1) What is lacking in your spiritual practice?
Any easy way to explain my approach to it, even to myself.
2) Do you ever feel like there is something missing (or that you are missing something) and you cannot quite put your finger on what it is?
Yep. Truth, proof, verification, or evidence that what I am doing and believe in is at all right. The best most faiths can offer is an assumption of miracles, which themselves cannot be verified. I am forced to take what I believe in on faith, knowing that I believe in it only because I choose to do so.
I'm never really satisfied with anything, and don't know if I ever really will be. I don't know if I want to be, for that matter, as my dissatisfaction has continued to lead me to learn and grow in to an ever more evolved creature. I'm afraid sometimes if I actually were to find some real truth, there wouldn't be any more reason for me to be here. I'm with the gnostics that any real truth on the matter of spirituality and divinity cannot be known by the flawed creatures we are, so we must continually make do with the best we have. Something always seems not quite right.
3) Have you ever felt like you have been set back to square one in your practice?
Frequently. Daily, sometimes. My square one is simply that I am, and that I should make the best of that. Do some good, catch some bliss, and gather as much of the fire of the gods as I can hold. The rest, only improves the existance part.
A lot of "enlightenment" seems to come back to just that: just be happy, do what makes for the most happiness for everyone around you. Simple, right?
Sure, all things are simple, once you're there. Its getting there that's the twisty part.
I think the point is really to stay right there at the beginning. Step one is where you'll find yourself once you've walked the path to its end anyway. Though at least from the walking of it, you can get a good laugh at the end. Of course, I can't do that, so I don't know why I'd even suggest it.
I say, get as much life in as you can, while you can, help others to do the same, and bugger the rest.
Shut up and dance. |
