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yeah, I had one... I had insights into past lives before that, and I thought it would be useful to explore it.
first off, let me say, I am with Warewullf- I really don't want to have to come back and 'get it right'. but I do believe it to be so.
I never used to believe in past lives. everyone wants to be Cleopatra, don't they?! well, that was what I thought. I met a woman, when I worked as a cleaner at an old people's home. she was a cleaner as well. she claimed to have been Dante's lover, who inspired him to write about the seven circles of hell. well, I thought, it must be a bit of a comedown, to end up as a cleaner in an old people's home... I was very cynical then.
however, I had some experiences last year, that leave me personally without doubt. I 'saw' my past life. I am ashamed to give details, so I won't, but I was truly sickened. I was a nasty person. I was everything I despise in this life, or rather, the way I acted was despicable. It was awful. I pleaded, 'how could this happen?' then I was shown the lifetime before. I was a native American, maybe a chief, in the late 1800's. I saw myself return to my village. the were thin plumes of smoke rising from various parts of the settlement, but other than that it was still, silent. everyone I knew, everyone I loved, everyone I had lived with, was dead. they had been massacred. and hate filled my heart, and I vowed vengeance. I vowed to kill those who had done this- so they would know. I wanted them to feel how I felt.
so my next lifetime, I got my chance, and I did that. I hurt people. maybe they were the same people who had done this, reincarnated. maybe they weren't, I don't know. but I got my revenge. and before I died, I knew I had done a great wrong.
briefly, in this lifetime, I have the choice of acting in hate or forgiveness. I choose forgiveness, at least most of the time, unless I get unbalanced. but I certainly don't go out to hurt- I try to harm as little as possible, including being vegetarian.
the past life regression was good, and interesting, tho I felt the healer was a bit too directive, a bit pushy. I needed more time, to integrate some of the feelings, and she pushed a me a bit too hard to kind of 'deal with it and move on'
what amazed me though, was the strength of the feelings I had. for instance, returning to the village, I really did feel like everyone I knew had been killed. I truly felt the immense loss in that. it was heartbreaking. I feel I still have more work to do on that.
a person might say that these experiences are just projections, and of course that is possible. however, there is just a sense about the experience, that feels real to me. so I believe it. I have come from a position of being a complete cynic, so I haven't accepted it lightly. but I... well, I can't say any more than I believe it to be true, in the light of what I have experienced.
what does it involve? well, it's like hypnosis I guess... I will say, I had my first experiences during meditation. so I guess your brain slows down, is it like alpha waves...? and then you get the scene popping up in your mind... |
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