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The Abyss

 
 
chris_judge
19:35 / 24.04.14
Most practitioners know this sensation, and this place. Crossing the abyss.

Things go well and then: falling through darkness, nurtured then dropped by something capricious. Nothing works anymore and the light goes out.

Eventually, hopefully it ends.

But how many are there? Has anyone else had the experience of having to cross that great divide more than once? 3 times? 10?
 
 
jgbell
23:47 / 26.04.14
When someone talks about "crossing the abyss" I generally assume they are talking specifically about a particular experience of traveling up the Tree of Life, explored quite a bit in many places, not the least of which is a very accessible presentation in Alan Moore's Promethea. I'm not sure I've heard people talk about having that experience multiple times, especially people who seem to have legitimately experienced it once.

However, more generally, there are certainly other experiences which I personally would not equate with "crossing the abyss" but rather of a repeatable "dark night of the soul" or, as I often recall to mind, the descriptive language of Robert Anton Wilson when talking about entering Chapel Perilous.

“Everything you fear is waiting for you with slavering jaws in Chapel Perilous, but if you are armed with the wand of intuition, the cup of sympathy, the sword of reason and the pentacle of valor, you will find there (the legends say) the Medicine of Metals, the Elixir of Life, the Philosopher's Stone, True Wisdom and Perfect Happiness.” (Wilson in Cosmic Trigger, 1989, 6)

Personally, in my own experiences with depression, I have also used the metaphor of the labyrinth to describe those times when I've been lost in a seemingly endless journey in the dark of myself, and have experienced this multiple times. I've come to see these times as a kind of gift; a time of contemplation, and perhaps in a strange way of personal growth.

One way I've come to approach these times is that there is a gift available within the chapel or the labyrinth, one might call these gifts the figurative elemental weapons or perhaps something else, but that the experience is a chance to discover these tools, to recover them in the liminal spaces of the self and return to the world changed and perhaps with the ability to change the world.
 
 
chris_judge
18:41 / 29.04.14
That's a good reminder. I thank you.

I think that there are occasions where the abyss has to be traversed more than once. If every 'idea' has a tree then every idea has an abyss where the noumenal must be parsed out for further development. This is how I've always understood the phrasing.

The "gran mal" abyss, if you will, is the one just prior to becoming Magister Templi. But does this mean that every tangle with Choronzon propels the initiate in this direction? Is is possible to face him without being in the midst of the abyss?
 
 
Aribus
17:59 / 02.05.14
I've Beene thinking a lot about those post above the last few days. Very inspiring thoughts from both of you. I have always thought of the abyss as to the death of the ego. You leave your ego as you cross the abyss, or the abyss itself is your ego and it wants to drag you down. And you reach the other end as cleansed or a new whole.
So. I might be wrong here to ask this, if I had it all down wrong,
Is there a way to navigate oneself through these dark waters, or should one just accept what comes and goes? If the shore on the other side is the whole without the ego, as to say.
 
 
jgbell
21:47 / 02.05.14
chris_judge: "But does this mean that every tangle with Choronzon propels the initiate in this direction? Is is possible to face him without being in the midst of the abyss?"

Personally, I think each person's path is their own. There certainly are likely to be useful similarities such that one can learn from others, but there is bound to be some unique personality involved to the experience for each person, I would venture.

Anyhow, I think one can use such terms and ideas as metaphors (since most everything already is metaphor), and thus can be suitable to many purposes. But, being clear that one is being metaphorical might help avoid confusion with the specific experience. Or, not. Maybe … I'm all for metaphor but also try to keep precise terms for when I need precision. Try to, anyway.

Aribus: "Is there a way to navigate oneself through these dark waters, or should one just accept what comes and goes? If the shore on the other side is the whole without the ego, as to say."

To be brief, I would imagine that one can try to prepare oneself in many ways for such a thing, but I can imagine that it is the work of preparing, ultimately, that might make one more resilient than any specific preparations one might prejudge are needed. Becoming comfortable with being uncomfortable is one way I've tended to think of such things. I guess, without necessarily knowing or speaking for anyone, including myself: one traditional way of being prepared for such an experience is to undergo initiation and to have a serious magical practice. Have the foundation and the skills necessary so that … well, what? So you can throw them out or have them undergo a revolution, perhaps, when the time it right!

Or, not. Maybe …

 

As an aside, I was just recently reminded by a review of Aleister Crowley's Book of Lies by T Polyphilus that Liber 333 is related to this topic, crossing the Abyss, being a Babe in the Abyss and encountering Choronzon. So, you might want to gander at that while we're talking about it.
 
 
Aribus
19:25 / 03.05.14
Once again - valuable insight. Twice again - very inspiring post.
It all adds. At the right time.
 
 
chris_judge
18:23 / 09.05.14
I find that good as well.

I'd add that a rigorous magical practice prepares the nervous system and the brain by creating a space where one can achieve comfort with willful change to the synaptic structure.

By creating the changes yourself, or becoming initiated (which usually requires a long pre-drome process that results in the fertile ground for a sudden and rapid nervous system change or realignment) you've accepted agency, you have agency. The resulting discomfort caused by the change is therefore, in some way, seen as your own fault. You can take responsibility for it.

After many of these types of experiences you become more conditioned to accept change with greater comfort even if it comes from a place outside of yourself.

Choronzon acts as a sort of external eidolon for the process, the place you push all the bits of yourself that you would see devoured while crossing the abyss.
 
 
Aribus
20:46 / 16.05.14
I've been comming back to this thread a lot the last couple if days. It resonates.
chris_judge last post have been on my mind in a way that I feel I have to follow.
I know about the aethyrs and the ladder, but just in a very shallow note. Any tips, ideas or pointers on how to set up inition that works "single-handed", without any others?

Would be really grateful for any insight on this.
 
 
illmatic
21:13 / 24.05.14
You guys should go this site if you actually want to understand what The Abyss might mean - http://coronzon.com/dps/
 
 
Amitoid
08:21 / 23.06.14
Thinking of the times I went through this: multiple, sustained, a combo of the Dark Night of the Soul & crossing the Abyss.
The Yi Jing was my tool throughout & it frequently brought up #29 Double K'an: the uncontained deep. Both trigrams are the abyss, deep water.
So, repeated Kan: multiple perils, or learning from unavoidable danger. Not until way later I found answers. In the meantime it seems to ask that we keep our nerve until it's contained. Looking back it was the time of danger and testing, which now I can see was an initiation in itself.
 
 
chariot13
04:53 / 12.07.14
one of the best approaches to begin with is to have a yin approach. this is the feminine aspect of yin and yang. no strict form, light control, going with the flow, seeing coincidences as possible hints towards choosing direction, etc. ill give you a good analogy: in yoga any and all positions you can possible think of are already mapped out as being a posture. you can start without knowing any postures and do what FEELS right, as long as youre careful. this is analogous to how to approach life in an "abyss"-like time period.

now that i am personally out of the abyss, or otherwise known as "dark night of the soul", i can assure you that i am able to powerfully take charge of my life, and you will be able to as well. like when a river forms, water will find the lowest places to flow through, and eventually it will become a deep riverbed with powerful currents.
 
 
Robert B
14:15 / 26.07.14
I want to thank chris_judge for the above post at 21.23. Exactly what I needed to read, at this exact moment. So... thanks!
 
  
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