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Honestly, I've been staring at the screen and I can't come up with anything worthy of writing. Sorry bub, but from this side of the monitor you're just some guy having nightmares, and there are so many approaches to magick as magickians are and have been in the human specie, that's probably why the responses to your initial post have been so general. I can say that, yes, some power is stalking you, it could be some power you have abdicated, or you have gone through certain critical threshold and now you have to take responsibility for new powers you might have outlooked, but this is shamanic rubbish of course. It may ring a bell, but you have to check where exactly it is ringing. Its like paying taxes, you know, as you progress you have to pay more, if you don't, then the dream patrol is going to come and knock you off your bed until you pay.
Anyway, if you really want to make them stop, I am on Mord@nt's and Illmatic's practical side. My take would be -and for goddam's sake tell us whatever actually happened because we are intrigued-, I was saying, my take would be: hang around with people you want to hang around, arrange that meeting you've been postponing, even if its been for years, go out, make the call, enjoy some company you've been depriving yourself of, or at least take the initial step towards it, even if its impossible to actually meet, make a concrete signal to the universe that you are on the track: go pick up the phone. Stop what you are reading at the moment, whatever it is, for a couple of days only, go read a book or see a movie that makes you laugh in your own healthy laughing way, share it with someone if possible, and especially if it is something you already know will enrich you. If you are doing sports, try a different one for the occasion, if you are not, start any for the fun of it. This is sort of a quick and superficial brain washing to get disconnected from whatever psycho-magnetic-neuro-immuno-endocrinal state you are that is facilitating the nightmares. Even more powerful: go see small children, infants, less than five years old, if there are any in your family, and especially if they aren't into pokemon crap yet, spend time with them, take them out for an ice-cream, take them to the park, or just spend a whole afternoon with them playing in their room's floor. Try to temper a tantrum. Stay for supper if possible and feed them. If some baby vomits on your clothes his just ingested and barely digested food, the better. By this time you should be quite another guy from the one who is having nightmares, and if any baby vomited on you then you'll smell different also.
Remember, whatever is objectively discarded, easily becomes subjectively discarded (paraphrased from Prometheus Rising), so stop talking to people about the nightmares you are having if you'be been doing so, and if they ask, tell them they are finally over. If you wake up with a feet on dream-land just go on with whatever you do for a living, arrange yourself to look the best you can look, and get out to the streets, order a coffe, smile to the waitress, and ask how her day is going. In short, forget about the shitty nighmares in any situation you are.
Lastly, and most important, increase the number of hours you are sleeping. Don't go to sleep the minute you feel like falling on the floor, go to bed while you are still fresh, suspend whatever it was you were planning to do, going to bed is more important, and get to sleep eight hours minimum (assuming you are sleeping less). If you picked and actually did any of the general ideas from above, you should have different things in mind and overally you should feel different by the time you get to bed. Remember, this is sort of a mini vaccation from your usual behaviors to catch on some air, I do not suggest you keep sleeping all this amount of hours, but the effects will be noticeable as you charge up. You'll know when to go back to your agenda, and, actually it will not be going back. |
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