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The Consciousness of the Sun

  
 
Unconditional Love
11:23 / 01.04.07
I was on a bus, just outside ASDA, the bus driver had parked up to eat his lunch. So i had been burning for several days, i have been doing Sekhmet meditations and solar plexus meditations with some physical pressure applied to the solar plexus to act as a point of focus.

The bus must of stopped for about 20 minutes, i have been being bombarded with voices for about the last 2 weeks but then i am currently keeping a practice of devotions to 7 neter, 1 a day, so i was kind of expecting this kind of thing as my practice has built since the new year.

The voices register with an oh crap am i getting ill again but, it doesnt seem so, just alot of attention, because i am asking alot, things have been moving in all the right directions i am starting work designing training to promote positive mental health and wellness for a firm solely run by survivours of the mental health system. So things are all go for me very soon.

But anyhow back to the sun, in the 20 minutes at the bus stop i had a conversation with the sun, a male voice which doesnt add up to sekhmet but does fit in with my multi gendered approach to Amen Ra, basically the Sun described to me how he creates both forms and formlessness, how light or fire both consumes and reveals, why enlightenment is all consuming like a flame. I sat listening with not much else to do but stare and enter what i can only describe as an intense trance, i literally felt on fire, the male voice was warm and friendly but with an underlaying fierceness.

It then explained the error of clinging to forms (and started to sound buddhist) it gave an overview of its planets and the consciousness that they create in and of themselves and also those that seek the emptiness of space, turning there back from the warmth of the light, proclaiming that eventually the sun would consume everything in flame in enlightenment.

The intensity of the heat in me began to create a tension in me, but a relaxed tension, similar to the feeling of a hard workout of kung fu or maintaining an unbalanced posture for some period of time, by this time i am sat very bolt upright in my seat with a very fixed expression i imagine.

Well eventually the bus started up again and i came back to myself and decided to find cheats to a PC game, but since then my mind has been even more hectic in the vocalisation department, thankfully sorting more past occurences into a better order.

So is it just me that listens to the Sun in buses or is it you too, what does the sun say to you.
 
 
Mako is a hungry fish
16:57 / 07.04.07
It spoke to me too and I find it hard to speak of the experience due to the mind-fuckiness of the whole event, and also the inability to do it justice; I'd describe its voice as being male, slow and ponderous, massively heavy but not loud, without the ability to be questioned or agreed with as doing either would imply that I had the force to resist it or affect it in any way, though it was nice enough not to impose this fact upon me.

Basically it spoke of the nature of light and how it and the black sun are the same thing, and the difference is only in the eyes of the viewer. There are some other things that were spoken of as well, however I can't be sure if they happened then or are due to my familiarities with the Bardon version of the Greek four element theory; I spoke to Mercury, Venus, and Earth as well, and all in all it was rather nifty.

I question if I was actually speaking to the Sun, or the element of fire, or if it was my subconscious putting multiple peices of magic together and then showing me the completed jigsaw in a daydream with dopamine.
 
 
Sibelian 2.0
21:14 / 10.04.07
Yeah, I think I've had something or someone similar.

My head was full of people at the time, basically I'd flung open the doors wide and let anything come in and take root. There were too many of them. They were yammering and arguing with each other and giving me contradictory instructions and advice and using my head as playground, shouting and causing bad dreams and making me late for work and take too many cigarette breaks.

So, a work colleague finally lost her rag with me, shouted at me about how crap I was being (she was absolutely right, I was being REALLY crap at that point in my life) and I said sorry and went hom that night feeling VERY chastised.

And he appeared that night while i was in bed, completely unannounced and uninvited. He didn't say anything, he just let rip with solar energy, filling me with light and heat. Whenever one of the other people would try and get up and talk he just blasted them to smithereens before they could say anything, and he let me watch. Some of them came back several times but none of them got to say a single thing.

It was really really intense, I wasn't thinking any thoughts at all, my whole head was this essentially empty vessel being filled with healing, erasing light. I felt like a lizard basking on a rock. It felt lovely, warm and safe and simple and hot and mind-bogglingly fierce and powerful and destructive at the same time. There was no point in resisting it at all. The main thing that hit me was the total absence of language, this was NOT a dialogue, there was no option whatsoever but accept this recalibrating.

I have no idea how long it went on for. About 4 hours, it felt like. I can't remember when I started thinking again or what it was I started thinking about.

But anyway, after that, none of my head-pests were any where near as scary as they had been before ever again.
 
 
Mako is a hungry fish
11:20 / 11.04.07
My head was full of people at the time, basically I'd flung open the doors wide and let anything come in and take root.

That's kind of what occured with me, save it was more revelations of a psychic/physics nature such as how half the moon is in light and half is in darkness yet contains no life, however earth has equal light and darkness and is abundant in life; basically my mind went into overdrive and whilst it was amusing, it also became annoying.

Also, your feeling chastised is similar to my experience in that once it became annoying, I wanted it to end; at that point the Sun came and said hello and said its peice, helping to consolidate a great deal of things that had come before.
 
 
Sunfell
17:14 / 19.04.07
Thy rising [is] beautiful in the horizon of heaven,
O Aten, ordainer of life.
Thou dost shoot up in the horizon of the East,
thou fillest every land with thy beneficence.
Thou art beautiful and great and sparkling,
and exalted above every land...

--Hymn to Aten

The Sun has played a large part in my own life. I've never discussed my own relationship with it before, because who the heck would believe that this star (and all stars of a certian age) is a sentinent being?

What has the Sun taught me? Lots of stuff, but most important: We are all potential Sun-Seeds. Kephera is a symbol of this Be-coming. (You wallow in a lot of shit before you can fly...)

Interesting: the descriptions of the voice are identical to my own experience: Deep, slow, perhaps a bit ponderous, as someone Ancient of Days and Great with Wisdom would be, but also approachable.

Anyone here ever have the experience of the 'sun in the head' after reading or learning something that advances your understanding? It's like there's a light on in the middle of my skull, or sometimes to one side. It lasts about 5-10 minutes, then fades away?

And is anyone else sensitive to the solar weather? I always feel a little 'off' when the Sun is throwing off CMEs.
 
  
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