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I got some good news, and I got some bad news...

Tuna Ghost: Pratt knot hero

20:11 / 15.07.02

Both sets of information pertain to me and my life only, so don't be afraid. Unless you're a me from an alternate dimension.

The Good News: because of my medication, I can now experience normal human emotions

The Bad News: now I have to deal with women on an emotional level

Dating in general was a lot easier when I didn't care about anything or anyone. Now I see what everyone was talking about. This is hard work.

I realize that it's an unfair stereotype to say that all women are crazy, and I know that dealing with men on an emotional level is probably no picnic either. But jesus, I'm sick of all these games. Is it impossible for anyone these days to live without drama? I enjoy having emotions (and I assume most people don't mind it too much), but for christ's sake, they shouldn't influence every goddam thing you do. Or should they? Am I crazy like they say? Is this just something that normal people do?

I'm realy just venting. Too much drama where I am. My life feels like a movie now, and that's not nearly as much fun as one would think.

20:27 / 15.07.02

I have to say that, depending on what medication you're on, you may not be experiencing normal human emotions. Certainly not if it's an SSRI.

The Apple-Picker

21:15 / 15.07.02

Is it impossible for anyone these days to live without drama?

Romantically? Absolutely. I know at least two people who are doing just that.

22:13 / 15.07.02

Ah, those'll be normal-human-emotion-otropic drugs, then.

00:04 / 16.07.02

What emotions weren't you experiencing before?

Sorry about helping to derail this thread, but the medication and emotions aspect of it is a lot more interesting than the relationship aspect.

00:09 / 16.07.02

sometimes, games are a perfectly means of emotional expression.

If, in the context of the situation that you find yourself in, that's a scary thing for one reason or another, feel free to scream. Or to refuse to play.

Anyway, some games are fun.

07:42 / 16.07.02

The good news: I experience normal human emotions
The bad news: I experience normal human emotions

07:53 / 16.07.02

What exactly are these drugs that turn you into a Cyberman?

14:47 / 16.07.02

Antidepressants - as prescribed by useless-but-machiavellian Tools of the State.

15:11 / 16.07.02

The Bad News: now I have to deal with women on an emotional level...I realize that it's an unfair stereotype to say that all women are crazy...But jesus, I'm sick of all these games. – Johnny O

Women are not crazy, Johnny. PEOPLE are crazy. Women are crazy insomuch as they are PEOPLE.

Are you PEOPLE?

Then you're probably crazy too. Just like women. So women are not that different from you, eh?

Ponder that for a bit and see if it shifts your perspective on the matter a bit. And good luck.

16:32 / 16.07.02

All women are crazy.

Oh. I thought all women were bitches. I was confused.

It always raises a red flag for me when people complain about how "emotional" women are...

16:38 / 16.07.02

"Red flag"

*snicker*

16:58 / 16.07.02

Keep your menstrual envy to yerself, elephant man.

Tuna Ghost: Pratt knot hero

19:04 / 16.07.02

"Women are not crazy, Johnny. PEOPLE are crazy. Women are crazy insomuch as they are PEOPLE."

I know this. I'm just upset that I have to deal with them on another level now. I realize the world hasn't changed, just myself.

Antidepressants - as prescribed by useless-but-machiavellian Tools of the State.

Yes. And they helped me quit smoking!

It always raises a red flag for me when people complain about how "emotional" women are...

Understandable. But this isn't a "women are overly emotional" thread, this is a "I'm not equipped to deal with members of the opposite sex on an emotional level" thread.

19:20 / 16.07.02

I mentioned anti-depressants because, in my experience, they can restrict your emotional range (part of the point) and make it harder to understand people who aren't on them.

Tuna Ghost: Pratt knot hero

19:29 / 16.07.02

I mentioned anti-depressants because, in my experience, they can restrict your emotional range (part of the point) and make it harder to understand people who aren't on them.

Ah. I don't think my emotional range could have gotten any more restricted, though.

I take Wellbutrin, which is also used for a bunch of other stuff. That's why I describe it as a bundle of side effects, and you just pick the ones you want and try to control the rest. But I suppose that's any medication, really.

19:51 / 16.07.02

Wellbutrin is a pretty good med IMO (though I'm sure there'll be some argument there), but it's just that some of the peaks and troughs get sliced off. Sometimes, when I'm medicated, I can't quite get what the hell people are talking about in an emotional context, because I can only empathise in an intellectual context with what they're feeling.

Incidentally, in the fag context, Wellbutrin is the same thing as Zyban, but I guess you knew that already.

23:07 / 16.07.02

"My life feels like a movie now, and that's not nearly as much fun as one would think."

It would be if we had soundtracks playing in the background everywhere we went. Cue the music and then cue the appropriate emotions. I think your collection of Celine Dion cds would be perfect for this.

XXII:X:II = XXX

01:09 / 17.07.02

I am also on 300 mg per diem of Wellbutrin. Actually, I think I intentionally allow myself to run out, because after a few days for it to get out of my system, when I go back on it again I have such wonderful insights and everything looks so beautiful and full of light. This hippiness goes away after a few days, but I think I'm generally better off for them. I was bad depressed and trapped in my inertia for years, and now I'm starting to wrestle free of that. Now I can't believe I didn't allow myself to get medicated sooner; I was one of those people who looked askance of having to supplement what you think is just a behavioral pattern, like it's a crutch. Well, guess what? Usually people using crutches actually need them, and I'm content to let it. I know some people get really disturbed by their newfound energy and optimism, but after about seven years of using much harder chemical supplements this is a cakewalk.

VJB2

Tuna Ghost: Pratt knot hero

18:44 / 17.07.02

I think your collection of Celine Dion cds would be perfect for this.

You mean the ones I found underneath your bed in the same box as your Mariah Carey recordings?

...tool.

gentleman loser

00:14 / 18.07.02

I realize that it's an unfair stereotype to say that all women are crazy, and I know that dealing with men on an emotional level is probably no picnic either. But jesus, I'm sick of all these games. Is it impossible for anyone these days to live without drama?

I suspect that the problem is not women, just the ones that you happen to find attractive. I used to have that problem too, but I learned to adjust.

In other words: Hey man. Maybe it's you!

Higher than the sun :)

00:23 / 18.07.02

What movie does your life feel like?

09:03 / 18.07.02

It's Reality Bites and I'm Winona Ryder. No wonder I have to resort to stealing things. It's a cry for help you know.

Tuna Ghost: Pratt knot hero

18:14 / 18.07.02

I suspect that the problem is not women, just the ones that you happen to find attractive. I used to have that problem too, but I learned to adjust.

In other words: Hey man. Maybe it's you!

Of course it's me. What, do you seriously think I'm blaming everyone else in the world besides myself? I think I need to get back into my meditation routine. I bet that'll help.

What movie does your life feel like?

A really, really bizarre one. Which I have to admit is sometimes fun, but annoying as hell most of the time. The other day I drove a transvestite to a hotel at five in the morning so she could buy me some pot and some crack(!) for herself. That kind of movie. This whole city is so weird...

10:43 / 19.07.02

But would you really want a picket fence, two and a half kids, a household pet and a steady job at the local power station?

11:33 / 19.07.02

Rent your life out to low-rent arthouse film-makers, and sneak off to have a good time elsewhere.

Pros and cons of medication aside, it sounds like you're learning useful stuff about yourself and your life. Breathe through it.