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Cunning Plans for 2007

 
  

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nyarlathotep's shoe horn
23:17 / 02.02.07
I think a new year's resolution is a public statement of a particular thing one aspires to complete by the end of the year.

this is different from a list of things to do throughout the year.

last year i developed a calendar, and didn't really realise i was doing it until the summer solstice.

this year's annual project hasn't become clear yet, but it somehow involves food + medicine + magic and seeds.

ta
 
 
brother george
12:46 / 04.02.07
The harder you work for the goal the more satisfying it is to achieve that goal.

I`m not so sure about that. It does make sense, but if serious attrition kicks in but you keep pushing towards and towards, you suddenly arrive there but you are frigging fed up and tired. Instead of satisfaction you get a 'Ok I`m there, so what?'.

Especially if you went through the circle of "getting disenchanted and weary/starting to really care" again a few good times.

Like being cast into fire, feeling that you are beeing banged then dropped into cold water then cast into fire, etc.

On the other hand, it does develop character and spine, but it does have its price.
Or maybe I got it all wrong.
 
 
EmberLeo
22:01 / 05.02.07
I think a new year's resolution is a public statement of a particular thing one aspires to complete by the end of the year.

this is different from a list of things to do throughout the year.


I don't know if this is directed at me (immediately following my post as it is), but I will point out in response that I did ask if my spiritual to-do list was acceptable and was told yes before I posted such.

--Ember--
 
 
aeon
10:31 / 06.02.07
1. Get a new job
2. Pay off debt
3. Summit Mount Denali
4. Start a new blog and post regularly
5. Go to spinning classes to increase my physical endurance (see 3)
6. Keep up with daily ritual and meditation.
7. Be more financially profitable.
 
 
Quantum
11:56 / 06.02.07
There's another good example of getting mundane stuff done, and keeping up daily practice- perhaps we could have some meta-resolutions everyone seems to be planning.
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
14:43 / 10.02.07
Me: I think a new year's resolution is a public statement of a particular thing one aspires to complete by the end of the year.

this is different from a list of things to do throughout the year.


Ember: I don't know if this is directed at me (immediately following my post as it is), but I will point out in response that I did ask if my spiritual to-do list was acceptable and was told yes before I posted such.

It wasn't directed at anyone - just making a distinction. Neither one is more appropriate than the other.
 
 
EmberLeo
10:07 / 24.04.07
I thought I'd post another update on how my plans are going:

School: The plan hasn't much changed wrt graduation. However, afterwards it looks like I'll transfer in the Spring if at all possible, because I may need to take one more transfer class first. Also, I found out the Masters program that I want doesn't have a specific Bachelors program associated with it, so I may be free to persue Religious Studies for a couple of years. If I can make THAT happen I'll be deliriously happy.

Physical: That ball has definitely been dropped again. *sigh* It's dropped further down, actually - my back has been hurting lately, which makes exercise harder. I'm pondering swimming more (the pool is so handy, being in the backyard and all), and I know I still want to use my bicycle more when it's not raining, both for my health, and to reduce my carbon emissions. Both of those are mere theory, though, so I can't take credit for the Practice.

Life Skills: Cooking. Mmm, not as much as I'd hoped, but we're still working on that. My Primary SO has cleaned up the kitchen again, finally, so this can resume. I have tried at least to make a point of eating at home, even if it means microwaving something stupid, just to stay in the habit of not automatically leaving the house when I'm hungry. I'm not healthier yet, but at least we're saving money. It's a step in the right direction.

Clergy Training: Slow and steady. I performed an Ostara ritual for Liturgy of the Maiden, and have compared notes with my Mentor, so that's on track. Next will be a Liturgy of the Mother, which will probably honor Yemaya. Later in the year will be a Liturgy for the Wisewoman. I have no idea who I'll do for that, but I've got several months between now and then.

Soul Retrieval: The second round went well. Progress is being made, though I'm afraid my volunteer is having a very rough time of life, and so I'd best be sure I'm doing good work. It's about time to look at round three, though, and I don't think either of us are actually ready.

Cat Memorial: I got my cat's ashes back, and finally got folks together to do a Pet Memorial, open to any with a pet to mourn, under the patronage of Bast. It wasn't quite what I expected, but it does seem to have helped. Last time my cat showed up in my dreams again, I merely turned to ask my Mom why she was there if she'd been cremated.

Wheel of the Year: My lover and I have determined that our New Year, functionally, is round Ostara, not Samhain. This seems to be when I am best able to clean out old dust and treasures, to make space for new life. That makes sense. We're starting a photography project to document how the plants behave at each of the wheel points, as a project in both aesthetic art, and seasonal mindfulness. Wheee!

Oxun: I seem to be at a standstill on Her crown. I'm at a reasonable stopping place, though. I suppose it's possible I'm not supposed to make it any more elaborate, but that strikes me as unlikely. More likely I need to focus on a gift for the Headwashee. I already know what that will be, but I don't have much time to work on it before the headwash. I'm not sure what the ettiquette is on that. Perhaps I should bring the materials to have something to do while I guard the meditating Headwashee overnight.

Oya: I did dance for Her, but I didn't "dance" for Her (i.e. I was not ridden by Her). It was actually kind of scary, spinning like that. Not that spinning scares me, or even that I get off balance easily, but I was seriously afraid I'd spin out and hit somebody. I'm not sure, but that seems to have been part of the point - I know Oya scares me not because I fear Her, but because I fear myself of hurting others.

Now I am in the process of making the third of a set of three necklaces for Her. The first two, for the Whirlwind, and the Market, are already done, and well appreciated by the Mama. I got partway through another while the power was out this evening. Candles lit, beads out, and the neighbor playing whatever he felt like on a lonely trumpet. It was eerie, but very appropriate. The third necklace is for the Grave.

Celtic: Taliesin has made it QUITE clear that I am to begin working with Him developing my bardic skills (this is a bit odd, I suppose, since Taliesin wasn't a god - I'm filing it under semi-divine Beloved Dead and moving on). This both delights and upsets me for reasons too complex to explain here. I have taken up exercises out of a book on Prosody, which is exactly what I have always wanted to do, so I'm very happy now. It turns out the meter I think in most naturally just happens to be traditional for Ballads. I'm not entirely sure what to do with the Irish harp that was given to me.

--Ember--
 
 
EmberLeo
00:33 / 27.12.07
So, it's almost the end of 2007 - do folks want to check in on how their cunning plans went?

--Ember--
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
06:26 / 27.12.07
Good Call Ember.

Last year went well despite myself. I have taught myself to play the trumpet, and only just today did I find its voice.I finished the reworking of the calendar, which is perfect for scheduling any regular activity.

more at theabysmal calendar

It started as a vision 2 years ago at the winter solstice, and with a final tweak this year it felt done just in time for this year's solstice (in the North, that is). I feel like I've given birth to something (btw, I don't have a womb).

anyway, it's done, I'm satisfied, and it provides a wonderful means for scheduling projects, and I look forward to using it more intentionally. I guess it's getting time for a 2008 thread as well.

anyone else?
 
 
electric monk
13:16 / 27.12.07
I've been dreading the resurfacing of this thread. *sigh*

Regular invocations of, and daily mindfulness of, my Patron. I've left this work for too long and, while He's got all the time in the world, I don't.

On the mindfulness: not too awful bad. On the regular invocations: FAIL. I think, tho, that my idea of mindfulness is probably not as...hearty as it could be? What I mean is, I turn my thoughts to my Patron at some point each day whether it's a conscious decision or due to outside influence. But I'm not saying a formal prayer, I'm not talking TO my Patron. It's just pondering. And so, not very constructive. We've grown a little closer, but it's not the relationship I'd hoped to have by the end of this year. I feel I'm hindering myself in this area in a lot of ways. Initial efforts early in the year brought up a lot of fear for me. This wasn't fallout from contact with my Patron, as I first thought. Turns out I've got a lot of leftover baggage from my twenty years as a pretty devout Lutheran that I can't seem to put down just yet. Pondering the wonder and beauty of a god/dess feels fine to me, and the occasional one-off invocation or ritual is okay. But prayers? Offerings? On a regular basis? No, something in me is still insistent that that is "sinful". It sounds stupid to say, but there it is. So I'm questioning it, trying to hold those feelings at a bit of a distance so I can analyze them, break them down, and put the leftovers to better use.

Reinstitute my journaling habit. I've lost a year of experiences that, while not ground-breaking or head-turning, probably hold lessons that I'd benefit from. Documenting them would've left a reliable record.

I just plain didn't make time for this. It was the least of my goals for this year, and was easy for me to put aside. In truth, I've felt like a not-a-magician for most of the year. Thus, there's not been much reason for me to journal.

Maintain a regular schedule of exercise. I've been good about this and have lost most of the bay window I installed over the past 2 years. Just got to keep it up.

I've been pretty good about this, actually. There's more I'd like to do, like bike-rides on Saturdays and such, but overall not bad. My workouts are mainly dog-walks and yard work, but it has slimmed me down. I'm back to college-era pant size now: 32/32 baby!

Pay more attention to my instincts and intuition. It's proving valuable already.

This has been very fruitful, I'm happy to say. It's gotten so I recognize the twinge that accompanies the true instinct, the valid intuition. I flailed around a lot at first with the distinction, but it's come easier over time, and I'm finding that it's about "total awareness" of surroundings and situations as much as anything. Just this morning, I was making lunches for Wifey and The Boy while The Boy ate breakfast. The thought came to me, "He's going to spill his juice." Of course, I didn't pay attention this time and was rewarded seconds later with a nice, juicy mess on the floor.

Less overthinking. Much less.

This has been easier to do as I've nurtured instinct and intuition.

Quit visiting websites that only piss me off (Byrne, Powerline, etc.). I get nothing from them but frustration and anger, and I let them take bits of my faith in humankind.

Ha! Yeah right... Though I'm more likely to laugh or feel pity than get angry these days.
 
 
electric monk
13:21 / 27.12.07
Oops, forgot. Way to go, squib! Congrats on bringing your vision to fruition.
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
14:49 / 27.12.07
thank you - it had very little to do with me - I felt incidental to the process.
 
 
Brother Tim
19:38 / 27.12.07
Just a note, this helped me achieve all of mine last year. Got this from self help/NLP style literature. When it comes to writing resolutions don't use any negatives ie. 'stop smoking' you will only register the smoking bit and whenever you think of 'stopping' smoking you will be thinking of smoking as it's integral to the statement. In this example it's better to focus on goals that will benefit from all the healthy clean air you will now be breathing instead or something positive to replace the time you would normally spend smoking. Set realistic timespans and actual goals. Rather than 'getting more exercise' or 'getting fitter' try 'I will be going to Capoeira twice a week by June'. Just atually committing to writing stuff like this can be a task in itself, you will realise how much you will start to think 'but what if I don't have the money to pay for classes by then' etc, etc. Sit down and commit them to paper maybe discuss them with someone whilst you do them. Then forget about them. I don't really go for the post it notes on the fridge method. Something I found when working with Sigils too, forget them. Really try to forget them at first till it comes naturally. I then found myself just doing stuff through the year and realising I had fulfilled one of my resolutions, usually about a month in advance. It seems that if you get it into your subconscious then forget about it you will find yourself just doing it almost on auto-pilot. It's much smoother this way sort of feels like 'well why wouldn't I do that right now' rather than dragging yourself kicking and screaming. Keep reminding your conscious mind and it will only get in your way with the whats, wheres and hows. Concentrate on doing the dishes instead, whilst your subconscious deals with it for you.
 
 
EmberLeo
08:27 / 29.12.07
School: Graduated and all, with a 3.68 (or so) GPA. I finally received the last of my actual degree documents in the mail towards the end of October. I've gotten a bit de-railed with the transfer though. Now I'm looking at two different bachelors programs for starting next fall. I'll have to go with whichever one is more affordable, but I have reason to believe both are good choices.

Physical: I really dropped this ball. I think the only realistic way to pick it up is regularly scheduled exercise with a friend or two. Preferably dance, but if it's at all optional I'll just be too tired to go all the time, and I don't have money to pay for classes right now. I'm just not sure how to motivate myself here. I know being depressed isn't helping.

Life Skills: I'm slowly chipping away at this one, getting into the habit of eating whatever is at home, getting brave enough to try and cook full meals, actually use the oven, etc.

Community: My sister's wedding went beautifully - so beautifully, in fact, that I shocked the heck out of almost all of my family. Several people said it was the most beautiful ceremony they'd ever witnessed, and a few others said they'd wished I'd done their wedding, or that they'd like me to renew their vows. There's been some self-realization involved there, but far too much to document in this thread.

Training: Well, I've done a couple of Liturgies for the Lady. I didn't get in the third I intended to do, but I get major credit for doing my sister's wedding. I think things are going okay on this front.

Healing: Things are halted in the Soul Retrieval front, but it's not the sort of thing one should push. I'm sure this is an ongoing project.

Cats: The Bast ritual for Rascal went well. Since then I get little pings from Bast. She's been a comfort to me. Rascal is around, and exasperated at my doubts and presumptions - it seems they have no bearing on whether she's really there or not.

Vanatru: Though I have accomplished other things over the course of the year, neither explicit goal has been accomplished at all, really. I think I've been going about the Wheel work entirely the wrong way, but I'm not sure how to fix it. I may just drop it next year, and let it percolate without pressure for a while.

Oxun: Oxun's crown came to a halt at the aforementioned stopping place. I didn't end up standing watch for my friend's headwash. However, that seems to be intended, since the woman who took my place has since confirmed that Oxun is her mother, and will be headwashing herself next year. Things kind of sucked there for a while, and all my projects for Oxun seem to come to screeching halts for no apparent reason, but now that I know it needs work, I can actually try to work on it. So.. progress, I suppose.

Ayida Wedo: I figured out the connection with Damballa - it's not Damballa, it's Ayida Wedo! I've written a song for Them. I've made a fairly strong connection, and WHEW! I think I know where this is going, in a general sort of way, but I await confirmation from outside sources.

Oya: Whatever stuff was going on with Oya seems to have gone okay. The pressure is gone, and I'm back to not really having a very strong sense of a relationship with Her. I really don't understand why She wanted that spinning dance, but I suppose if She's happy there's nothing not okay.

Pomba: I danced Pomba as well as I'm able at a private devotional. She's really not quite my wavelength, so it was a heavy shadow at most, but I did all I said I would. I don't know if it's my reward, or further payment, or what, but I'll be the lead singer for our Pomba Gira devotional this year at PantheaCon. Yay!

Taliesin: I've written a few devotional songs this year, and as I said above, I'll be the lead singer in a devotional concert setting early next year. It's obvious that the work here only involves Him indirectly - He doesn't seem to want any trancework out of me at all, and I don't get pings from Him as long as I do work on my poetry and music regularly. I even played harp a bit at Dickens Faire this last weekend, and discovered it's much easier than I feared.

--Ember--
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
18:13 / 29.12.07
Quite a year for you Ember - well done.

I noticed a lot of people around me are in a winter-induced slumber, or depression. Maybe it's time we all collectively took a deep breath, and pace ourselves for the new year.

I think more dancing is definitely in order.
 
 
EmberLeo
19:11 / 29.12.07
Oh, I'm definitely Seasonally Affected, Squib. And yes, it's been quite a year. I know what I left out WRT my Clergy training, which is that I also finished up a full year and a quarter round of the Trance Class, as the primary instructor. All the students who attempted the trance succeeded wonderfully. The event ran very smoothly, and several people told me that, while they appreciate and respect the other two instructors, they definitely felt that it was MY class, and that much of the success of the class was due to how I ran things.

But I've also gone into therapy, lost my grandfather, had to break off a friendship that was hurting both of us and still causes me some amount of pain, and gave my StepMom an ultimatum to choose between me and Alcohol, thereby cutting myself off from visiting my Dad's house any time soon, if ever again.

So really, no year is all good or bad, but I think 2007 averaged well.

--Ember--
 
 
Katherine
08:37 / 01.01.08
Actually do the herbalism course I have been saying I want to do since last August.

Get a start on the book list which has been growing at a fair pace.


Well I am doing the course which is good and not doing bad with the marks slowly hitting 80% in the coursework all the time which I must keep up. Amazed at how much this course on the medical side has helped with work with Plant Spirits.

The book list daft as it sounded has really helped me to not impulse buy books then go home and think why didn't I search out X which I really wanted. Also has helped me organise money for more expensive books, not a bad thing there!
 
  

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