So I'm looking at the "recently updated" page. I see a thread something "comix" And click, the first post is by the thread starter, "Ethan Hawke". It's another one of those ficsuit names that I stumble across in older threads I find in a search, or ones revived by new posting, as above. I may click on the user profile, like I do with Ethan Hawke. Hmm. Registered in 2001. Moderator. 191 threads 2372 posts. That's pretty prolific, I think, but I don't see any new posts by this person, is it because they're another one of the lamented gone or because they only post in comics? I do a search, it seems sometimes that if you search for a user name, it sometimes generates results where the more recent posts are first. I don't know if this is right or true but it seems kind of true. I find this thread where the first posts are jokes between Ethan and Qualyn (who I've seen back recently after a possible hiatus?), the first thing I see is the funny picture "selling like gothcakes". So I skip along, I'm looking for "Ethan Hawke" posts, the first one I see is "pussy inspector". Which, whatever- I'm not getting into whether or not it's an okay joke. I follow the banter and it takes me here, at the end of this little two-minute journey Friday night, here in the internet, where I feel compelled to post how I got here. Because it's the Livejournal replacement thread, and I've got no livejournal, and this is labeled a replacement for such, I should feel free to be self-indulgent and go on (I'm not saying that's a bad thing for those that do, self-indulgent is one of those terms that has negative connotations, but isn't necessarily invariably negative)
So anyway.
I read these posts, this thread. There's Persephone, another moderator I don't see post anymore (again, maybe I'm not observant enough of Temple or Comics, or whatever), another fairly prolific poster, it says "location: Across the River Styx". Is that some reference to being gone, or something else? The point is, I keep running across these long-gone people and wonder why and if they are gone. Life just changes, things get old, some more exciting new site (really, is there such a thing?), this place just got too damn pee cee? I wish I could communicate with them, or at least jump in the past, into old threads. Not that I'd even have that much to contribute, and some of them may not be much worth getting into, but it's like a super-minor version of not being able to talk to people who've died, you think about the things you'd say to them now if they were around, but dammit, you can't.
It's Friday night. I get to stay up late, and drink beer and smoke weed (If you can't tell I'm fucked up by now, then I don't know what you're on). I am having my fucking livejournal replacement because. Well, I got here and it seemed appropriate.
I do like this place. I like most who post here now, even if I want to shake some of them sometimes. I'm sorry that some who used to post don't any more. I hope if it changes, or moves, it stays invigorated (though I know many would argue it's disinvigorated) and interesting like it can be sometimes. I hate the lulls, it worries me. I work too much with a bunch of people I like but who don't think too much about much. I'm no tribute to anything, I just have at least a minimum interest in thinking about what's going on. Thanks for being here, Barbelith or Steve or whatever the fuck you are. I can't keep track of all of you, but it's okay. |
