I don't know where else to turn for this, but over the years I have had experiences which really bungle me up. I don't ever consider myself psychic, but I do have what I am simply going to refer to as certain feelings or a strong intuition about circumstances or people. I especially get these feelings about my good friends, my child or family, and intimate partners (that I have had in the past). Now, I am not claiming any special powers, I think lots of people very well have these feelings, then again, some people don't care to pay attention to them. I do, as I think others here do as well.
Sometimes these feelings get very strong and can dominate my senses. This is where sometimes my "intuition" and my daily perception get their wires crossed. Some examples would be:
*Feeling the anguish or sometimes the joy of (especially the bad stuff though) of some loved one and being engaged in their experience instead of the one I am actually, physically in.
-This is bad for all sorts of reasons. It is probably best that I don't drive because I usually find myself switching between having my head in my hands and holding my gut feeling some very intense emotions that have very little to do with my immediate situation.
*Seeing the events play out to their completion. This isn't hard. Most people do this more or less. I think a lot of people may have the good sense to think of something else before they see their friends moving away, getting into a car accident, making a bad business decision, or getting ill.
-Some of the other difficulty I have is when I try and warn people. This is almost always a mistake. Either they end up blaming me for it, or they manage to take heed and avoid the problem and then say to me, "See, you were wrong!", which, quite honestly is probably the better outcome.
-However, there is another, personal side-effect to this where I become very despondent. It is like I have read the script, why do I need to act out the part? It can, and has, developed into serious depression.
Really, it doesn't take a bloody genius or psychic to figure out what happens in the end...we all bloody well die! That's what! So, the flipside to that is there have been times when I have sought out dangerous situations to try and add a little bit twist and inpredictability to life.
There can be some physical sensations that go along with these intuitions such as glazing over slightly and not being about to focus on, and sometimes not even hear what is going on around me. Sometimes a sensation like I am falling, where I might actually lose my balance, even fall. It could be accompanied with a sick feeling in my stomach, or a ringing in my ears, an inability to control my eyeballs, or the feeling that "my life force" is seeping out of my fingers or feet.
So, my intuition tells me that there are other people who may relate to some or all of this. I am curious about how others deal with intuition and premonition in relations to daily life. I have developed meditations that do help me, but I am always looking for different ways to do trick my mind back in it's place. How do others experience these intuitions? Are they overpowering sometimes and cause an inability to deal with the immediate? If so, how do you recover? If you have found a handy way to deal with them it would be great if you could share that. What clues can one look for to separate the sensations from the physical and immediate experience? When is a good time to share these feelings with others, if ever?
So, that is all for now. I hope this thread will be of benefit to others as well as myself. |
