I'd love to hear more. |
