Stoatie, you hit it on the head for me. I am a patriot, and I just want things in the U.S. to work out. I am a dreamer, a wisher, and an optimist, and I know, completely out of my mind to be this way.
I did say I like Bush because of his speech writers and PR people, I said it as a self deprecating joke. Because I know that I need to change my thoughts, I know that I am behind the times. Bush is the REAL jokesuit.
What I was saying earlier is that I am not ready to deal with the big change all at once. My political views, and my blind faith in Bush, defineD me to a large degree.
I need time to pick up the pieces of who I thought I was, and reshape my political views.
Did I that I am 22 years old? I am just coming out of my cocoon, Bush ran for president the first time when I was 18, I helped my grandpa stuff envelopes with pro-bush propaganda. I felt like I was part of something, does this make sense to anyone out there?
I am here. That is a step, and as I reshape my views (sometimes clumsily). I have been fumbling around awkwardly in the dark, and instead of flipping on a light, some of you (not very many) have been complete jerkoffs, getting off, on giving me shit.
Take a look at who you are, and really think, are you so damned great that you can look down on someone else, and crush my fingers as I grasp to the edge of a cliff?
I am trying to be a better person, I am gaining knowledge and experience every day. It is easy to call me a jokesuit, so easy to disregard me as a person altogether. I am that homeless guy outside the mall, holding a sign, “I will work for knowledge” and you,… you are those people that just walk by, holding your noses. If I am lucky enough, I might hear you speak to your friend as you pass, “Bums, fuckin trash, what is our city coming to?” don’t talk to him, don’t feed his starving mind with thought, fuckin jokesuit, Steve loving fudge packing bastard.
I am calling you out, you intellectual ejaculators; -I challenge you- to treat me like a human being. Be god damned decent for week, hell a day even, you might find that the view is better when you share it.
There, that is it. To those great people who have been able to give me hand now and again, even when that hand was one correcting me onto the right path, thank you. |
