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Isalie
01:13 / 25.02.04
So I'm turning nineteen in about 8ish hours, and I was just wanting perspective. What was everyone else up to when they turned nineteen?
Were you studying or working? Were you having wild times on the town or quiet nights at home with a book? What were you listening to, reading, watching ? Traveling? Single or polygamous? And perhaps most importantly, what are you up to now?
 
 
Saint Keggers
01:24 / 25.02.04
Dear Baby Barber..dont cut hair.
The year was 1993, we were still recovering from Nirvana's Smells Like Teen Spirit which was released last year,the Doors were inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame and Dave Letterman left NBC in search of greener pastures. I however was deeply involved in my quest for the perfect mellow evening with friends and other unknown people. I was doing freelance artwork for various companies and still mourning the loss of Rocket Robin Hood... and I had a sweet leather jacket.
 
 
gravitybitch
01:49 / 25.02.04
When I was niineteeeeen...

I was in college, cramming in all the science my poor little head could hold, single (with a huge crush on an incredible asshole), living at home in the Midwest...

I'm now in San Francisco, single once again (but much happier), and with a pretty damn good career in biomedical research. All that science paid off quite nicely!
 
 
gingerbop
02:01 / 25.02.04
On my brothers last day as a teenager, he went and got a smiley tattooed on his wrist. It was worth it, just to see mum's face.

As for myself, when I turned 19, back in the days of 2006, I was already a multi-millionairess, and owned my own sports centre with everything in it; I slept on a big trampoline, had a swimming pool for my bath, two cafes to eat in, and a big huuuge gymnasium. Those were the days....
 
 
Saint Keggers
02:07 / 25.02.04
Forget 19! It seems some redhaired gymnast is still recovering from the vast amounts of drugs she did when she was 18!
 
 
gingerbop
02:15 / 25.02.04
And was corrupted by said drugs at 17 by some evil Canadian bastard, who was jealous of her potential big-shiny-sportcentre and riches.
 
 
Cailín
02:45 / 25.02.04
When I was nineteen I left home for university. I'm 26 now, and I'm back in university (I'll be done in 66 days!). I had a terrific haircut and a great little figure, and a lot to learn about everything. Now I have a crummy ponytail and an extra twenty pounds, and I'm more than a little cynical. But I still like me better at 26 than I did at nineteen.
 
 
Cailín
02:47 / 25.02.04
It occurs to me that my post wasn't in the least helpful. Sorry.
 
 
Tryphena Absent
03:04 / 25.02.04
I went to university, I cut 5 inches of hair off, started to smoke tobacco more than socially, smoked skunk every day to conquer my insomnia, broke up with my boyfriend of 10 months, took mushrooms and cocaine for the first time, danced a lot, almost slept with a guy with dreadlocks but stopped myself in time (he fucked up badly with a friend later on), did sleep with a guy with piercings (he was very tall) who was a complete slut and I was the only female in the university that didn't hate him because he didn't want a relationship, bought electric pink fishnet tights and walked around with braids for 3 months. It was great.

So my advice is: judge people and yourself by hairstyle, never expect more than a one nightstand and try to forget most of them for fear your morals will judge you a slut, eat what you want, buy something you will treasure and dance your troubles away.
 
 
Tryphena Absent
03:10 / 25.02.04
Now I'm a monogamous 22 year old with a degree and no job who takes no drugs and is almost a tee-totaller but I still smoke because everyone needs a vice. I still judge by hairstyle as well and buy a lot of things. Hopefully I'll find a job soon.
 
 
The Strobe
06:16 / 25.02.04
I was just about to start my second year at University, and basically, things were pretty good. I didn't really do much that most people here would think of as exciting at university, but my work was going OK, I was kind-of optimistic, I think stuff was good.

But I can't really remember. The bits of life between university terms then seem a little hazy; that was all I could really remember. Being 19 wasn't so hot because I fucked a few things up and then tried to deal with that, but that was just me. Being 20 was kick-ass. I'm now 21, and, like Anna de L, am monogamous with a degree, no job, and no drugs. But: life is better than ever, I have all sorts of secret projects to work on, and the work required to get here began a while back - so in that way, being 19 is hella important.

The only advice I can really offer is just to roll with it; stuff happens, you deal with it as best you can. That's all anyone hopes for, surely?
 
 
Cat Chant
07:46 / 25.02.04
When I was nineteen, I was officially monogamous and sleeping with three people (old boyfriend from home, transitional girlfriend, new boyfriend from college). Now I am officially polyamorous and only sleeping with one person, and that not very regularly as she's in bastard Australia. (Though squee, she got her Entry Clearance Certificate today and will soon be hastening to live in the loft that I haven't converted yet).

Advice? Be nice to yourself. Find friends who will be nice to you. Never worry that you're not being nineteen enough, as you can always be nineteen later in your life; I take my inner fifteen-year-old out dancing fairly regularly these days, as he never got to go dancing when I was fifteen. (And yes, my inner fifteen-year-old is a boy.)
 
 
Cat Chant
07:47 / 25.02.04
Hey, and happy birthday!
 
 
Ariadne
08:14 / 25.02.04
Ahem. I was at University but living at home and ... engaged to be married. Not something I'd particularly recommend.

But as Deva said, you can be 19 at anytime -- I was much more 19 after Uni, when I'd seen sense and thrown the engagement ring out the window. Well, I didn't really throw it out of the window, I'm sorry to say, but I disengaged myself and had a wild old time.

Just live, meet good friends, and don't worry about what you 'should' be doing. Have fun. And happy birthday!
 
 
Olulabelle
09:12 / 25.02.04
Deva, you're going to keep your girlfriend in the loft?!
 
 
Ex
09:14 / 25.02.04
Deva Rochester, you are a cad. And eventually your governess fiancee will find you out.
 
 
Cat Chant
09:19 / 25.02.04
Hmm. Do you think I should keep her in the cellar, instead? It's just it's a bit damp, and Grace Poole doesn't like being underground...

(Sorry for threadrot.)
 
 
STOATIE LIEKS CHOCOLATE MILK
09:35 / 25.02.04
Ah. Nineteen. Those heady days of 1990. Second year of university.
I really don't remember shit all about it. I'm fairly sure acid, speed and booze were involved.
Oh, and I fell out with one of my best friends over a girl and didn't speak to him for a good few years. He's now one of my best friends again. Possibly (in fact definitely) better than before.
So if there's any lesson to be learned from me- it's "value your friends. The problems you may have with them may count for less in the long run than the friendship you have."

Other than that? I dunno.

See what happens. Deal with it. AND FOR FUCK'S SAKE, HAVE FUN!!!

Oh yeah, happy birthday, too.
 
 
Sax
09:38 / 25.02.04
Ah, n-n-n-nineteen, as Paul Hardcastle so sagely said.

1989 and all that.

Making the transition from indie pop white kid to blissed out raver by way of Madchester, the Mondays, hooded tops and fookin attitood.

They had a creme de menthe promotion on at a nightclub in Preston, 50p a shot.

I spent £11 and threw up in my mate's waste-paper bin, which glowed green in the night for weeks afterwards.
 
 
Bear
09:42 / 25.02.04
I was getting drunk like it was 1999 - had just finished college and started working for the same company I work for now... nothing much else really... Think I went on holiday with a huge group of friends, wasn't really worth the price but it was good to do it before everyone grows up proper ... go on holiday and have a good birthday!
 
 
Bed Head
09:57 / 25.02.04
When I was nineteen I was thrown out of art school. Because of my ‘attitude’, no less, I was threatened with physical violence by the course leader. At this point I didn’t drink, didn’t smoke, didn’t take drugs; I didn’t even swear, for some reason. I worked really hard, I loved art college with a pure heart, and I hated all my tutors with an entirely unforced intensity.

I’m still rather proud of that incident. Just for a moment, just in the nick of time, I got to be a nihilistic teenage rebel. And I didn’t even realise it.


Based on my experience since, I’d strongly advise staying in school and respecting your tutors at all times. And - yeah! Happy Birthday!
 
 
LDones
10:30 / 25.02.04
1999. I had just been promoted twice for a major corporate institution, (a sure sign of the troubled .bomb times to come), earning way too much money than is healthy for someone that age. I was getting a production company off of the ground and shooting short films & music videos with a gaggle of old friends from high school, making stickers and posters, exploring the wonderful world of exploitation films and hauling ass toward the future.

My advice to you now would be to take your time to do things right and to always be cognizant of the fact that (with rare exceptions) most everyone else is just as clueless as you are at any given time, if not moreso - just have confidence, be gracious, indulge yourself whenever possible and make an effort to keep your wits about you and you'll do fine, even in the face of titanic stupidity. Oh, and don't sit on your ass after college - keep moving.
 
 
Saveloy
11:00 / 25.02.04
A photo of me aged 19 won the Bad Hair competition at the work's Xmas do. It was 1987, and I'd just started foundation year at art college. My main concerns were buying records, making friends and finding someone to cop off with, and to do all those without making a fool of myself. I had been very sheltered up till then and was pretty immature, emotionally, so consequently I made a complete prick of myself. I don't think there is a single thing I can remember from back then that doesn't make me cringe and think "God Almighty, you dozy nugget..." However, I bought some great records, made some fantastic friends (who remain great friends to this day) and met my future missus, so it wasn't all bad.

My life now is a disaster, and the only thing I look forward to is a quick, painless death. If I could go back and give my 19 yr old self some advice, it would be to finish college but get on a training course or apprenticeship to be a gas fitter, plumber, carpenter or electrician immediately afterwards. And above all: DON'T GET AN OFFICE JOB. You think it will be temporary, but it won't. I don't know if that is good advice for all 19 yr olds, but probably useful to the feckless, bone-idle, clueless, drifting about sort.
 
 
Tryphena Absent
11:27 / 25.02.04
Do you think I should keep her in the cellar, instead?

The attic option is a little passe.
 
 
William Sack
11:53 / 25.02.04
Pretty much the same as Saveloy except that at 19 I was working on building up my enormous tolerance for booze and consequently I cringe at the things I don't remember doing but no doubt did.
 
 
rizla mission
11:59 / 25.02.04
On my 19th birthday I was hanging around at home in the summer holiday following my first year at university.

I can't remember whether I got anything exciting as a present. I probably listened to some Sonic Youth or My Bloody Valentine or Patti Smith or the Stooges or something. I probably had a nice cup of coffee and some chocolate. My grandparents proabably came round. We probably went for a meal somewhere.

That's about it I think.
 
 
Axolotl
12:05 / 25.02.04
When I was nineteen it was a very good year. A very good year for exploitative employees who made me work in situations that breached every single health and safety law there is. It was also a very good year for drug dealers as I was beginning a period of heavy experimentation. On the whole I'm not sure if it was a better or worse than now, but it was more fun I think.
 
 
ibis the being
13:00 / 25.02.04
When I was 19 I was in my second yr of art school and hating it (hello Bedhead). I'd never dreamed ART school could be so monotonous and soul-crushing, plus I'd failed to make any real friendships there and managed to feel like a misfit among misfits. I was willing to sublimate my social energy into schoolwork, but it was sooo mechanical and repetitive. When my illustration prof encouraged me to quit school (to avoid corrupting my "idiosyncratic" style he said) it cemented my decision to leave, tho I did wait out the yr. I also had a sweet-but-dull long distance bf at the time who I stayed w another year or so.

25 now, I do have a BA but a lame office job with a salary just barely topping my student loan debt - which job I'm planning to quit and start my own biz this spring. I defied conventional wisdom by meeting a wonderful man in a bar while drunk last summer and still going strong w him (& not drunk). I'm not doing much art-wise bc of the sorry old excuse "I don't have the time anymore" but I'm very excited about having my own business soon.
 
 
Nobody's girl
13:38 / 25.02.04
At nineteen I was working part-time at an after-school club after dropping out of school at 16.

Working with kids is fantasic Taoist work for those of us who'd much rather play tig and examine beetles than collate files and give status reports for the boss. So if you find youself at a loose end, I'd reccommend childcare as a day job. Kids can teach you a great deal about magick and wonder, if you're looking for it.

At nineteen I was also a great big pagan. At 18 I had self-initiated on a full-moon summer solstice in the wilds of the Scottish Borders. Two years previously I had the luck to become part of a performance art group that stages an enormous Beltane celebration in the centre of Edinburgh- an ecstatic festival of excess. Check out the website, they've got a few photos of the event over the years- www.beltane.org

At nineteen I entered into a relationship with someone who had manic depression, thinking I could help him get better. That was really stupid- you can't sort out someone elses life for them, it just doesn't work.

At nineteen I was terrified that I'd never figure out what my vocation was and end up washed up as my contemporaries achieved great heights in their chosen fields. That was also really stupid.

At nineteen I was still running scared from my hellish childhood.

I am now very happily married to an american I met on the internet. I'm at college trying to get the necessary qualifications to get into Uni, mainly because I'd rather study than work another minimum wage job. I'm finally sorting out all the assorted neuroses I picked up as a child. I'm still very interested in magick but thanks to people like Grant Morrison and Robert Anton Wilson I would no longer pigeon-hole myself as just "pagan".

Would I change anything? As the lovely Tony Robinson says on those channel 4 links "Nothing, come on, nothing"
 
 
Papess
13:42 / 25.02.04
When I turned nineteen, I left home....wait I was already living on my own...okay, I left MY home and went to a strip bar near the airport in Toronto and asked if I could work there. The Manager said, "Sure!, you have nice boobs, little girl". I signed the vague contract, assuring them I was of age and that I wouldn't do drugs in the club. Then the Manager and I "celebrated" with a line of coke and a Grand Mariner. He made a pass at me, and I tickled him till he choked.
 
 
HCE
14:47 / 25.02.04
At 19 I met my first girlfriend, dropped out of school, didn't take a lot of drugs but did try everything once (except mushrooms, crack, and ketamine). The important thing about that age was that I lived at home. I was too depressed to support myself though I did work. Living with my family probably extended my depression but it enabled me to spend almost all of my time chasing girls, reading, going to museums, seeing films, listening to music.

I'm 32 now and the primary difference is that I'm not depressed anymore, have a better-paying (but still boring) job which supports my hobbies (themselves just more expensive versions of my youthful hobbies -- wine instead of beer, 1st eds. instead of paperbacks, etc.), and am more interested in relationships than in just getting laid, to the delight of my family who are pressuring me constantly to get married and have a baby before I become any more of an old maid.

My advice is:

learn the difference between infatuation and love,
cultivate compassion for yourself and others,
save money from every paycheck in an interest-bearing account and roll it over into a tax-sheltered CD,
protect your credit rating like it's your baby,
finish school because it's difficult to find the money and time to go back when you're older,
given the choice between sleep and a concert, always choose the concert,
and never destroy photos after a breakup, you will regret it.

Have a wonderful birthday.
 
 
Hieronymus
16:37 / 25.02.04
Wow. Nineteen. Let's see. At nineteen, I was engaged to my high school sweetheart. We were planning on getting married in March. A month before the wedding, my fiance left for Dallas for a month-long training for an airline job my family helped her get. It was there she ended up shagging some guy she met, who I was first introduced to when I called her room one night and he answered.

She ended up calling off the wedding and left me in emotional shambles. Last I heard she married the guy and had four children along the way.

Good times. Good times.
 
 
Cat Chant
17:03 / 25.02.04
(If you scroll through this thread really quickly you get some great subliminal juxtapositions: baby office smellsliketeenspirit artschool hairstyle whiteboy...)
 
 
Isalie
00:17 / 26.02.04
Happy birthday to me indeed.
I'll share with everyone when the day is done.

And thread rot all you want guys & girls.
 
 
Perfect Tommy
00:48 / 26.02.04
1995. I was a pseudo-goth teetotalling gamer badly mis-enrolled as an electrical engineering major. I was involuntarily celibate at the time as well. All in all, I wish that now I was regretting things I'd done, rather than regretting not doing much of anything.
 
  

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