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Sinister intent for 2008

 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
20:40 / 29.12.07
2008 promises a large shift from the internal self-reflecting navel-gazing to joining the greater group. Nice that Libra & Aquarius are playing their role for New Year's (that's personal love & humanitarian love). The Chinese New Year brings the Year of the Earth Rat (Yang).

First, I intend to use my left hand for many activities heretofore dominated by my right. I have begun writing with my left (not too shabby for a novice), cooking, trumpet playing, and so on. This is a test of patience, perseverence and will. Daily practice.


So, 2008 will see my trumpet practice joining other musicians (or those aspiring). Daily practice, plus regular group practice.

I may discover names for the small pantheon of deities/totems I have following me around, but so far, I only know 2, and one of them can't be spoken out loud.

My reformed world calendar is finished, so now I'm passing it out to anyone who's interested. The follow-up to it is a holistic system I hope to construct around it. This will go beyond 2008, but I'm hoping at least to have it started by year's end.

Aspire to use sygil work to create an English-based pictogram comparable to Chinese characters in hopes to bridge the distance towards a translation-script. I hope to use a Mandarin-English dictionary, an English & Etymological dictionary. I have some familiarity with Japanese, which uses Chinese characters, as well as 3 phonetic systems. Daily or Weekly practice.

Take up Muay Thai (that's Thai Kickboxing), which I find inspiring for: More dancing. Lots and lots more. I haven't gone out to shake my booty in over 2 years (long story). Daily or Weekly practice.

This year sees a progression from working on/for oneself to working with/for the group for me. Anyone else got tricks up their sleeves?
 
 
EmberLeo
02:48 / 30.12.07
I think last year's to-do list was very helpful to me, so if you will allow...

This year's To-Do list:

Formal Schooling: I absolutely must get into a Bachelors program. If I can find a way to afford Religious Studies, I will be very very happy, but I will be okay with Psychology as well, given that my ultimate goal is a Masters in Counseling Psych.

Clergy Training: I need to continue my clergy training at a reasonable pace. This means checking in with my mentor as soon as possible about which ritual and educational requirements I still must satisfy, and getting off my ass on that Vanatru report. I know I want to perform at least one Liturgy of the Crone, and one Liturgy of the Lord and Lady for Freyr and Freya.

Vanic Conspiracy: Monthly rituals - not just interesting discussion topics, but actual rituals for the Vanic group I run are my responsibility. I want them to be worthwhile, and I need to get more creative without getting inappropriately formal.

Personal Spirituality: I've got a sort of initiation coming up - it's very important to me, but I have almost no control over it (which is intentional). My goal there is to be patient and accepting without letting myself detach or become apathetic.

Emotional Health: Patience in general is a major goal this year.

Physical Health: I still need to take better care of my body.

Life Skills: I need a job that allows me to feed both my mouth and my soul. I want to be at least not dependent on my Primary by the end of the year, and preferably even paying him some rent.

Bardic Skills: And I need to continue to work on my musical skills. Perhaps I should set some sort of goal to write one song a month and work on one poem a week, or something?

--Ember--
 
 
Olulabelle
07:37 / 30.12.07
Squib, I'm confused about why this thread is called 'Sinister Intent', and if that relates to your wish to start to using your left hand more. Are the two things related? Are you using the word sinister just to suggest an opposite, (in which case what is the current mode that you are proposing an opposite of?) and is the left-handed thing a co-incidence, or are you using the word sinister to mean suggesting evil by reason of being left-handed, and if so, could you perhaps explain why?
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
09:33 / 30.12.07
the thread for 2007 was called "Cunning Plans for 2007," so I felt another adjective was in order, decided that "Sinister" was kind of amusing, particularly considering my endeavour to work on the left...

any other meaning is strictly incidental to my intention.
 
 
EmberLeo
19:32 / 30.12.07
Ohh... Sinister... heh! I thought Squib was just being facetious.

--Ember--
 
 
Princess
20:22 / 30.12.07
I'm going to write a lot more. Not to get published, not to feel clever, not so I've got proof of just how very self-aware I am.

I'm going to write just because it is beautiful, and because it is a good exercise in authenticity, awareness and interaction.

Oh, and I'm going to try and go to the gym more often. So I look good naked.

And I'm going to dance, in the street, just because it's fun.
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
22:59 / 30.12.07
it's also the year of the Earth Rat, and they're somewhat sinister around the edges.
 
 
Talas
03:49 / 31.12.07
I've been re-reading everyone's 2007 lists and have been fascinated by the year-end reports, so here's my resolutions for 2008. Here's to a little accountability:

Physically: I'm healthier now than I was several years ago, but I'm still not satisfied with my current abilities. Therefore, I'm going to look to continue eating better -- more vegetables, less meat (within reason; I'm not going back to vegetarianism), and now that we can afford it, more organic goods -- and drinking more water with the goals of losing weight and increasing stamina and strength. Though I'd love to go back to playing rugby, my joints disagree, therefore I'll look for a tai chi class by the summer, if time and finances permit.

Literarily: I plan to finish my reprint of the Bosworth-Toller Anglo-Saxon Dictionary and finish my poetry chapbook, which has been mostly compiled already. I also want to get over the I AM NOT WORTHY!! impulse that flares every time I work on the chapbook.

Religiously: I plan to (continue to) develop my relationships with my gods, most specifically Hela, Sigyn, Angrboda, Loki, Sif, Thor, Tyr and Ullr. I also should start really giving my due to the Vanir, because... yeah. I haven't been, really, and they're awesome too. Weekly practice here at a minimum. I also plan to jumpstart my relationship with the wights here, because while I've been casually (half-assedly) doing my thing with the city wight, the West Ed Mall wight and the local wights here and there, I seriously need to work on this. To back up the work I've already done and continue to motivate me, I'm going to look at compiling a devotional to be wrapped up within 2008. My last assignment was rune study, which will wrap up round one in March and begin round two shortly thereafter.

Employment...ly: I plan to learn to effectively multitask The Work with employment for money, once my work visa finally gets approved by the government. This is especially important because it was heavily hinted by People that the reason I failed to renew my work visa before (which should've been a cakewalk) was because I couldn't do Their stuff and cook for money at the same time.

Emotionally: I'm going to try to get back to the place where I don't get frustrated or disappointed with people again. I don't know what changed in the last year or so, but I started expecting too much from the people around me and then I started feeling disappointed when they weren't as bold, adventurous, clever and opportunistic as I hoped. I'd rather be at a place of no expectations than a place of constant disappointment.
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
22:07 / 02.01.08
addendum to above sinister suggestions:

instead of straight up English-Mandarin sygil making, I think I may use musical notation as an underlying structure by which to pace the vowels (AUM) and the interrupting consonents.
 
 
Make me Uncomfortable
06:25 / 04.01.08
My thoughts are straying towards setting up a structure of eras and tasks in which I can motivate myself to do more. Sort of a game to play with myself, but broader.

I've found that I respond best to outside stimulus- motivating myself intrinsically doesn't seem to work, but if I can externalize motivation in any way, it does the job nicely.

Beyond that, I intend to continue /return to my practice, and to graduate from my college.
 
 
grant
13:35 / 04.01.08
Very interested in the idea of English pictograms - but I'm also interested in the way our letters were based on pictures ("A" was a bull, now upside-down).
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
18:33 / 04.01.08
Hey Grant,

I was planning on visiting the origins of the alphabet (or varieties of them), hieroglyphs, hebrew letters and so on, in the course of this project (can't really say what it's about, other than I feel compelled).

Having read "Decline of the West" by Oswald Spengler, I got the notion that astronomy + astrology + mathematics = basis for religion/belief, language and civilisation/culture. Much more to investigate, but I'm thinking that magical traditions seem to fit in the intersection of the above.

also fitting "AUM" as the combination of all the possible vowels sounds with consonants as stoccato interruption.
 
 
Less searchable M0rd4nt
07:06 / 27.01.08
Beads. Lots and lots of beading. Necklaces, bracelets, bracteates, prayer-beads, you name it. Especially prayer-beads.
 
 
nyarlathotep's shoe horn
15:52 / 27.01.08
beads??? no kidding. I've been curious about learning to make wampum - the beaded belts of people from the Great Lakes & the Eastern Forests of North America.

from what little I've gathered about them, the beads were arranged in such a way that the wampum was used in part as a means of communication - not simply as an aesthetic device.

have fun beading!!!
 
 
Talas
17:35 / 27.01.08
I've been beading a lot again too, after nearly six months of disinterest.
 
  
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