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Futility, fear then freedom

Sauron

07:28 / 14.05.02

This is my weekend:

Friday- decide that relationship with girlfriend of 5 years is going nowhere and that if I never called her again she probably wouldn't notice.

Saturday- woke up at 5 am with chest pains. Spent 7 hours in hospital thinkinmg I was going to die. ECG/ X-rays clear, but pain still there so what the fuck is it?

Sunday- worked out pains from uber stressful job and uber stupid lifestyle. Realised I don't want to die young.

This weekend made me feel really fucking bad, but today I am resigning and am going away for a bit to think about what I want from this life.

Now I feel happy for the first time in ages and very very excited ...

Just hasd to tell someone.

that

07:34 / 14.05.02

Best of luck, Sauron. Seriously.

Shortfatdyke

07:38 / 14.05.02

excellent that you've had the courage to take a leap into the unknown. life *is* short, you quite possibly only get one go at it, so change the stuff that's not making you happy. easier said than done, but i've done probably three serious serious life changes - two i wanted, the other was forced on me but on reflection was necessary - and feel happier and more fulfilled as a result.

enjoy your thinking time.

Sauron

08:11 / 14.05.02

Cheers ladies, I will ...

Less searchable M0rd4nt

08:15 / 14.05.02

Yeah- sorry about your scary experience, guy, but well done for doing something positive.

The Return Of Rothkoid

08:44 / 14.05.02

Sauron; can't exactly help you with the chest pain thing, but I've been having them too. It's been suggested that it's the chest equivalent of a leg-cramp - big muscles along the front of the chest cramping up - but I really don't know what the fuck it is. But I do feel your pain, unfortunately literally.

I'm glad you're feeling better about things, though. Have a good think.

ONLY NICE THINGS

08:48 / 14.05.02

Huggles for Sauron, really...

Sax

08:53 / 14.05.02

Things get better. They always do. At least you're master of your own destiny now, Sauron. Fuck 'em all.

The Natural Way

09:22 / 14.05.02

Seeing as yr a REAL LIFE FRIEND I expect to catch yr fat arse down Brighton some time soon! And there we will get drunk, laugh at yr funny sister and the Twart and generally resolve all yr shit into one big mass of happy, smiling friends.

Sauron

09:51 / 14.05.02

You all make me dry inside. xxx.

Anyway, I'm cool- it's a real release to make a good decision.

bitchiekittie

12:26 / 14.05.02

I did similar last summer - quit my stressful job, ditched my relationship 4 months before the grand wedding, quit all the medications my doctor had been piling on me over the years and 40 pounds that it had put on me, and dramatically altered my diet. all of it within a few months. and I have never in my life felt more in control. congrats to you

Sauron

20:04 / 14.05.02

thanks, feel fucking cool.

San Fran- PCH to LA, stay with ex for a bit, on to Mexico and then discuover central Amercia and see what happends ...

grant

13:16 / 15.05.02

Drove the PCH last year before Labor Day & Burning Man (in the opposite direction). Damn expensive cafe/diner, but great view. Wish I'd found the Hearst Castle, though. There was a detour for road work and I missed it.
Mexico road trip: excellent!

Sauron

13:18 / 15.05.02

when is Burning Man?

grant

13:40 / 15.05.02

Labor Day weekend and the week leading up to it.
End of summer. Aug/September.

official website.

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