I am having this rather annoying problem.
Whenever I start writing, be it fiction, filmscripts or discuusionboard posts, I get horribly held up. Usually by, what i think, people expect from meor by fear of writing something stupid/unrelevant, my moods and lots of other thing, mostly unconscius, but noticable.
I feel like there is a whole tank of creativity and good ideas stuck somewhere in my brain, but it cant get outm because it gets filtered thorugh and deformed by my how-to-call-it, possibly insecurities.
I know that tank is there, because I have bright moments, when i am actually able to acces it, like f.e. when I worked myself into a frenzy, on the comedown/calmdown of a mushroom trick, when I use devices to trick myself or when i write for people I feel intelectually superior to anyway.
Then I write stuff, where I know in that same moment I do it, "yes, this is good, oh yes"
I reguralrly write a diary, a weblog and a piece of webfiction and they are all written completly different! As in style, depth, originality, anything. But its beyond my control. And it really really annoys me. Really.
I think the way to go around it, is to tap into your creative pool and letting it flow out, using you conscious mind only to steer it into the direction you want, but how do I stop it from stopping me? Anyone know a way? |
