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I was being a bit flippant, to be honest. I was just a trifle discombobulated, and waiting for a plumber!
I wouldn't say my relationship with Ganesha is anything like as involved as my relationships with emissaries from a totally different pantheon, but he gets a good look in when new t'ings a g'wan.
I was singing bhajans and kiirtan last Saturday at an absolutely beautiful devotional get together with a bunch of daimistas and others and we covered lots of ground for Kali and Shiva among others. Mum, and all that! A really excellent sound-healing with a frankly enormous gong and a load of singing bowls and chimes followed, which worked a treat.
This week was fantastic. A lot of the early year Darqueness which set in early February showed excellent signs of breaking cloud cover to let the Light flow back in, and then ZAP! This rather peachy job turns up on Wednesday. Hurray!
I spent this morning in serious altar devotional mode working with my Usual Suspects, then collected Ganesha who also accompanied me yesterday to an Oração. Damn, I even put him on the altar as a guest of honour. Flowers, incense and half an hour of singing (though not specifically for him, he was still visiting dignitary, like!)
Anyway, in spite of all this, I'm not attributing any of it to Him, actually. Bottom line is a washer in the water heater in the kitchen bust and the leak has been steadily progressing for two days. It had to find somewhere to go and it found it - Down, down, down. Unfortunately all over my gear. Sometimes, in fact, Often - Shit Happens.
But you know what? Am I freaking out? I am not. Am I angry? I am not. Am I even complaining? Erm, maybe I have, a bit, briefly, but not now. It all seems to me to be dialogue with Spirit. This is a view I am trying to cultivate consciousness of as permanently as possible. Non-attachment in the face of Just What I Need This Instant. Why be pissed off? It's a communication, there is no sense 'liking' this and 'disliking' that, in 'accepting' the feelgood stuff and 'rejecting' the pain. False dichotomoy in the knowledge of the Original Base, Grasshopper!
The point is more 'what is the lesson here' and 'how should I respond'. It reminds me of a Daoist story about the farmer who after a storm loses all his horses and his neighbour consoles him 'Oh Bad Luck!' He shrugs. Next day his horses return with a dozen wild fillies in tow, his neighbour is jealous 'What incredible good luck!' He just shrugs. Next day his son breaks his leg breaking in the horses, same neighbour 'Oh, what terrible luck!' A week later the Duke of the region declares war and all the young men are drafted to go to battle. Except Son with broken legs, of course. Neighbour curses 'You get all the luck!' Farmer shrugs. And on it goes. Yeah, well, you get the point. Who knows enough to attribute one way ot the other, this : Good; that : Bad...? Not me matey.
Funny enough, I have written a mantra which I recite in the mornings with a rather apposite section:
I am satisfied
Satisfied the Universe is unfolding exactly as it should, each moment a sublime manifestation of everpresent perfection within the eternal, evolving and convolving process of Change.
I am satisfied.
Satisfied that anything less than complete satisfaction with this eternal everpresent perfection is delusion, a clinging to attachments I abandon in this instant.
I am satisfied
Satified that the 'I' who is satisfied is a convenience of language, nothing more, temporary, illusory, ephemeral, and that satisfaction is all there ever was, is, or ever can be.
So maybe my integrity and sincerity in making these grandiose claims is being held up to the light...sounds like the sort of thing that occupies Powers to me. I mean, they must get bored occasionally, right?
Getting despondent or sore just doesn't make any sense at the moment. Sore about what? Ego's petty little nonsense desire to experience nothing but bliss, comfort and convenience all the time, its cunningly weaved tantalizing suggestion that this is 'the goal', and achievable if one can just [insert egoic process supporting and strengthening diversion here] .
Wakey Wakey!
I'm a daily reciter of ye olde Hawvlan lachma d'sunqanan yaomana, particularly when eating, so if I'm inviting Oneness to give me this day what I need in bread and insight, sustenance for the call of new life, and just enough for now this instant, no more no less, then how arrogant to jump up in a rage if what arrives is not what I expected or hoped for.
btw, thanks a lot to monk for hir efforts! Most appreciated.
Thanks to all respondents, anyway. I need something to pass the time while this mess dries out. Don't go! Stay and chat! |
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