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Run for the hills: the thread of abject terror

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09:32 / 03.07.07

Sekhmet, sorenson, I'm sure you will all do fine. But then, I'm a man, so I would say that..

Tho, sorenson, how is it that you (whether that be you personally or all of you over there, I'm not sure) are expecting one this month and one in November? Am I missing some vital piece of information here? Or several?

14:48 / 03.07.07

It's the "we" part, Nolte.

Mothers-to-be, as a dad, I say this: kids are damn durable creatures. You can stick their heads in moving ceiling fans and drop them off bunk beds and they suffer no lasting effects other than vengeful memories of parental mishaps.

There is no escape from vengeful memories, so you have to make 'em laugh as much as you can to make up for it.

This is easy - they haven't heard any good jokes before and they're really kinda naive in general.

16:12 / 03.07.07

Wow, I guess maybe my shit is doesn't look all that bad compared to the rest of you.
Anyhow, last night I broke up with my girlfriend of two years. It sucked, but was the right thing to do; afterwards, all I wanted to do was come home and sleep. However, one of my room mates keyed me in on some shit that has been happening with another room mate and one of my "best friends." Basically, my one room mate wants to move out now, "because of Sam (me)." A few days ago I was talking to his current lady-friend, whom I work with and consider a strong acquaintance/casual friend. Anyhow, we were talking about my room mate and apparently I let slip things about the previous night that he balls out lied to her about and now he is blaming me for "attempting to ruin his relationship." Fucker shouldn't have lied...or should have told me to keep my mouth shut. Also, one of my "best friends" has been telling my room mate (the same one who is pissed at me) that he thinks I am a jerk and apparently has been thinking this for a long time (ok, I make fun of my friends...I also make fun of myself more often. I grew up in a house where teasing was/is a way of showing love, if I am poking fun at you, I just means I love you and actually care about you as a person. I figure if people aren't ok with that they should tell me and I'll explain it and if it's still not cool I'll stop). But beyond that, he accused "someone in the house" of stealing his mp3 player and then accused me, to my other room mate, of stealing money from him, which is fucking bull shit because this guy hasn't had a fucking job for like 2-3 months, why would I take his money that he doesn't even have, on top of the fact that I would NEVER steal anything from anyone. So, needless to say, I couldn't sleep at all last night. Whew. But apparently my "friend" is planning on talking to me about my being a jerk and I can explain it to him and then yell at him for several hours about how he is obviously paranoid and I don't know if I can continue hanging out with him/being in a fucking band with him. Thats the part that drives it all to fucksville, this guy is the other guy in my band and I don't want to loose all the shit we have created together. Fucking fuck.

17:31 / 03.07.07

Sorenson, Sekhmet, the best advice I can give you hails from a childless but very smart friend of mine who observed that the real difficulty facing parents isn't managing their children, it's managing their own emotions, crazythoughts, and wrong-headed narratives.
When I find myself freaking about some child related insania, I invariably find that the problem shrinks somewhat when I reflect upon chum's wise words.

Case in point, a few months ago we were getting very worried and reactive about our child's diet, when I managed to calm down, however, I found some space for a little research and critical thinking and discovered that almost all the assumptions we'd been making were either partly or entirely wrong*.

*Okay it's produced by the La Leche League so it's a bit breastfeedy-centric, but I think all parents should be armed with a copy of this book: My Child Won't Eat by Carlos Gonzalez. It'll disabuse you of every stupid, ignorant thought you've ever had about the eating habits of tiny ones
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21:56 / 04.07.07

grant and Boboss - they are two most excellent pieces of advice. exactly the kind of advice that helps take the edge of the abject terror. i look forward to the glory days before our kids realise that my sense of humour is incredibly daggy! I also am absolutely sure that heaps of my own issues will come up at every step of the way with parenting - my partner and i have talked about this heaps and are already trying to think of strategies to manage some of that stuff. i'm particularly worried about school and bullying (i was bullied a lot as a child...sometimes wonder if i ever really got over it...)

Nolte - I am 22 weeks pregnant, my partner is 38 weeks pregnant. We have two uteruses, and so are lucky enough to be able to make 2 babies at once without the risks of twin pregnancy.

22:12 / 04.07.07

I'm so excited for you, Sorenson. 2 kiddies might be a handful, but it'll be love-factor overload.

That's the best thing about kids, being head over heels in love all the time.

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07:42 / 05.07.07

Sorenson, thanks for the heads up. And sorry for offending by coming across as pig ignorant. Gender attribution heteronormative SNAFU malfunction, I'm afraid. Else, what Boboss said!

10:55 / 05.07.07

The first Official Lughnasadh drumming practice is tonight. I'm leading. I've never lead before.

I've NEVER been in charge of a group of people before, EVER. For ANYTHING.

I'm scared shitless.

(x-post to Temple drumming and trance thread)

A. R. G. H. !.

10:56 / 05.07.07

Think Master. Good luck dude! You are made of win!

11:52 / 05.07.07

Regarding the baby thing, labour really hurts but it's pain you can handle because something amazing is happening. It's for a reason and the reason seems to stay in your head calming you down even during the strongest contractions. Plus, cleverly, you forget it almost immediately afterwards.

Then, everything is trial and error and that's fine because it is for your baby too. Your baby doesn't know you're not quite putting the nappy on right - your baby doesn't care, it just wants to gaze at you and have a cuddle. It's just a new person, but that person just happens to be teeny; I mean, you don't freak out about interacting with your friends do you? And that they'll hate you? Well unless you're Cruella your children won't hate you either.

I think the most important thing is to cuddle a lot and try not to interact with your kids when you're angry. Or if you do, make sure you say sorry to them.

I hope that helps with the fear a bit.

Also, if the babies feet are in your diaphram you're at the point where a glass of wine will not hurt in the slightest and will make you nice and sleepy and less fearful. I advise that and a bath.

16:34 / 05.07.07

As if I haven't already had a shitty week, I am seriously ready to run to the fucking hills now. My best friend is getting called into duty in Kosovo for a year. Life sucks.

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20:42 / 25.09.07

I'm going to America again in the morning. Different witch camp. Similar blibble.

20:43 / 25.09.07

You will be FINE.

22:03 / 25.09.07

Not just You, though.

IT will be FINE.

EVERYTHING will be FINE.

Okay?

Less searchable M0rd4nt

17:47 / 07.06.08

I am going to America AGAIN. I am blibbering again. This time I will be giving Talks and doing reiki attunements, so I'm extra-blibbery.

Also I am moving country this Autumn and I'm mega-stressed about that too...

18:46 / 07.06.08

Good for you (except the anxiety part), I hope you enjoy yourself in the states. Are you going to the West or East?

Anyway, it's been said before in this thread:
You will be FINE.

21:16 / 07.06.08

Ooh! Where in America?

Less searchable M0rd4nt

21:52 / 07.06.08

I'll be in Montana.

22:42 / 07.06.08

Exciting stuff Mordant! All blibbery aside i'm sure you'll be fantastic on your talks and sessions!

Moving country this Autumn? Where to?

I'm in the same boat. After a relationship breakdown which leaves me in the position of either staying in London, which i'm sick of, or just going 'Fuck it. New me. Time to Go!!' I've just got a flight to Egypt where i figure i've got enough saved to last a year or so quite comfortably. So from October i will be living in Luxor!!

Less searchable M0rd4nt

23:12 / 07.06.08

Blimey, Egypt? I'm only going to Southampton!

00:05 / 08.06.08

Yea, big step, but i think it's what i should be doing. My plan is to resurrect an old passion (photography which i did my degree in), take to the Theban hills and elsewhere in Egypt, travel around a bit, make Luxor a base to live in and work at being a travel photographer. At the same time learn some arabic, get on with my studying of hieroglyphs, and set up my altar overlooking the Nile and get down to some serious practice. I'm very excited! I'm off in October. Got a nice two bedroom flat sorted out.

And Mordant, you and friends are more than welcome to visit!!

00:07 / 08.06.08

Oh, and in keeping with the theme of the thread. I'M SHITTING IT!!!

04:38 / 08.06.08

Not to worry. Egypt's one of the good countries, not the bad ones, and Luxor's especially great.

You'll have a good time.

16:53 / 08.06.08

I hope i will have a good time. Plenty to get on with and keep me busy but it's also a SHITFUCK part of my life.

Less searchable M0rd4nt

17:19 / 08.06.08

Sounds amazing, ghadis. SHITFUCKworthy, but really amazing. (I hope I can catch you before you head out.)

17:30 / 08.06.08

I'm sure thats possible Mordant. Be great to see you. I'm in London until October. And, like i say, you're more than welcome to visit when i'm out there. (You can get a weeks return for £100 or less if you time it right!)

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