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(I was willing to left the second version of this thread as it was, so I am injecting this with the following)
There was a woman in my life, well, there still is, who we will call "M" (but not from Mary, please), being the relation with her what I wish to subject to the Distinguished Board of Magi at Barbelith, within this topic of synchronicities. The magi will excuse the sometimes overtly fatuous literary style in the lines that follow, while bearing in mind that he who writes also abhors it, and is always striving to favor a more conversational one.
Simply put, M and I met 12 years ago right at the start of our careers, and although we were unable to develop any, just about any kind of consistent relationship at all -be it as friends, colleagues, lovers, fellows, neighbors, whatever-, the whole thing was plagued with powerful, unsettling, and to myself enigmatic and very suggestive synchronistic occurrences, but suggestive of what I am afraid still remains to be explored. There were also two distinct occasions that could be categorized as fairly telekinetic experiences, and telekinetic being a term I despise anyway.
The first time I saw her, I immediately became mildly entranced by the teasing fact that I couldn't make up if I was actually recognizing her amidst other unknown students, while I felt sort of a pang in my being that was at the same time pleasurable and promissory of something not formulated, neither erotic nor romantic, a pang with which I was not yet familiar at all, and which eventually turned out to be a herald of what was to come. And "What Was to Come" was a profuse concoction made of dreams, and actually too many dreams I am afraid, all portraying intense and vivid approaches to each other, distinguished by strikingly heightened sensory perceptions, there were also "random" encounters during waking life, some of them freakingly parallel to experiences in dreams, weird phone calls, intruding thoughts announcing her verifiable physical proximity, more intruding thoughts announcing her unverifiable proximity, mis-encounters, things said, things unsaid, and so forth.
The above written, it suffices to add that at some point in spacetime, while I was emotionally exasperated by the fact that any term of consistent mundane relation appeared to be incapable of evolving, I seemed to have gotten a grip on the synchronistic pattern gauge, and was able to reduce its sterile intrusions to minor and insignificant blurbs of experience. Of course, by this time I had been literally thrown to what would become my full magickal life, and I was also able to take responsibility of other aspects of experience.
Now, the questions for which I would like to have your thoughts are, Are these synchronicities constitutionally prefigured, sort of an existing predisposition between individuals, or do individuals actually fuel them with their desires and obssessions, or are they a combination of both? What do you think?
What could be magickally derived of such synchronistic patterns occuring between two individuals, and how do you think it could be explored?
Is there any model you find comfortable with for explaining synchronicities like these, be it magickal, genetic, psychical, physical, matematical, pheromonical, extraterrestrial, or whatever? |
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