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A fidgeting stone gathers no moss

Our Lady of The Two Towers

20:25 / 20.07.02

Edgy.

All day but more so this evening.

Fidgeting.

Can't stay in one place. Nothing interests me. Why is this? No medical reason, at least, nothing historically that I can point to. Just... dunno.

Last time I moved, I moved all my books and CD's a week beforehand. All of a sudden there was tons of music I desperately wanted to listen to but couldn't, and I really needed to see that chapter. Didn't even glance at them when I moved in later. And when my video bust last March for a week I wanted to watch videos I still haven't watched even now, when it's fine. Right now, I really want to be down the pub with friends, anywhere but here, but I know that if I were anywhere else I'd really be missing my own bed right now.

Damn! Perhaps I need to be planked. Any suggestions for how to cure my inability to appreciate what I've got?

Sax

20:30 / 20.07.02

I know exactly how you feel. My video's been in the repair shop for THREE FUCKING WEEKS and I desperately need to watch School For Scoundrels. Even though it's been at the bottom of a cardboard box in the spare room for a year.

I also want to read all my old Shogun Warriors comics which are at my folks 50-odd miles away.

And I really need some ink in my printer, even though I've know I've needed ink for three weeks and been in to WH Smiths at least four times in that period, looked at ink cartridges, and thought I'd get it later.

And I'm out of hair wax.

And I really wish I'd bought a pair of Armani keks in Singapore but didn't because I was too hot and sweaty to try them on, even though they looked dead good and were quite cheap.

Hey ho. Always wanting what we can't have, us.

Knight's Move

21:33 / 20.07.02

Could do this. Don' wanna. Loads of stuff to do. Loads of people I could see. Don' wanna.

Aaaargh. A common curse. What to do tonight? I have everything but it's not the everything I want. Usually leading to going to the pub (or whilst at University the college bar) and wasting time and money and life cos something interesting might happen. Maybe.

It's a shit feeling. There is little you can do except start something, anything and hope that some way into the task you forget that you're restless. Or find something you've read/played/seen a thousand times before, admit you've lost the night, and lock in until you fall asleep.

Mourne Kransky

22:48 / 20.07.02

Sax in Armani keks (swoon)... Now you've got me fidgeting.

netbanshee

22:58 / 20.07.02

ahhh...same feeling today as well. The lady's been working a lot of shitty schedules so I'm not about to see her for some quality time any time soon and the rest of the bunch has got their weekend booked. Tomorrow may be better. Have been downloading old games and playing them, revisiting puzzles and soundtracks from my youth. Seems to be holding me over. Now just have to remember the money I have needs to last till Wednesday...not tonite for beer...

bitchiekittie

00:08 / 21.07.02

Im in the habit of taking off at the first sign of trouble. which is harder when you have a kid, as there are many more considerations, but
some situations arent really ever going to allow you true contentment

lifes too goddamn short to settle

Our Lady of The Two Towers

20:22 / 22.07.02

Sadly life has ensnared me. Given me a flat, a job, a computer, a telly, music, videos, a brain like mush. "Right now he'd die from shock if you shone a flashlight in his eyes."

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