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Has everyone given up giving up? This thread's gone a bit quiet...
because I never sleep in bed
Either that's an insomnia-inspired error or you're just showing off about your sex life. (Or you are really a horse and sleep standing up.)
getting 2-4 hours' sleep a night for a week or so, tends to leave me so fucked that after a couple of days I almost *can't* leave the house, even for fifty yards.
Yes, that actually helps me not smoke too, sometimes. Maybe a spin-off (and spun-out) insomnia thread is in order? I've been suffering from that badly at the mo due to this detoxing nonsense and have been having various eeenteresting conversations about handling it.
i'm beginning to wonder whether I should just stop having a social life and live to be a very lonely and embittered 300 year old.
Um, I don't know how serious that suggestion was but the drinking / going out thing is lethal (both literally and metaphorically). Last saturday night, even with my Inhalator(TM), I had a powerful drunken urge to smoke. (Addict logic for ya's: I reasoned that I was going to have a fag in order to prove to myself that I didn't want a fag.  ) Thankfully Cherry said something which either sorted me out or just distracted me long enough for me to pass through that moment of craving. In all seriousness, reducing my IRL social life is a fairly fundamental way of cutting out cigs, sadly enough.
I want to post a couple of things here which may help others. I'm not doing brilliantly myself, but as yet I've not given up giving up even if I'm having the odd relapse here and there. Though nicotine substitutes have their critics, I'm finding the inhaler a life-saver. Again, that's possibly literally so.
[The above paragraph was sponsored by Nicorette(TM)]
Another facet of my ongoing attempts at healthiness is Alan Carr's book which Kit Kat has already mentioned. In a nutshell, his thesis is that smoking is not an enjoyable thing to do at all, and that the addiction is mainly psycho-social (i.e. advertising-induced) as opposed to biological. He does not seem to consider nicotine all that chemically-addictive at all. He may overstate his case at times, but it's worth reading that book: the man has a point, as any smoker knows.
Also, I was surprised how few 'Loids I've mentioned this to have read Iain Bank's Complicity. It's a book I'd recommend to anyone, may start a thread on it if there hasn't been one already (it has implications waaaay beyond quitting fags), but here's a non-spoiler passage from it which may help a little:
I take out another cigarette, light it and draw deeply. I gag again, coughing and hacking and feeling the whisky and the can of Export I had earlier slosh around inside me, almost coming up. My eyes are watering. What a stupid drug, what a completely useless fucking drug; no real hit after the first drag, highly addictive and lethal in all sorts of ways, and even if the lung cancer or the heart disease doesn't get you you can look forward to gangrenous legs in your old age, bits of your body just rotting away still attached and dying in instalments for you, rotting and stinking while you're still alive and then they have to cut them off and you wake up after the operation wheezing and burning with pain and gasping for a fag. Meanwhile the tobacco companies sponsor sport and fight off advertising bans and look forward to all the new markets in the East and the Far East and more women taking up the weed to show they can be brainless fucks too, and suits with worm-shit in their brains go on television and say, 'Well, nobody's actually proved how tobacco causes cancer you know,' and you sit there seething and then you find Thatcher is taking half a million from Philip Morris for a three-year consultancy and you swear never to buy any of their products ever again but at the end of the day you still light another cigarette and suck in the smoke like you enjoyed it and make more profits for those evil fucks. |
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