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Monkey's Paw Jitters

Perfect Tommy

23:42 / 18.03.02

I'm finding that I'm reluctant to sigilize for anything because of the fear that they will manifest in the worst possible way. I.e., "It is my desire to quit smoking" will get me lung cancer and I'll quit 'cause the tracheotomy is getting in my way, "It is my will to luck into a financial windfall" will get me the insurance settlement for having my legs removed by a passing bus.

Is this normal and I should quit worrying? Or should I be placing safeguards somewhere to ensure my sigils are not as pessimistic as I am?

Rev. Wright

06:45 / 19.03.02

Don't worry, from my own experience you are having an 'intent' crisis. By this I mean that you are doubting your reasoning to attain goals, such as to stop smoking, and filling it full of nasty outcomes, due to this lack of self belief in your intent.
It took me some deleberation, meditation and discussion, but I have regularily turned inside to discover my true intent. I have discovered that the human condition is latently positive in intent, but its often obscured by so much crap.
Take some time to realign yourself with your intent. Make a conscious decision to explore that and I'm sure you will return a much more positive person.

does that make sense?

Less searchable M0rd4nt

06:45 / 19.03.02

Oh, boy, yet another case of the W.W. Jacobs Jitters.

Yeah, we all have those fears once in a while. However, I've never ever had anything like that happen to me and I'll wager that nobody else here has either.

The worst thing that's ever happened to me was that I sigilized for a job once and it was... (cue clap of thunder) a bit crap.

Re-Set

13:12 / 19.03.02

I can understand the reluctance, as I've found a little wavering in the purity of intent has a tendency to invoke the Universe's (often quite profound) sense of irony.

I say go ahead anyway. You might get more than you bargained for, but you'll never get more than you can handle.

The Monkey

15:26 / 19.03.02

Give me back my paw and everything will be a-okay. Capiche?

Tamayyurt

15:57 / 20.03.02

That story really fucks us magickians up! I hated it. It made me deathly afraid to blow my birthday candles out or even glance at a shooting star. But I shook myself out of it and yelled FUCK THE MONKEY'S PAW! Yeah everyone looked at me funny but it straightened my head out. Magick works by the simplest rout not the most wicked. Just remember it's your will doing this and honestly, would your will mess with you?

—| x |—

18:01 / 20.03.02

quote:Originally posted by impulsivelad:
Just remember it's your will doing this and honestly, would your will mess with you?

And now, the Devil's Advocate Cheerleaders.

[enter a pack of 15 luscious hotties, all she-males, little horns, pointy tails, PVC, leather, with dangling chain garments which could hardly be called "clothing" tight against red tinted skin, v. tall boots, etc. They assemble themselves into a "V" shape while chanting and all high kicks, shaking bodies and pompoms]

Give us a "T!" Give us an "H!" Give us an "E!"

[they assemble themselves into a pyramid--so you can get a good look at their perfect asses with G-string snuggled nice in cheeks--in rows of 5 on 4 on 3 on 2 on 1 while chanting]

Give us an "T!" Give us an "O!" Give us a "W, E, and R"

"What's that spell?"

[as they all go tumbling they scream]

"THE TOWER!!!!!"

Hagalaz day!

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Ierne

18:05 / 20.03.02

Is this normal and I should quit worrying? – doubting thomas

Yes.

Once you start doing it and get some success under your belt, those worries will fade away.

Sigils don't work for everyone, though – if that's the case for you, try some other methods of Magick (candle spells are pretty simple) and see what clicks.

Good luck!

Lionheart

14:05 / 21.03.02

You could always try disclaimers.

Something like:

"..and this will com,e to me with no ill effects."

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