I decided to do the Syrian Rue - DMT combo last night. I had just got some more DMT and took a hit straight off. It was real good, more familiar this time, felt more like visiting friends than cold calling on someone who may or may not want you to come in. Was also using the new oak pipe that I have just carved specifically for DMT use.
Got much more into the visual apects this time. The physical representations of time distortion and being elsewhere, as well as the the forms and shapes the elves were taking.
One thing I really did not like, was that I had left music on this time and I found that it grounded me somewhat. Something I definatly did not want.
I came out of it calm and I dunno a bit angry as well. Don't know what the anger was about, but it contracted quite strongly with the aftermath calm I had come to expect.
I waited about half an hour and brewed up a dose of the Syrian Rue Seed. Left it to brew for another half hour and then drunk that down. It was a really nice hit all on its own. Like a soft opium effect. Calm, quite lucid, dreamy. I gave the Syrian Rue half an hour to do it's thing then went back for a second hit of DMT.
By the second blast of the pipe I knew this was big time and quickly took a third blast while I still could and then it was off and away.
I felt like I had been hit by reverse gravity, blasted upwards through the roof hit a ceiling somewhere that was as hard as hitting the ground.
I could see internal and external images at the same time, like I staring up at a beautiful night sky and it just filled with this massive elf face that coalesced down to a point from infinite to right in front of me, yet still filled my whole vision. When I say vision I mean the internal image that was overlapping with the external. Like having one eye shut.
And as this elf/entity formed up close in front of me he (definitaly a male form), said, "Your in our world now."
I totally shat myself in a distant , this is not happening to me, ohmygodohmygod, kind of way. I was flashing through time, talking to my mother, the guy I had seen earlier that evening all sorts. My body awareness was incredibly intense and I was suddenly an old man, looking at my wrinkled old hand. And then I died. I was that old man lying on his bed, just slipping away. I kinda panicked a bit and then puck boy was back pulling me away from that and showing me something else. I reckon this had maybe been 5 minutes and I had already been in there for eternity.
Not sure what then, time drifts, thought form idea's, being shown stuff.
I hit another panic, some idea too far out for me to grasp, being seen by others and getting there panic, not sure. I think puck elf was pranking me again. This fabulous female elf shooed him away and calmed me down by having sex with me. In my head when I try to visualise her I see an atomic pattern like chemistry atom strings all made up of fantastic resonating purples and oranges, buzzy and suggestive. On top of that mixed with that part of that, is like a erotic harlequin from Invisibles. All flouncing frills, cleavage and a mask that is really a face, all promise and wet red lips. And that was eternity. I felt like I was being fucked physically and in my head, I could feel sensations on/in both at once. Like being seduced by an invisible telepathic ghost.
At the same time I knew she was just a representation of something else, and they were trading/taking my sex experience thoughts, "We are going to give you this experience but the cost is that we take copies of your representation of the experience.
Another long bit, felt like sleep, dreaming and I'm looking around straight again, thinking that must have been hours how long was I out for. I had written the time down just before I took the pipe and and left a watch beside me, scrabbling for it I checked the time. It had been fifteen minutes !
I just lay back on the couch, couldn't think about the time and then the most amazing thing happened. Something that I have had a deep emotional block about for a long long time just came loose. I was lying there feeling it melt away, like a gallstone evaporating. Open heart surgery, psychic healing, metamorphasis. I was stunned and raptured all at once. And it's gone a big black bit of my past has just unblocked itself and passed out of me.
I lay there feeling like I was in the womb, relaxed and soothed, they were all still there, the elves, soothing me, tending me, helping me through the passage. I cried a bit and it was ok (I really find it hard to cry, which I think was linked to the thing that shifted), it was like being in the womb. From there I just drifted into sleep.
To say I am blown away is putting it too lightly.
DogStar |
