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Less searchable M0rd4nt
17:38 / 15.11.03
Or maybe angels. Or possibly ancestor spirits. Or figments of my own imagination; they won't say. All I know is, these two entities turned up when I started doing Reiki earlier this year and started pushing me around. Apparently they're my spirit guides.

Meet M-L and R-M-L. ('Fraid I've not been able to get their names any clearer than that.) M-L comes across as being male and a little stern. He wears a long green robe and stands behind me during healing sessions. R-M-L hovers up in the air, sort of above and to the right of me. They both help guide me when I'm healing, placing my hands over the hurty bits of people and giving me messages to pass on to them regarding their health. They also help me with everyday stuff and get me little treats now and then. They also nag me like crazy.

Their communications have been getting much stronger recently, and a few weeks ago I made them a weblog (I was extremely dubious but they'd been nagging me about it for months on end.)

I'm interested in hearing about other people's experiences with their guides: how they found you, how you found them, what form their communication takes. I'm also interested in any advice as to how I can communicate more effectively with my own guides.
 
 
ghadis
19:04 / 15.11.03
Sounds really intersting MC. Any chance of seeing the weblog?

Had a recent experience with what i suspect is my guide or HGA or something turning up out of the blue. I've connected its appearence to some personal sexual taboo breaking stuff i was doing a few weeks back. It seemed like what i was doing quickly got out of hand and after a week or so of almost constant rituals during the day i felt that i was pretty much cracking up. I also nearly lost my job and started to feel quite ill. Sex and death and decay was everywhere i looked. At one point my tooth just fell out of my mouth. After 9 days i put a stop to it, banished everywhere and went on a 'no magic allowed' holiday to Portugal thinking 'well what the hell was the point of THAT!'.

On my first day back at work i noticed a new name on the rota. I mentioned this to a work colleage and asked when the new person was starting. She didn't know anything about it so i went to show her the rota and found no new name there. I was trying to remember what the name was whilst my colleage laughed at me for going nuts. It was on the tip of my tongue and finally i remembed it was 'URIXE' (she thought it sounded like a type of toilet bleach). As soon i'd remembered it i was thrown into 'magical conciousness'. Reality went wobbly really. Feeling really dizzy i walked off whilst the word was burning in front of my eyes and suddenly had 'instructions'. Basically i just 'knew' that on the spring equinox i had to go camping somewhere for a week and do 6 1 hour meditations spaced out during the day starting from dawn. That was it.

I've never had anything like this before. I was talking to Illmatic and Gypsy Lantern about it last week and they described it as a 'download' which fits the experience exactly. I've had coversations with deities before but they've always seemed just that. A conversation between 2 people. This was more like a fax. Since then all areas of my life have just gone nuts. Familily illness, family pregnencies, huge relationship problems. The list goes on. All in the last week.

I've tried researching the word 'URIXE' but haven't come up with much. It feels very old school HGA which i don't know too much about so i've been delving into Thelemic books. One thing i've come up with is that the 2 gematric values for 'Urixe' or 'RX' are 208 (To Kill) and 290 (Thine enemy). I'm taking 'thine enemy' to mean my old self unless i'm going to turn up on the Spring Equinox to find some dodgy angel in a sheepskin coat walking out from behind a tree carrying a shotgun.

Any ideas and comments would be much appreciated.
 
 
Z. deScathach
06:04 / 16.11.03
Sounds like you're pushing it to the limit. Nothing wrong there. I've had similar experiences at times when I've gone really into the experience of stillness. I start to feed the opposite pole with ecstatic trances, and things get weird pretty fast. Weird is good, actually. It means that I'm doing some serious ego-messing.Things talk to me, I'm OK with that, as they usually make sense. They often seem to get the most vocal when I'm unsure of myself. Personally I think that it's important to take magick to the limit, otherwise it's too safe. It becomes a reflection of one's "self", it becomes comfy. Still, there have been times when I've realized that some serious earthing was in order. I've always known that I've needed that when things start to get that "crack up" feel. One thing about spirits though, I always let them know that I make up my own mind about things, I don't take orders. If they have a problem with that, well, I don't want to be friends. I have a teaching spirit/diety, (honestly. I'm not sure which it is), that is very in the face, literally. She drives me in my magick and other things. Still, I always carry veto power, even with her. I do see her visually. Not anthropomorphic, more like a force like wind that flies up right in my face with two eyes. Disconcerting, but powerful. Other spirits basically talk in my head, some times I can see them visually. There's one thing that I know though. I know all sorts of mages that seem to have these experiences in some form. Voices, visions, just about everyone that I know that works serously in magick seems to have these kind of communications from time to time. They may come and go, but there they are. I personally think that they are a good sign, a sign that I'm on the right track. Of course, it does occur to me that if I talked about this to people not into magick, they would be horrified and quite frightened, as the society sees these things as a sign of illness. In tribal socities, these things are seen as gifts.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
09:47 / 16.11.03
ghadis: God, I'm such a doof! Can't belive I left out the link to the site: Liber Viridis

That's an amazing story. I've never gone anything quite that extreme, but the experience of reciveing a download and having to process it whilst still trying to get on with your life is a familiar one.
 
 
Seth
14:39 / 16.11.03
I felt my guide/HGA's presence the other night for the first time in a long time. I was drifting off to sleep in bed, still feeling conscious and alert but drifting straight into REM due to a two week period of sleep deprivation. I was considering a relationship that's become pretty important to me, and I had to carry out a difficult decision about it the next day. My dream state became a theatre in which to rehearse the encounter with this person, and there was my HGA, sitting cross legged with us on the floor. Very comforting, also very strange, his presence was tangible in the room.

He's an interesting character. I mainly experience him in dreams and shamanic journey states. He looks a bit like Aragorn, but less medieval, and he exhibits specific animal traits which I'm not going to go into here. He doesn't tend to speak, rather communicate in actions and gestures. I've spent years processing the information he's passed on via arm movements alone!

This is a very timely thread for me, because I could definitely do with his assistance right now. I'll be doing some work with him over the coming days, and while it may be too personal to post here I may give some details (if he gives permission). Yet another case of the Magick forum throwing up the right ideas at the right time!
 
 
Tamayyurt
15:35 / 16.11.03
Read your Aliens' blog and I have to say I enjoyed it very much. I mean I don't think they taught me anything I didn't already know from reading Many Lives, Many Masters but I like then and I think you guys make a great team. I'm also waiting for the fractal Quantum madness.

Also, I can kinda feel you. I haven't spoken directly to any guardian entity of mine but I do feel like The Powers That Be want me to teach (literally ... want to be to a teacher) and I want to write. I've sorta struck a deal with them in my head... I'll be a bloody teacher if you not only help me with my writing but make me successful!

I really need to talk to them more directly though.

Anyway, tell M-L and R-M-L I said "Hi".
 
 
The Tower Always Falls
18:56 / 16.11.03
I'm just going to say that this post A) jostled me out of lurkdom temporarily and B) happens to coincide with some things over in my own personal spheres lately... I'll be tracking your blogs with interest...
 
 
illmatic
08:04 / 17.11.03
Mordant: I really like your/their blog. I think the writing's great. Really nice quality and style to to their voices, as well as their message. And aren't ya glad that today's breed of spirit guides don't insist on communicating through bloody gematria?

As for me, the first ever thing that really impressed me with magick was the results of a sigil to contact an animal spirit in dream. Just pissing about y'know. I'd made up my mind that it was going to take at least a week, and was expecting "it" to be half animal half human. So was rather surprised on the third night, the full animal form turned up and gazed directly at me in my dreams, and let me stroke it. I was very conscious of it's huge strength and power. I think this charcteristic of being different to and outside of your expectations is very important. I had similar experiences when I was doing a lot of astral projection. I "strayed" into a realm of filth and general gunk and had the experience of a spirit "breaking through" all this stuff. This again was complete spontaneous and unexpected. It also tied in with dreams where the symbolism I was working with was expressed and then "resolved" and synthesied in an amazing way. I had experiences following this of voices taking different forms talking to me in dreams, after which I'm kicked awake, normally at about 4 in the morning, very unusual for me.

I'd be first to admit though I've let these contacts slide. In the first instance 'cos I had no idea what to do, in the second just taking a break from stuff. Though I've had things resurge at times> I think if I do ever get it together to work hard at this stuff some kind of contact will manifest - I hope - though possibly in a different form. What do people think of the idea of contacts assuming new shape to get the relationship "fresh"? I suppose the same idea can be found in relationships with God "Forms" (sorry, Gypsy Lantern) - uncovering new aspects to the God, new facts about them - it becomes part of a creative process, a living relationship. Thoughts?
 
 
ghadis
12:27 / 17.11.03
MC: Really enjoyed the blog. They seem like really friendly and helpful characters. My own situation is much more cold and mecanical. I find it really interesting how these encounters occur in times of need whether it's to do with healing or just a general shift in life. I feel that my experience is basically a good kick up the arse to get my life moving again in the right direction.

I'm also aware that just because something contacts you you shouldn't automatically believe it or do what it says. That would make me much more of a spiritualist in a way. This thing might not be benign and have my best interests in mind. The way i'm dealing with that is plenty of divination and so far it's looking good. I've also tried to get back in touch with it but so far nothing.

Illmatic: Not sure that this thing is communicating through Gemetria. In my initial exitment and rush to find out anything about it Gemetria was one thing i tried. I've never really looked at it before and think that it can be an interesting tool/game to play with. I was quite suprised with what i got though as it seemed to fit the situation so well(or what i'm assuming the situation is). Sepher Sephiroth lists only one entry for 290 (Thine Enemy) whilst 208 has a few such as Feather, Bowed, To make strife, Contend, Cistern, Abominable and To Kill. I like 'CISTERN-THINE ENEMY' at the moment.
 
 
Bear
12:57 / 17.11.03
Excellent stuff Mordant - there seems to be major changes happening in everyones life at the moment.
 
 
illmatic
13:11 / 17.11.03
Ghadis: It was more a jokey comment - I had the Book of the Law in mind, and the huge piles of Gematria that people have dug out of it, and the way these self-verifying codes are taken as proof of spritual integrity. Not knocking Gematria, (I wouldn't knock anything that worked for people) but thinking of Mordant's contacts especially I felt relived that they were speaking plain English!
 
 
ghadis
13:40 / 17.11.03
I know what you mean Ill. Best to be taken with a healthy pinch of salt. Theres an interesting Horizon on BBC2 on Thurs about the hidden kabbalistic codes in the Bible which all point to the end of the world quite soon. Most of the research into this has been done by Professor Eliyahu Rips who is apparently one of the worlds leading theoretical mathmaticians who says that there is only a 62,500-to-1 possibility that these codes are random. Of course what he proberly won't say is that even if the codes are there that still doesn't actually prove that we're all going to have our eyeballs melted anytime soon.

Some of us will miss this program as we'll be running around London yelling about burning bushes(ho ho i'm so witty!) but i'll try and tape it.

Anyway...Sorry about the thread rot MC...
 
 
grant
20:48 / 18.11.03
I have little experience with spirit guides.

However, (I've probably told this story on here before) my sister did have something interesting happen when she had her first rei ki attunement. She was in Thailand, living on a resort island and had hooked up with this radio host/rei ki practitioner who needed someone to edit her radio show transcripts into a book. So in addition to paying my sister to do this, she also did the rei ki attunement thing.

There was some stuff my sister took as kinda funny and kinda hokey, and then, sort of halfway through, the woman starts laughing. She says, "Phyllis, no Phylma, she's a funny one. Was she your grandmother?"

And yes, this is true. Our grandmother's name was Phyllis, but she always said it sounded like "syphilis" and "Grandma" made her sound old. She insisted we call her "Phylma" instead. She was dotty, funny, and wry.

Her big message from beyond the veil, entrusted to my sister: "Tell your father he needs to lose some weight."

So, that was a little weird. The thing is, as far as I can tell, it's not like a "cold reading" scam because there wasn't any guessing. She was a little unclear on the name, but didn't say, "someone with a P, or an F -- an elderly woman..." or anything like that. And the character matched exactly. Phylma kept interrupting the rest of the attunement with off-topic banter and whatnot.

So, that's my spirits-and-rei-ki story.

The hands-like-a-yin-yang thing on the blog I learned as a Buddhist meditation posture. I can't remember where from... I think from an Asian religions prof who'd studied at a monastery in Tibet. Might've been my first tai chi teacher, though. Anyway, it was in the late 80s.
 
 
grant
20:55 / 18.11.03
Ghadis: URIXE makes me think of Urizen. Sure you didn't add one too many diagonal lines there?
 
 
Tamayyurt
13:29 / 23.11.03
Two new communiqués from the Aliens are up.
 
 
illmatic
14:30 / 23.11.03
This is quite an interesting essay, on matters germane: Londinium Temple Strain:

The concept of an individual guardian spirit is not only ancient but is accepted in practically all religions.... I still think that humans can recover the beautiful and protecting influence of their guardian. But to do this one must first believe in the existence of the guardian and be prepared to do something towards freeing themselves from the brainwashing and muddy mind conditioning of society and remove completely all those inhibitions and indoctrinations which block the path. The more natural, free, uninhibited you can become the easier the task will be.

One point I found fascinating about this was the implication that Crowley had lost contact with his own Guardian Spirit, Aiwass, perhpas, because of hubris. So perhaps contacts are fluxing relationships (which is not the same as relations with Flux, that's something completely different) rahter than fixed. Bit like any friednship really.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
14:57 / 23.11.03
Wow, thatnks for that link. It woke up memories/created connections that I'd been ignoring.

How terribly sad Crowley must have been to lose contact with his guardian. I think that it would break my heart if I couldn't talk to M-L and R-M-L anymore, and I'm not even sure I belive in them.

Interesting to recall that Crowley recommended yoga as an aid to communicating with one's guide. My two friendly daemons are very big on teaching me simple postures and verbal formulae to be performed as an aid to communication, either by directly facilitating contact or by helping to overcome unhelpful and distracting mental habits.

I'm becoming increasingly certain that this project, embryonic and uncertain though it be, is the most important Magickal work I've ever done. I'm being granted a lot of knowlege which whilst it may not be new to the world is certainly new to me.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
15:10 / 23.11.03
BTW: I've been trying to get the entities' names a bit clearer, and I'm getting Mah Ehl and Rah Mae Ehl. Does this sound familiar to anyone? I've tried googling them but unfortunately the entities don't really go a bundle on spelling.
 
 
osymandus
15:24 / 23.11.03
He he they sound great to have around (Oddly i get the impression their from the court of the Yellow Emporer ?). Could you post details or point me in the direction of the rituals etc you used to contact them.

Oh by the way say hi to them !
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
15:59 / 23.11.03
To be honest, I don't really use any rituals to contact them. I mean, they've got a special notebook and a particular green gel ink pen that they like, but that's as far as it goes. They're with me all the time. They talk to me on trains and in cafes; all I have to do is focus my mind on them.

That said, they do come through more clearly when I'm healing someone. Then they do stuff like taking my hands and moving them over the person's body, telling me to pass on messages: "tell her she worries too much," "tell him to look after that arm." Sometimes I literally feel hands on my wrists or arms, guiding me.

They've also given me a couple of excercises (mentioned above) which you can find on the blog.

Whe I was younger I did perform various proper silly-clothes-and-pointy-sticks rituals, but all that ever got me was bitchslapped up and down the astral by something rather unpleasant.
 
 
illmatic
16:28 / 23.11.03
Isn't "El" a suffix which means angel, as in the 4 quarter Guardians in the LBRP, "El- ohim", "Ang-El" etc?

I wondered how Crowley felt about this at the end of his life. He certainly regained some of his inspiration, produced a couple of his best works in this period. Anybody got any info?
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
19:30 / 23.11.03
"El" means God. Like, "Elijah" = "God is Jah (Jehovah)", "Elizabeth" = "Bessed by God". Not sure that's what the El componant means here.

Or even if I've got the entities' names right; BRANE could have thrown up some suitably angelic-sounding names with no real meaning/relevance at all. This is all a bit new.
 
 
Bard: One-Man Humaton Hoedown
05:25 / 27.11.03
I was posting a long reply, then my system crashed. Blah, must remember what I was saying...

Z., interesting stuff. I'm interested in hearing more about your experiences.

I mentioned that one friend of mine had a few spirits guides that he contacted through some form of oracle wheel or disc, though I'm not really sure what it was as I never saw it. They never gave him bad advise. I have another friend who has a something (angel, alien, spirit, whatever it is its not nice to be sure) that activly discourages attempts at divination on him. I tried to do a reading on him, and the cards seemed to say that they were being blocked or stopped. Was creepy. Apparently it afflicted other diviners with nasty dreams, though thankfully I was in a heavily shielded room and about halfway across the continent at the time so I was ok.

As for my personal "guides"...that's a tad stranger. I have a "something" that follows me around. It's a presence that I can feel sometimes, I think its very distinctly female. Its never tried to make contact, but it does appear in my dreams as a rather good looking woman with dark brown or black hair. It never really says much, normally just a few words that eventually come to provide some sort of insight.

One interesting situation where it appeared happened maybe 4 or 5 month s ago, perhaps a bit more. My family moved into a new house about two years ago, and I've been in conflict with a centipede spirit that dwelled there before us and didn't like me taking a bedroom in the basement. One night I had a dream that one of its lesser spirits attacked...and was fought off by a mysteriously trenchcoated figure that I have alternatly been able to describe as The Shadow, The Midnighter, or some other trenchcoated superhero. It kicked the shit out of the spirit. It was...I dunno. Very protective.

I've had a few of the socalled "Download" experiences in the past as well. I was once out in a field out in the country with a friend of mine (the first one I was talking about above). He was staring at the sky, wordlessly praying or communing or something with Thor or some sort of storm spirit. I just said something, suddenly, and he looks at me and he was like "My god! That's EXACTLY the answer I was asking for!" Apparently I gave him a divine message.

As for ghadis...the name "URIXE" seems very familiar to me, for some reason. I'm now going to end up wandering around and pondering WHY its familiar.
 
 
trouser the trouserian
09:13 / 27.11.03
MC - Just read the blog - really heartwarming, tender, down-to-earth communications. Which makes a nice change as over the years I've had to (professionally) read a lot of channeled communications (I used to work for a spiritualist publisher) and found the majority of 'channeled' communications to be unbearably tedious.

Reflecting on my own experiences with 'channelled' communications - I recall that when I was going through a sort of Ma'atian/Thelemic/Erisian phase, the communications I had from the 'entities' I was working with tended to take the form of sub-Book of the Law type ramblings. Personally interesting, but not something I'd want to present as 'revealed truth' to anyone else. Now I've moved on from that phase (style?) and when I do, admittedly infrequently, get 'contacts' with entities, what tends to come out is image/word-bursts and frequently, emotional aggregates. I've thought for a long time that the quality of channeled communications is perhaps 'coloured' by the communicee's magical disposition - and that if one's not careful to keep a sense of perspective about the relationship, the 'quality' of information can degenerate into a situation where one's just 'getting through' what one wants to hear.

Ghadis: Haven't any info on "URIXE" - but U's & X's do seem to be 'popular' letters for spirit guides. One of my all time 'favourites' (though that's not really the right word as I had to deal with 600 pages of its/its channelers ramblings) is UNIXITRON - which sounds like a character from Dan Dare. Unixitron & co. produced a voluminous "Code of Love" which included the ominous warning:

There are not many opportunities left. The planet is entering its period of cleansing and preparation for a new level of evolution. Prepare yourselves so that you can enter that system of energy. If not you will be removed from the planet for not being in harmony. Not being in order, you cannot enter the new wave of vibration and you will have to accept the process accorded to all rebels that did not accept the orders of Light, emitted for all to submit to as conscious beings to the action of Love.(my italics)

Anyone who wants to read more of this stuff can find an 872pp word file here
 
 
grant
20:10 / 01.12.03
Ghadis: another Urixe association, for me, is "orixa", as in "orisha," as in them African demigod spirits, which I think might be morphed into "orixe" in Portuguese.

MC: I want to know more about the yoga posture than what you have on the blog -- does the palm face up or down?

Armael and Emael sound very angelic, as names go. I wonder... you probably know about the Hebrew alphabet more than I do, but I wonder if there might be something there.

r = resh = 200
m = mem = 40
l = lamed = 30

I imagine it's up to them. This numbers bit is feeling a little silly to me, so I'll shut up now.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
22:30 / 01.12.03
MC: I want to know more about the yoga posture than what you have on the blog -- does the palm face up or down?
--grant

If you mean the one for "I am the rock, I am the ocean/ I am the wind, I am the mountain", then... neither, sort of. You know the stereotypical Western prayer posture? Like that, only instead of both hands being palm to palm, one hand makes a fist which is pressed against the other palm. Sort of like >¦ where the pointy bracket is the knuckles of the fist and the pipe is the palm of the hand. The fist hand is palm-down, if that's what you meant. Sound familiar to anyone? Coz I'm drawing a big blank here. It feels good to do the excercize tho'.

BTW, the names come through sounding like Rah may el and Mah el, rather than Armael and Emael (tho' I see how the confusion would arise). I've tried doing a numerological analysis on their names, but a) I can't get a consistent spelling and b) they keep laughing at me.
 
 
Tamayyurt
03:05 / 02.12.03
Okay, it's official... I want to contact my spirit guides! But I don't want to get my astral ass kicked by some noncorporeal fucker so any advise, tips, help, postures, you can give me would be great. Also if you can ask your spirit aliens the best way for me (or anyone really) to contact them would help. I'm sure they wouldn't mind as it's knowledge that'll help in healing. And if they get smart and say something like "They're always near and you're always in contact".... tell them that they know what I mean... Two way conversation!
 
 
grant
20:31 / 02.12.03
Sort of like >¦ where the pointy bracket is the knuckles of the fist and the pipe is the palm of the hand. The fist hand is palm-down, if that's what you meant. Sound familiar to anyone?

Sounds like something I do at the beginning of every tai chi lesson.

Like so:


Actually, in tai chi (and most of the internal arts, I think) you wrap the "paper" hand around the "rock" hand. In the harder, fighting arts, it's like that little picture, which I yanked from a Martial Arts Webring banner.

More here and here and here.

And here, in a Liu He Quan form.
 
 
FinderWolf
20:44 / 02.12.03
"URIXE" -- anything like William Blake's ** Urizen ** character/spirit/entity?
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
12:00 / 03.12.03
grant: How odd! That's very similar, except that in the position I got given the fingers of the "paper" hand are pointing straight up and both hands are drawn in close to the body.

I don't even know any Tai Chi. This is getting very peculiar.
 
 
osymandus
16:57 / 03.12.03
Tai Chi is as much a concept withing Taoism as it is the "martial art" . Its the balancing of the chi within in you to attain the state of Tai chi and then return hopefully to the Tao.

Or thats one way of looking at at but its not the "true" way
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
13:46 / 11.02.04
Just updated, if anyone's interested.
 
 
---
19:29 / 11.02.04
Hey that's amazing, your guides seem really cool. I look forward to reading your next part and good luck with the book.
 
 
LDones
03:57 / 12.02.04
Aw, man. I just read your latest entry, the truth of which is... acute.

You're very blessed to receive advice like that, whatever its source.

I'm feeling wistful now...
 
 
Tamayyurt
15:24 / 27.06.04
Your aliens have been very silent this for the past two months. Any more word on these horrible things to come?
 
  

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