Does she still seem to think that barbelith is a place for therapy? Who knew that I'd actually be able to go to parties and... exist? Lots of recent breakthroughs. Everyhting was so panoramic before: I felt like I had some type of role to play. Very high school, but wait! There's more!
The 1st year of attending parties/events that you feel comfortable at can be like running around the candy store with so much excitement that you forget where you are. (especially if you were raised in a place where candy/fringe culture didn't exist) But wait! There's more! There's what I'd like to call "Camera Syndrome."
What is Camera Syndrome?
Camera Syndrome is a juvenile behavior cosisting of a constant "on" state. People with CS tend to annoy everyone around them. They feel that there is a camera on them 24/7, and are in a perpetual state of performance art. While people with CS can be the most entertaining bursts of hilarious creativity since sliced feds, they tend to have trouble "letting go" of themselves.
What causes Camera Syndrome?
Usually it's one of your parents, though going to the airport can do wonders these days. If you have a mom that listens on all your phone calls, thoroughly reads your diary, endlessly spies on you, etc. etc. etc. there's a good chance you'll develop CS. You'll feel like there's a camera on you at all times.
Paranoia?
You might start off paranoid. There's a camera on you, after all. You're constantly being watched, after all. Even when you're not being watched (you've moved away from mommy and you've been on your own for almost 5 years) you'll still feel the camera.
Histrionic?
If the government or the mommy is watching, you don't have to be paranoid. Might as well perform. Ya! Take that! If there's a camera anyway, you might as well wave to it!
All these thoughts: no idea how to string them together: (in this world of chaos chaos little star) but I guess a good question would be:
Does one turn histrionic to transcend paranoia?
And, of course, where does one turn to transcend histrionics? The answer would be "off," I assume.
Breaking the camera. |
