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You know, life sometimes is so fuckingfucking unfair, whyfuck can't I get a fucking rest, just sometimes, huh?
You know what? I have just received this from Laila:
"Well hello there,
I worry a little about you, please tell me you are well.
What can I say, I am a bit fed up with people in general and Holland, Bendt every day, I read in the news papers, new plans to take away absolute freedom of the Dutch people, and yet these rightfully called cows, do not see or notice a dam thing. They want to force the women to go to work when they have children, they want to make it a law, they want to stop social welfare, they are going to stop the 5 day working weeks contracts into working when you are needed, so this means that they want the people to be open workers, who only will make money when the boss needs them, meaning much less money to live of, since the euro every thing has doubled in price. People are starting to complain out in the streets that they can not get by anymore, every thing has become so expensive.
Then this food thing, they are fucking major with our fresh foods, they have this new law, unspoken of and not known by the people, we do not have raw meats anymore in the stores, its all been frozen and prepared in some ways, I noticed it, the cats do not like the meat to much anymore, the meat does not contain the much needed blood for the cats, they are carnivores, remember, the blood of the prey is like some medicine shot. They are fucking with the eggs as well, its now forbidden for restaurants to serve soft boiled eggs, and they are talking about making it a law for the supermarkets, to sell boiled eggs, they say that we buy boiled eggs during eastern so why not the whole year? Now fruits, its horrible, the bananas are being washed in a chemical substance that prevents the yeast of the banana to turn into sugars, meaning they are preventing the bananas to become ripe. Then in England they are saying that they want to forbid certain tropical fruits from getting in. they have stopped the bananas from getting in England and the people are pretty angry, for many cultures bananas are a very important part of their menu. Holland is saying now as well that it wants to raise the import tax on especially tropical fruits. And sharpen the laws on importing tropical foods as well. The US is saying that they are afraid that salmonella might come into the country from tropical fruits, so they want to prevent that from happening, so they are sharpening the laws as well. Then about Brazil, and Brazil nuts, they have stop the flow of brazil nuts from coming into Holland or anywhere else for that matter, since almost 2 years now. I asked and asked and nobody could give me an answer.
[And then personal stuff]
I am at a stage where I am asking what the fuck happened to me in 2000? I know it was real hell, my friend to proof that it was real and all the people out in the street, BUT BUT BUT, why? Do you understand, I am sick of seeing sick people, I am sick of knowing what they feel, I get sick when I smell their sick body odors, or when I hear them whine and not knowing nor remembering a dam thing, that makes me sick and I am getting a headache.
I am starting to ask myself what did happen? Who where these people I heard talking about me? And why me? Bendt I have been looking and every time somebody cam close to what I know I mailed them, but non of them have come close to what I have experienced, and I really wonder, what the fuck did happen?
I think that they guy I kissed was used to set me up, that he put some trip in my desert where I took one bite from, you know that sounds like snow white and her stepmother, the apple, it took only one bite, anyway, do you understand?
You know there is something you do not know and I have only been starting to question it lately myself.
I have a scar on my forehead and I have this thing since I can remember, I thought I got it because I had some fight with my brother during a play, but it turns out he has a different memory for he has one on his forehead as well, we both have different memories of how we got it and the weird part is that my mother does not have a memory regarding our scars on our foreheads, I have told you that my brother is a visual psychic? He can bring whole scenes and faces from events and people right in front of them, he can talk to you and gues what you are wearing, isn’t that cool? Anyway I am starting to think that we might be one of these kids that they did something to isn’t that weird?
What do you say?"
First of all, I say bullfuckingshit.
You know, she has a tendency to forget all that she has been saying after her "trip," and only a handful of these have made their way here, and she has been right on all of the things she said would happen.
We have a report - I believe psychic - where we know how the other is and how the other feels. I knew she was feeling shit, I knew she was doubting herself, but I had no way to confirm it from her because I was staying away from all contact because of what happened with the military chopper and the military man verbally abusing her; and when I received a letter from the police, which was delivered personally in Denmark, I thought it was for the best not to see and not to contact her until I was safely back. Needless to say, I went through a bizarre happenstance at the airport.
But she will be fine, this much I know.
And, aww, I have also just received a letter from Torben, wherein he says he misses me.
What a bizarre fucking day. |
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