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Progress Report from a Beginner

 
 
Perfect Tommy
09:13 / 17.10.01
Hi. Since I have posted so many "How do I..?" and "So, what's the deal with..?" threads in this forum, I thought I'd share my most recent bit of beginner-mage success. Well, perhaps my only bit. By which I mean, this was very rewarding for the teensy bit of effort. Armchair mages, please apply. I am not kidding.

Last night, I took another look at Pop Magic on grant-morrison.com. I tried Exercise 1:
quote:As a first exercise in magical consciousness spend five minutes looking at everything around you as if ALL OF IT was trying to tell you something very important. How did that lightbulb come to be here exactly ? Why does the murder victim in the newspaper have the same unusual surname as your father-in-law ? Why did the phone ring, just at that moment and what were you thinking ? What's that waterstain stain on the wall of the building opposite ? How does it make you feel ?

Five minutes of focus during which everything is significant, everything is luminous and heavy with meaning, like the objects seen in dreams.

Go.

Eh. Moderately amusing, nothing incredible. Amusing enough that I decided that since I needed a walk anyway, I'd do Exercise 2:
quote:Next, relax, go for a walk and interpret everything you see on the way as a message from the Infinite to you. Watch for patterns in the flight of birds. Make oracular sentences from the letters on car number plates. Look at the way buildings move against the skyline. The noises on the streets, voices cut into rapid, almost subliminal commands and pleas. Listen between the lines. Walk as far and for as long as you feel comfortable. The more aimless, the more you walk for the sake of pure experience, the further into magical consciousness you will be immersed.
I headed down my street trying to ascribe meaning to whatever I saw. On my own initiative, I brought a notebook with me. A couple minutes into the walk, I thought I glimpsed from the corner of my eye someone huddled under a blanket, hiding behind the bushes. When I looked full on, there was no one there, of course. Ordinarily, I would have chuckled and moved on. But I elected to believe in some sort of presence that really was there, and allowed myself to become unnerved and a little frightened. This was Exercise 2 beginning to work.

Less than a minute afterward, I stopped to gape at an honest-to-God sigil scrawled two-feet high on a wall. Not a recognizable tag I misinterpreted at first glance. Not someone's screwed-up numeral 6. I cannot think of anything else it was other than "some weird abstract symbol" (hobo language? beats me). I dutifully recorded it in my notebook, and since everything was supposed to be meaningful, noted that the color of the wall the sigil was on was the official color of magical consciousness.

Other major incidents on that 30-minute stroll included:
  • I determined the name of the King of Hollywood. Three similar word beginnings in close proximity (two billboards and a hotel sign making a small triangle in my field of vision) gave me the name of some entity, and passing a honda Civic with REY in the license plate gave me his title, King of the City.
  • Picked up two demon names from the sidewalk. The first was written in all caps over an inverted star in the concrete, the second was a small inobtrusive name on the border of a concrete square (and was actually a misreading of "Hugh" for "Hygh", which seemed a good demon name).
  • From the license plate "5LND076", began critiquing Lando Calrissian's place in the Star Wars world. I started calling him "the betrayer betrayed"; he screws over Our Heroes, is screwed over by The Empire, and in turn reneges on his deal with The Empire. He won the city he administrates in ESB from someone in a card game, and in Jedi he is first shown in disguise, and later flying someone else's signature ship (the Millennium Falcon) -- does he have his own identity at all? That kept me entertained until whatever the next insight was. You can tell I was pretty into this at this point.
  • Being a pragmatic sort, I wasn't on an aimless walk, but on my way to a cafe I like, in case the whole "magical consciousness" thing turned out to be a bust. But by the time I got there, I was a little too into "stare at everything and try to make up meanings" to easily stop. I passed some sort of utility marker symbol on the sidewalk, and ignored it because I was trying to stop. Then passed an identical one, and ignored it too. When I hit the third one, I realized: I wanted to stop, this symbol was presenting itself to me three times, and three is the number of endings (at least in Priest/Minister/Rabbi jokes). So I took that symbol as a graphical equivalent of "So mote it be" or something like that. When it is repeated three times, as a gesture or on paper, it is a quick "this ritual is over" signifier... I figured it wouldn't hurt to do something grounding afterward, too, but it's a way to turn on the lights and blow out the candle. I practiced the symbol until it started to feel like a regular handwritten letter.
All I did was start to invent something for just about everything that struck my eye -- not making words out of every license plate, but letting my eye wander over license plates until a word jumped out, for example. If something jumped out strongly and decisively, I took notes on it. If not, I let it roll around in my head, trying to invent a story for it, while keeping my eyes open. If I found something new to interest me before I had anything, that first thing was discarded, but I did try to genuinely give each thing that leapt to my senses some brain time.

There were more things than I have listed, but I've gone on way too long. One more interesting thing, which took place AFTER the walk, was that I had a burst of angry skepticism -- I was sitting near a woman who was regaling her companion with every hippie concept in the book, from astral planes to past lives to loving too much, in a manner that bugged the hell out of me. Was this a response to my time of unmitigated credulity? Beats me. (At least the overheard conversation got me some potential dialog for the novel in November.)

I don't know what to do with the "information" I received, but it's all recorded for when I figure something out. Regardless, I can't even express how much this one exercise got the ideas of invented meaning across to me in a practical sense. The scene of Dane inventing the magickal word "TOTEP" from Top Of ThE Pops finally makes perfect sense. Try it!

[ 17-10-2001: Message edited by: doubting thomas ]
 
 
Wyrd
09:13 / 17.10.01
Fascinating Captain! I figure you might have some interesting dreams on all of that.

Try meditating on the names and/or sigils, and see what pops up.

Actually, it sounds like you have a very strong connection to the City, and It's very happy to converse with you.

Keep enjoying those wide-eyed walks.
 
 
..
09:13 / 17.10.01
A captivating story for sure, and as a fellow beginner I found it inspirational. Just one question though: Which colour is the "official color of magical consciousness?"

Good Luck in your further magical pursuits...
 
 
Perfect Tommy
09:13 / 17.10.01
Well, to me, it's now a particular shade of blue-gray. To be precise, the shade of the wall in front of 2040-2046 Highland Ave., near the Hollywood Bowl.
 
 
SMS
09:13 / 17.10.01
quote:Originally posted by doubting thomas:
[i]One more interesting thing, which took place AFTER the walk, was that I had a burst of angry skepticism -- I was sitting near a woman who was regaling her companion with every hippie concept in the book, from astral planes to past lives to loving too much, in a manner that bugged the hell out of me. Was this a response to my time of unmitigated credulity? Beats me. (At least the overheard conversation got me some potential dialog for the novel in November.)


Just wait until you hear a couple folks denouncing all those hippie concepts as rubbish, acting as though they have all the answers. Seems like the whole evening was an act of skepticism to me.
 
 
Perfect Tommy
09:13 / 17.10.01
Well, I didn't say anything. I think I was cross because she was so very self-assured and unquestioning after I'd been spending the evening making things up...

Your point is taken; the reaction I was having was highly unusual for me, since I've usually found that I defend the unpopular idea in most contexts. If I were just that bitchy all the time, I probably wouldn't have mentioned the phenomenon as unusual.

[ 17-10-2001: Message edited by: doubting thomas ]
 
 
deja_vroom
16:08 / 09.11.01
Really interesting thread. I've been trying to make magick work for me for the last - what, 4, 5 months - and I have to say that, in a certain sense, things are really slow. None of my spells has worked so far. Those who remember me as z3r0 may remember my annoying, pointless rants on how this magick thing was shite.
This is just some "news from the front" which align with that "stroll on the city" narrative:

I should point out I make shit up. All my spells are gradually getting more complex and I'm starting to develop a set of mind tools/symbols to use in each ritual. These tools/symbols have been hammered into my scope of attention by synchronicities. I'm up to my neck in synchronicities. Some of these tools I have pretty much figured out what they serve for, others I'm still working on. So far, they are: the color red (It got to the point where I would buy an M&M and it would have a red tag with big letters asking "Wheres the red?". Yesterday I dreamed with a red elephant. I said to it “Hey, Ganesha, could you please do _________ for me?” etc etc.), Horu's eye (it's popping all around. Things have been happening), a moebius strip (completely lost for this one), a magic thing to do with my fingers. Like a sacred position to keep my hand in. (“Prana”, it’s called?? Please help), that an insurance company advert told me I could use to “Dream with the future”, and other items that I don't remember now. (ONE very helpful advice I've learned from this board and I suggest you to follow is, unlike me, WRITE STUFF DOWN!).
Now: as far as Chaos magick goes, it’s OK to make shit up. But I think I could get great ideas/hints from books, and I don’t now anyone who could teach me, and here in Brazil I didn’t manage to find any of P Hine’s books, or related stuff. So I’m kinda lost (except for the Universe, which I think it’s always giving me more food for thought. But its pace is slow…). And I don’t know where to go from here…
I'm glad to recognize the patterns all around, everything is connected, yada yada. But I still want some of the goodies, and all I want is that one of those stupid sigils work…
So there. Hope you enjoy the reading. Of course, the resources pointed here are really helpful, tks a lot. See ya.
 
 
Rex City-zen
16:25 / 09.11.01
Just one question though: Which colour is the "official color of magical consciousness?"

The Color of Magic by Terry Pratchett states:
Ocatrine!!!
 
 
Ierne
16:26 / 09.11.01
Like a sacred position to keep my hand in... – Imperador de Jade

Those are Mudras, Jade. They can be Buddhist or Yogic.
 
 
deja_vroom
13:02 / 12.11.01
Tks Ierne!
 
  
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