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Clean freaks.
Ok, I know a bit about this. I used to get so nervous about spots I wouldn't even leave the house (I have other paranoias that help me achieve this effect now) unless I was sure my skin was alright. And I'd go to the doctors and ask about treatment, and they'd always say "really, why?" because I would only go there when I was sure I looked ok.
Now, there's more than one type of spot. You've got yr regular whitehead, which is unseemly and hard to leave alone. Seriously. Do you want to leave that wobbly thing on your face while you walk around? Do you? Do you want it to fall off or get knocked off in public because you've left it so long through fear of touching your face? C'mon.
Then you have your pustules, papules, nodules and cysts.
Papules are similar to whiteheads, but surrounded by a red base. Just the same, but inflamed.
The real nasty ones are the nodules and cysts. I call them EGG SPOTS. They're just nasty hard red lumps under your skin, and you can't really squeeze them. Just a terribly uncomfortable sore lump. Don't trust the lancers! Cysts are full of pus, too. These are the ones where you have to worry about scarring. I always tried it though, and got away clean...
If you try and squeeze them though, there's the (possbility of) scarring and also you'll probably just make it last longer. Fun times. You push the infection in and it'll just spread under your skin, as it were.
Honestly, it's all very well saying you should leave it, but I tried to leave my spots on occasion (I used to think maybe I just had to get them all out of my system, or something, and after they all went I'd just have a clean shiny face underneath) but when you have this hulking thing like a 5 pence piece hanging off your face that MOVES OF ITS OWN ACCORD it's a bit hard to think like that. Seriously, I think it had a heartbeat. It wasn't cool. It was fucking pulsating.
It's hard to actually be rational about these things, especially if you're like me, and you were brought up in a house where your mother used to grab you and lie you down and go at your blackheads for fun. Seriously, sometimes I think she only had children to further her blackhead squeezing exploits. But there really is a certain satisfaction to it...
Having said all of that, I think I probably tried to squeeze everything, and I don't really have any scarring (there's one tiny mark, but I like to think of it as a quirk) and certainly nothing as bad as the time when I fell on that glass table or somebody threw a glass in my face (tiny scar on my filtrum, it's quite cute). And even though I knew all this, I still botched things up often ehough, squeezing the ones I shouldn't have, making everything worse.
I seem to have grown up enough to have average skin now. I hope. Although having said that my nose is red like rudolph right now, but that's more down to laziness, binge drinking and drugs and the fact I've run out of the nice tea tree face wash. My skin is very fair and light, breaks easily, bruises easily, a red mark on my face will stay arond for 2-3 days longer than on regular skin. Ha. But really. I think it might just be a delicate membrane, and I'm actually missing a proper skin layer.
If I shaved like cube suggests my entire face would be a rash, in fact I may as well rub my face with sandpaper. So yeah, each to their own. I can only shave every two to three days or I risk rash-factor (and also; after shaving - aqeuous cream! Soothing.), but if I don't the hair will make my skin so greasy it just feels horrible. No beard for Suedey. Boo hoo. Also, you don't have to moisturise, of course, but it really depends on if you want that weatherbeaten look later in life...
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