Oooer, I’ve decided to give up drinking for good.
I’ve long felt that I have a problem with alcohol, the biggest problem being that my drinking habits have never been quite problematic enough. I’ve had many embarrassing episodes, I’ve behaved like an arsehole on many occasions, but on the whole I’ve never been embarrassing or arseholish consistently or enough for me to easily label myself as, say, someone who definitely shouldn’t be allowed near the demon booze, and I’ve never been dependent enough on alcohol, or given to totally horrific binges for me to commit to serious sounding terms like “alcoholic”. The upshot has been that it’s taken me a very long time indeed to get to where I am now: absolutely sick and tired of getting too drunk for my own good, and determined not to expose my son to my bad habits. I’ve proven time and time again that I find it extremely difficult to drink in moderation, and that simply isn’t good enough.
So, yeah, it’s going to be hard, but almost certainly not as hard as it likely is for those with a more catastrophic addiction, and it looks as if my friends and family are going to be very supportive, so that’s good.
Wish me luck, Barbelith. |