Well, it is somewhat personal but since I raised this whole mishegas I suppose I can try to answer...but I will keep it somewhat general.
What hooked me was the diversity of approaches, the tolerance for eccentricity (that yogic heritage), the incredible dignity and intelligent faith of the Tibetans I have had the pleasure of spending time with, the gut-wrenching self-revealing I experienced through reading Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche's "Cutting Through Spiritual Materialism", the warmth of the community I found at the SF Shambhala sangha, and perhaps most importantly, the incredible simplicity and power of shamatha/vipashyna meditation.
It may sound cliched, but actually getting your ass on the cushion day after day is an incredible accomplishment. I never expected myself to become a regular meditator but I have...and the change to my relationship to my environment, my work, my relationship, and myself...all that has been enhanced and made more gentle and relaxed. I have been able to apply maitri ("loving-kindness") more often to myself (something extremely difficult for Westerners according to many Tibetan teachers)and to others.
The sangha is definitely important and if you have not meditated in a group setting, I highly recommend it. I reckon that there is a psychological aspect of perceiving oneself being observed that enhances "performance" (there have been studies on animals that suggest that learning and subsequent performance are bettered by this) but sitting in the shrine room with 20 other folks in complete silence for an hour and a half, then chanting the evening invocations together, and then bowing in unison to the three jewels (the Buddha, the Dharma, and the Sangha)creates a real sense of purpose...ye olde superordinate goal of liberating all sentient beings.
So yes, I drank the kool-aid and it has been one of the best things I ever did. I hope that answers at least some of the questions. Feel free to ask more if you like.
Warm regards,
Mark |