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I remember the world broken in to two parts, one without colour - a grey, cloth-capped demonic Totalitarian/Communism - and the other a fragile bickering riot of life and Social Democracy/Capitalism.
I remember wondering where the nearest bomb shelter to my home was, and whether it would work to go down into the subway like they did in the Blitz.
I remember the book 'The Big One' a savagely funny anti-nukes collection which chilled me to the bone, and still does.
I remember the near-misses caused by glitches in the Doomsday machines: flock of geese crosses the radar defenses at the wrong altitude, bombers are scrambled, forty minutes to total committal. Fortunately, someone always spotted the mistake in time. Just.
I rememeber knowing that the Soviet Military Machine could crush Europe in days.
I remember having it explained what the fallout shelter in the basement was for (all Swiss houses built after a certain date had fallout shelters by law - perhaps they still do).
I remember 'Just waiting for the hammer to fall', and the knowledge that we were capable of extinguishing life from the surface of the planet.
I remember writing (and to some extent I still believe it) that from August 6th 1945, the first duty of every government in the world was to prevent recurrence.
That was M.A.D..
But the Cold War...that was another thing again. Lifeless, existential espionage, grey men killing, rain and raincoats. Georgi Markov, radio broadcaster, murdered with a fucking actual poisoned umbrella in London, for speaking his mind. I met the guy who fixed it, years later. He was still laughing. 'We are not innocents,' he said. Blair's government used the same phrase just the other day.
The Cold War was fear and despair and mistrust and the lesser of evils and the myth that the end justifies the means and that there are some things which just have to be done, however immoral the may seem, to safeguard morality in general, and secure freedom.
And it was the lie that no one was enjoying the power.
God, I'm going to shut up. I could just go on forever. |
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