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Your current place in life

22:58 / 19.05.02

where are you (and take this how you will - your physical location, your career, your romantic or financial situation, take your pic)

do you like it, are you happy?
is this where you imagined youd be?
where do you see yourself in 10, 20 years?

I realized Ive asked similar none too long ago...if you answered, and remember your answers, how does your answer today differ, if at all?

23:14 / 19.05.02

Career? Non-existent. Of course, the whole college thing is supposed to lead to a career, right?
Romantic Situation? Non-existent. My own damn fault. Need to be more outgoing and aggressive in my dealings with people.
Physical Location? Still in TN, living with the 'rents. Can't do much about it.
Financial Situation? No job = no money.

Do I like this? No. Am I happy? Not really, but I can't complain. Other people are worse off than I am. If I'm not happy, its my own damn fault. There's nobody else to blame.

Is this where I imagined I'd be? Not really.
Where do I see myself in the future? A bitter old man at 30, yelling at the neighborhood kids to stay off my lawn?

23:15 / 19.05.02

where are you (and take this how you will - your physical location, your career, your romantic or financial situation, take your pic)

Well, I'm still in the process of writing and recording with my new band, Zwan, and while I'm pretty confident that it's some of the best music ever created, I must confess that I'm a bit worried about how the world reacts to it. I hope that I can overcome the expectations which have been created by the genius of my previous band, The Smashing Pumpkins. I wonder if the world is ready for my new music, or if it will suffer in the marketplace among the Britneys of this world.
Nevertheless, I am happy with my amazing successes, in spite of my bouts of despair and sorrow which come and go.

In 20 years, I see myself being entered into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame, and rocking the planet with music that would be beyond the comprehension of people in the present tense. I do not believe I have yet reached the peak of my brilliant, innovative career.

00:41 / 20.05.02

I am happy, for the most part.
I am at university in London. It is better than temping in Swindon.
I am also working full time at Habbo, which is the best job I have ever had.
This is not where I imagined I would be a year ago- i honestly expected myself to either be unemployed, temping at some shit office job or dead.
10/ 20 years- hopefully will have a Doctorate in Philosophy. Will be happily married. Will have written a book.

02:23 / 20.05.02

I was just telling Reason that I go through 6 or 7 million different emotions over the space of a couple of hours every day. Am I happy where I am? There is the odd occasion each day.

I'm so far from where I imagined I'd be that I can't even remember where that was. That may sound like sarcasm, but it's not. I honestly don't remember where I thought I'd be now, but it's not where I am.

In 10 years I hope I'm far more financially stable than I am now. I hope I'm happier and wiser and less stressed, but I really doubt I will be. I'm sure all of the problems I have now will have disappeared, but they'll be replaced with all new ones.

In 20 years? Shit, I'll be getting close to 50. I honestly have no idea who I'll even be at that point, much less where that person will be. I hope it's somewhere nice.

Zoom.

02:41 / 20.05.02

When I was a teenager, my thoughts of the future never usually went beyond 25, I mean, that was OLD. I hoped I'd have a job, cool place to live and perhaps have met "the one for me". At 25 I had a job I liked (honestly I can't say I've ever disliked a job, I simply like doing stuff and getting paid for it... the people I've worked with however...) lived in several cool places and had met the one (about time too!) By 30 I'd hoped to have a home and a job and a family. There again I have them. But everything is subjective. My home is a tiny apartment and I long for a house. My job, I've just been laid off, and though I enjoyed the day to day of it- I was getting tired of sitting on my corporate butt all day trying to look busy and worthwhile. Didn't like the games too much, and long for my own business again. Family, now there I couldn't be happier. But it's also subjective. So many friends and aquaintances are splitting up, putting up, screwing up and elsewhere. I consider my marriage a strong healthy one. Thank the gods too or with all the stuff we've been through, we'd be one of them too.

10 years from now? Simply further along the path. Trade apartment for a home, trade waitressing/transitional jobs for job I like (re. my own business) trade family now with family 10 years down the line (teen son- ye gods! A whole world o'messes there! and a 16 year old happy marriage.)

20- can't fathom. Grandkids? urp!

Not bad when I summarize to a few sentences. Day to day- so very much, much more.

Reason.

03:58 / 20.05.02

Physical Location: I am currently not living in a place where safety is a worry, and this will probably not be an issue in the future. So, physical location is great.

Career: Excellent. I just graduated from college on Saturday, and I start graduate school this fall.

Romantic Situation: Nonexistent, which is for the best. The last thing I want right before I have to move to the other side of the country is a relationship.

Financial Situation: Better than I ever expected. Graduate school is being paid for by the department, and I get a sizable stipend as well.

Happiness Level: Near 100%, I get to spend the rest of my life studying the biology of aging, which I think is the most important problem in the world today.

Solitaire Rose as Tom Servo

11:50 / 20.05.02

Where am I?

Starting over again with a new career, one that I think I can stay in for a while.

Is this where I thought I would be? A bit. I thought I would be working at a group home full-time, but I didn't think I could be doing it as a boss, and I thought I would know what I was doing a bit better. I also thought I would be writing more... but that has a lot to do with the fact that for the past *mumble, mumble* years, I worked two jobs and had very little spare time. Now, I still have no spare time.

Where will I be in 10 years? Back in the business world, probably, in a job I don't care much a lot for because I'll be writing all the time and have to pay for it. In 20 years? I'll own a little used book storem and be writing all the time, maybe even making my living at it.

And my answer doesn't differ a whole lot except that I don't have any other people in my plans. I just have kind of discovered over the years that other people come and go...all I really have for the long haul is myself.

11:56 / 20.05.02

i have just handed in my dissertation. i have a summer ahead of me, and after that there's the future(tm) and i don't know what i'll do then. i have no clue. and i like having no clue what i'm going to do in the future right now. i never liked being tied to one academic institution.
a year ago i was still in the us and i'd had the coolest year of my life. i'd totally fallen in love, and i'd made my first zine and edited another collaborative zine and just loved my writing fiercely at that time. i didn't think that i'd be able to cope with this year at all. i thought i'd not be able to make it without my boy and my friends and no america. but i've done it.
i thought i might have dropped out, but i guess it was just easier staying.
in ten years i want to be happy and i want to be out of the uk forever.

15:51 / 20.05.02

I'm nearing the end of 2nd year of university.
I'm more happy than I have any right to be.
It's pretty much where I imagined I'd be, though I suppose I've yet to really 'go' anywhere..
I'm worried about what I'm going to do after the end of next year, let alone 10-20, because there's very little chance of me getting more student loan, and I can't think of anything worse than having a 'career' except possibly having a REALLY SHIT (even by job standards) job. And they're the only one's going..

Murray Hamhandler

19:21 / 20.05.02

where are you?

I'm in Bloomington, Indiana. I'm dirt poor. I work in a gas station. I'm a college drop-out. I have plans to fix the last two things as of this fall, and I'm very happy about that and the sudden surge of motivation I've gotten lately. I feel like I'm starting to get my shit together for the first time in way too long.

is this where you imagined youd be?

I don't think I really ever gave much thought to where I'd be at any specific point in my future life. I've seen myself in the future married, w/kids, and successful, but I've never really given much thought to what point in my life these things will supposedly take place. Maybe when I'm 70? So, basically, I never really had a firm idea of where I'd be by, say, 24. Which might have been a big part of the problem. I'm just now starting to set realistic goals for myself. Baby steps and whatnot.
Arthur Sudnam, II

Morlock - groupie for hire

11:15 / 21.05.02

You are all far too happy, I hate you. I will hunt you all down and drown you in syrup.

Cry havoc and let slip
the dogs of wag.

11:46 / 21.05.02

Presently
I am happy enough even though there is not enough excitement or surprise in life these days.
Single but recently I have progressed onto shifting (making out with for ye americans) girls I have no interest in. I hope to start hooking up with people I'm interested in soon. Goddam broken hearts are too hard to get parts for these days and the downtime is getting more ridiculous as I get older. Still can't ever see myself getting married or with kids.
Living at home with parents for 7 months - not good or bad but I've been saving. Sampler, synth, small desk, laptop - all cost a wee bit.
I have a job in a cybercafé so I get paid for doing feck all. Also Ireland can piss me off sometimes.
Working on getting a driving license - a car will come much later.
Happy making beepy boopy music - have to start playing again soon and that's why I need a car.
I'm going to go fucking around england and europe for a month or two soon with no job and whatever cash I've saved. That'll be fun and probably fairly random. I still have to actually decide where I'm going first

In five years time I am definitely going to have a bit of a sound system together so I can travel around at will playing insane music at free parties. My personal ambitions don't go much farther than that. I've pretty much given up any hope of getting a job that gives me any personal satisfaction or requires me to use any of my arty/techie skills.
Have to say my life is turning out OK in all fairness.
10 years from now? What career?
So there you go.