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I've only recently begun to link my chemical uses with actual religious practice, though I have been familiar and aware of its connections.
For marijuana, I've found myself quite lacking. Being born in 1983, I grew up in a world where, where weed had been removed of its cultural connotations several generations before. Having been a victim of the almost 80 year old "War on Drugs", its connotations, at least to my working class parents, consisted wholly of the drop-out/deadbeat images of the DEA's ad council. For a long time i saw use of any chemicals as a weakness, a failure, and felt the Circuit II status fear relevant to such a topic.
For some recent time I have been engaging myself in a GD inspired system of magical training. I alter a lot of its rituals based on the belief that those rituals where suitable for a specific era, and the worldview it facilitated. In Hermetic terms, I utilize marijuana in meditiations and excercises involving Malkuth. Once cultivated, the "high" feeling quickly translates into pathworking imagery, allowing breathtaking travel in whatever realms you intend to visit.
In my opinion, the euphoric feeling weed effects, varies in flavor from strain to strain, but the effects general effect a minimal level of potency. I find that this feeling seems to facilitate pathworking, but it does put a limit on the length of work possible. My seratonin limits seem to crash pretty hard after the level of the thc in my blood takes a dive. That combined with 45 mintues of silent asana, which to me is a pretty intense body stress, can leave me in not the best of moods.
I can't even begin to conceptualize of the significance of the role of marijuana in the mating and clan/tribe rituals of my generation.
I am currently in a phase where I smoke a lot of the stuff, and find some awkwardness to it. Every now and again, once my stash runs out, I get random paranoic or panic flashes. I think this does qualify, in clinical as an addiction, but I feel that it is due in greater part to my capacity to formulate habits as a psychological neccesity, then to the chemistry of the plant. As with any psychotropic entity, Choronzon is all to easy to invoke. The refractory period of weed can leave me in a pretty troubled state for hours. Though this is also pretty reliant on my mental state, before, during, and after ingestion and digestion of the actual chemicals.
konx om pax, fellows. |
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