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Ah, any offence upon the wonderful people of the Temple was accidental. Though I'm trying to convince him, I don't believe it to be the case. It's just, I wish I'd never found out about magic. It just opened up a whole new world of things to get neurotic about. It doesn't, on the whole, seem to increase my happiness.
As far as I can see, my little brother is using magic the same way I did, as a distraction from the real problems in his life. When I managed to work through some of my adolescent angst I realised that I was using magic in a particularly deluded and self destructive way. There are times when I still wonder if that's what I'm doing now. But the point is, even after I'd moved through some of the causes, the symptom remained. I'm still a witch. I can't undo the thinking which went into the process of (eurgh, can't think of better word) bewitchment. And, because of the way I taught myself to think, I'm not sure if I should anyway. Since getting involved with these things life's been nothing but a constant crises of faith where nothing ever seems secure.
If my brother is going to get into this scene then he'll get into it anyway. If he's not then all I'm doing is wardnig him away from something that he'd find as addictive and maladaptive as I did.
Perhaps my specific wording was a bit off up-thread. Apologies, I'm a horrible mood today and it's causing random acts of foolishness. I don't think that all magic and magic users are fruit loops. I just think that an awful lot of "magical thinking" is sloppy, unhelpful and annoying. Whenever my little brother asks theory questions I tell him the truth and I give him the sceptics critique. I don't think I can be fairer than that. When he ask about personal experience I tell him nothing other than how ridiculous I was/am. I don't want to make magic seem glamourous to him. I want to point out that the communities involved in it are slightly worrying,(YMMV obviously, but outside of this lovely green place I've found very close to no intelligent discussion)that the risks involved can often vastly outweigh the benefits and that an "occult" view isn't nessascary to see the world as wonderful and mysterious.
Maybe that's not doing the magical community any favours and his experience would obviously idffer from mine but anything else would feel like pushing the syringe into his hands. |
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